well, sweetie, it's all a mindset. For me, it's not really so much about "motivation" as it's about remaining conscious about how I'm taking care of myself and making choices based on what I really value on a deeper, more permanent level. During the day, it just comes back to, "Who do I want to be? A fat, wistful, unhealthy person? Or a vibrant, active, fully engaged healthy person who's improving her life?" When I think in those terms, it makes every choice simple. It may sound melodramatic or overblown, but really, that's how I've made it this far. Each of our days is full of choices, and I believe that those choices reflect who we are, not who we want to be. And sometimes you're not yet at the point of being who you want to be, so you have to ask yourself, "What would I do if I were the fully realized me that I want to be?" And then you know what you must do. It's not really about motivation for me, it's much deeper than that. It's about readiness, and willingness, and valuing myself enough to let myself be who I want to be. I went through a very painful and self-destructive period -- I lost my way and sort of left myself. And I'm now working hard to get myself back to full presence in this world, full presence in my own life. Every choice counts. None is permanent, but they're all important. So it's about that for me......it's heavy, and it's deep, and it's life affirming and it's real.
If ever you need anything, Lynne, I'm here for you. I wish peace for you as well.
thank you. I also feel the same way, except I feel "not my true self". I know I have alot of baggage in my life now and I am working on that, especially use the "stuff" as excuses. I am/ have been and extremely strong person and have overcome alot. But feel stuck right now. I do agree with you that none of it is permanent, it is just a matter of working through it and being who I want to be. 
How is everyone? Did another mile last night. I woke up late this morning 
so I didn't have time to walk -- but I'll make up for it tonight, I promise! Here's the exercise plan for tonight and the weekend:
and I can honestly say that I have definitely felt better in my life. This one has been a killer. Interminable, painful, and annoying. But this too shall pass, no? An aside here -- In my experience the only real downside to being a lesbian (aside from the legal and social inequalities....but that's a rant for another day) is that you invariably end up getting your period together. So here's my imitation of Lorraine and Sarah last night: 
I ended up walking only a mile 
) and I intend to retain some semblance of control, but still will allow myself a little leeway......so maybe I'm attempting to be proactive in easing my conscience! 
i don't have kids of my own but i have a neice and nephews and work at a daycare. sometimes i think "what did i just say??? cringe" what i think is so funny is the way we are supposed to teach kids to think independently and be creative and then get upset when they don't do what they are supposed to and join the group. kids must think adults are all crazy!!! if you are having problems getting your exercise in maybe you could sit down and make a plan for the week. it's a commitment you make with yourself (which can be so hard, admittingly). an appointment you wouldn't break just like an appointment with your boss, client, dentist, child's teacher. you get the idea. you don't even have to do a whole hour (for example) at a time. 20 mins here and there. like 20 minute walk before work, 20 minutes weights before supper, 20 minutes yoga after son goes to bed. something like that. on the weekend, (just as an example, i don't really know if it is realistic for you) your son could ride his bike and you could jog beside him. i really liked your idea of jogging during his football practice. grade 3 and playing football, how cute is that. when you first said your son plays football i thought he was a teenager 
. 
. So I thought it strange and came here and checked it out - I'VE MISSED ALOT! Sorry. 
I'll be more dilligent and throw more bones 
Frankly not a good 
time of year for me. As Sarah said...and this too shall pass....I hope....
just watching me run - three bras and all.
and you'll feel good all the time. what happened to your shoulder?