Hello everyone. Nice to see so many new people. Always a big welcome! I have been tracking a little closer this week trying to get back on track. I did the scale the other day and then again today as its happy friday! The little white square was nice enough to say I was down .5 not much but this girl is taking it and running any movement down is a go! I made a good choice last night to pre count my cals before dinner. Then I knew exactly what I had left to utilize without going over. I am going to continue to try and do that as it will make a difference hopefully. Sometimes extra cals just get est. and end up making me really go over the edge. WELL have a great weekend everyone and keep moving. Apple season is here and the fiber keeps me full so they are one of my favorite snacks. Check out different types its a good healthy fulling snack and with fiber to boot.

Good morning all!! I don't know what the scale says, but right now I am so happy that I have my car back!!! I can go places, and get things done! Will make it to the gym early this afternoon, then off to a friends house to see theri new baby and visit. The kids are really excited and have been looking forward to this visit. Hoping that there is downward movement when I get on the scale.

Hi all,
I'm keeping up with the walking, and I was happier with the scale today. I had started eating deserts - like, a lot, and then its a binge, without adding up the calories, and a recent news item shocked me out of it. There was a to-do in New York City over outlawing use of hydrogenated oils in restaurants, and I heard that these raise the LDL (mine is high). I am horrified that with all my efforts to eat right, this devil was slipping in - and in a big way. So this is my 2nd or 3rd day with no sugar and I aim to keep it up. I have had a bit of honey, but maybe that will go too.

Ellen~ Yep, our car has been in the shop for nearly a month. Fortunately DH gets home 1:45.

Carol ~ keep posting, and hurray for fruit! I can't do too many apples - I think baked is ok for those like me.

Bailey ~ no killing allowed here. Wow 22 yo twins.

Other newbies ~ are you lurking out there?

I am having a decent week after a bad monday. I forgot my dinner at home so I was forced to either eat at work or wait unt 11pm to eat. So I ate a veggie burger at work, It wasnt too bad but not what I wanted. I am having my little sister spend the night with me tonight and taking her to her soccer game in the morning. I am calorie cycling (did it unintentionally before, so when I put it all on a spreadsheet I realized what I was doing.) I am trying to stay at a 1450 average! I am feeling so energized this week, thank goodness for multivitamins!!! (I forgot to take them when I was at Disneyland and the week after)

Good morning everyone!

It was a very busy weekend-we had to go out of town to visit with my father and stepmother, and to go visit my SIL in the hospital-she had her baby on Friday morning. (Our due dates were 4 weeks apart...and we were pregnant bridesmaids this summer in my younger SIL's wedding.) We ended up having our babies 7 1/2 weeks apart though, because I had Saber early.
Other than being boys, our babies are complete opposites. Hers was 7 lbs. 11oz. and tiny...mine was 9+ pounds and BIG...hers blue eyed and almost bald (wisps of light blonde hair) and mine with brown eyes and a full head of black hair. We took pic of them together-and it is like yin/yang.
I am hoping to get some dancing and strength training done today.

Tonight I took my kids to the movies, and boy what a mistake that was. My boy (he'll be 1 in two weeks) I have realized is afraid of the dark. He would not stop crying once the lights went down. (maybe that is why he only sleeps for 2 hours at a time) So I took him to the lobby and eventually left the theatre all together to wait for my hubby and daughter. So I bought us a blizzard to share, (Tommy has a tooth coming in and I knew that the ice cream would feel good on his mouth). I new it was going to be a high high calorie treat, but not even in my wildest dreams did I think that it would be over 700 calories!!!! It's done and over, I just have to use today as my high calorie day for the week. (Luckily I hadn't had dinner yet so I made sure that my dinner was Very low cal so my cals for the day 1748). I also only got in 20 minute pilates and 15 minutes on my stationary bike. I cant believe my mind set. 2 months ago I wouldn't have blinked at eating 1000 calorie meals with no exercise, but now I freak.....I am glad I feel this way because I know my life will change because of it: healthier, skinnier; but I am afraid I am becoming obsessive with my diet and exercise.
I think I am going to call it a day though, I could hop on my bike again but my boy is sleeping and I think I may join him.

Went out for pizza last night with friends...I did really well (I think) I had 1 chees stick, three mushrooms, and three small pieces of pizza. one glass of beer then two glasses of water.

Unoficially I am down a pound, but TOM came today, so I am not sure if it will show tomorrow at weigh in. But, I know I have been eating better and staying with smaller portion sizes, and I have been feeling great. Kids are off tomorrow, so I am planning a quick clean up at home, then off to the gym, then to mom's so the kids can all play. THey have not gotten together in a little while because mom just got a FT job, and my brothers and sister were put into school. Mom used to homeschool, so we could have a play date just about whenever we wanted. The kiddies are really looking forward to it.

Have a great Monday!!!

Hi Everyone,

It's been quite a while since I last posted. I've had a few bad weeks and I've found it really difficult to get back on track. I seem to have pushed a self-destruct button and I've ended up eating anything and everything in sight ... the consequence being that I'm now back up to my original starting weight I feel so annoyed with myself and realise that I simply can't go on like this. I feel so uncomfortable, and when I look in the mirror I feel ashamed at what I've become ... It's not me ... It's as though the reflection is someone else's.

Well, I've given myself a long talking to and I'm very pleased to say that I'm finally back on track ... which is where I intend to stay ... however long it takes!

Nichola~I am just getting back on track too. We CAN do this together!!

Upswife ... I'm with you! I am so determined to do this! I'm not going to make any more excuses ... Just better choices

I'm so sick and tired of being 'The Fat One' when I go out with my friends ... it's come to the point now where I'll actually try to make excuses for why I can't go out. I've lost all self confidence in myself, and when I'm out with my husband I just feel sad that I now look old and frumpy instead of the slim attractive woman I used to be. I often wonder what he really thinks of the way I look, deep down ... I mean, I know he loves me, and it's not very often that he mentions my weight (he knows how I'll react!), but occasionally he has voiced his concerns about health problems and he does try to encourage me to lose weight ... but I wonder what he REALLY thinks about the way I look ... I know what I would think of me if I were him! What the **** happened to me?!

I know I can't turn the clock back and look like I did when I was in my 20's ... after having kids it would take a miracle! But I do know that if I put the effort in I can make the best of what I've got, and start to feel good about myself again ... That's what I intend to do!

Nichola~I know what you mean. I was never small, but I wonder sometimes what DH thinks of my post pregnancy belly. To me it is just horrible, but he never says anything bad about my body and I am very grateful. He supports my weight loss in a very positive way.

I have been doing well for the last 5 days. I really dropped a few pounds suddenly, but I think they were coming off, but with TOM I was getting bloated, now the bloat is gone, and so is the extra weight. My goal for this week is to make it to the gym at least 3 times-hoping that I can make it a 4th day too-and keep monitoring the portion sizes. I have to run and get ready for work. I have to get the girls ready they are coming with me and DH is going to pick them up from there. Have a great Tuesday!!

Upswife - Exercise and portion control are two areas that I need to focus on right now ... Exercise, because I basically don't do any at the moment ... and portion size, because my meals have been getting bigger and bigger The silly thing is that I know exactly what I'm supposed to eat, and how much I'm supposed to eat ... but my diet scales have been totally redundant for quite some some time now. I decided to dust them off a few days ago and I've been very good about weighing my food and writing everything down, keeping track of my daily calories ... I know it's the right thing to do, I just need to keep myself motivated to do it, and I know the weight will steadily come off.

It's quite shocking how easy it is to kid ourselves into thinking that we are not overeating ... Last night I had homemade Spaghetti Bolognaise for dinner (all calorie counted of course) ... Firstly, I weighed out a portion of dry spaghetti, the amount that I would have chosen to eat if I wasn't trying to lose weight ... I was so shocked when I calculated how many calories it would have been ... around 700cals!! ... And that was without the bolognaise sauce!! I estimated that the total amount of calories would have easily been in excess of 1000cals ... just for one meal!! It's no wonder I've ended up the way I am. Anyway, as I'm deterimined to lose this weight, I reduced the portion to a reasonable 3oz of pasta (dry weight), which is around 300cals, and my bolognaise portion was around 250 cals ... so only half the amount of calories that I would have chosen to eat normally

My diet scales are now placed on top of my kitchen work surface where they will remain to be used for every meal! I CAN do this!

Nichola and Ellen, I am glad to see you both are getting back on track! I wish weight loss was as easy as weight gain!!

Yesterday I bought a chicken caesar salad but I put it into fitday before I ate it. If I would have eaten all of the dressing that came with the salad the total for my salad would have been about 800 calories. For a salad.

I don't worry about what my SO thinks of my weight gain because I know he see's me as his wife, mother to his children, and life partner. He doesn't see me as Fat, overweight,. . . . so on. He is very supportive of my weight loss and has stopped offering me candy bars and the such. He brags to the men he works with about my accomplishments on a daily basis. More than liking the "boy honey you are looking good" I like it when he says that the guys at work are teasing him that I am losing weight so I can find someone better, because I know that he is talking about me at work.


(He doesn' know it but on Valentines day I am planning a romantic weekend without the kids as a celebration of my weight loss, whether I hit my 50 pound goal or not)

Morning ladies!

I have been 100% on plan the past two days-not a single slip, and I got my exercise in both days-which is a major thing with the new baby. He is willingly starting to take a midmorning nap at around 10am, so I am designating that my workout time-and when I am finished I hurry and clean up and make my 5 year old son lunch before I take him to kindergarten. (He is in the half day afternoon class.)
Right now my workouts have to be 30-45 minutes-but considering a few weeks ago he wasn't allowing me to do ANYTHING-I'll take it.

I did a quick 2 mile treadmill walk Tuesday, and I did 35 minutes of strength training yesterday. Today is cardio again. I am still definitely not up to where I was pre-pregnancy, but I am doing considerably well. I believe 100% that keeping up with dancing and exercise all the way up until a week before delivery was a MAJOR factor.

I am aiming for 1800-200 calories a day right now (there is approximately a 400-650 calories burned each day through breastfeeding) so that leaves "me" with around 1300-1600 a day approximately-give or take. I am not even weighing in right now...I would rather weigh in once every two weeks or so and get a "surprise" rather then jump on every day waiting for something to happen.

I took my measurements about 2 weeks ago, so I am going to start tracking those as well again to see non-scale progress.

Jason (DH) has been doing a majority of the cooking dinner-since the baby usually has me busy-so I am looking up some EASY healthier recipes for him-stuff that has less than 4-5 ingredients-that sort of thing. He has done well though, even though his meals are very simple. I am proud of him for that.

Hello all,

I havent posted in months either, bad bad me I jumped off the wagon to and crashed bad, up 15 lbs since this past spring and am NOT happy at all about it but I have no-one to blame but lil ol me right!!!!! So I am trying SO hard to crawl back up on that dang wagon and my god that sucker is way up there, LOL, but I am trying and that is the main thing I guess!! Well I got married (again, lol) back in August, everything went really nice, beautiful day for it (outside wedding)! It was great having Amie (who posts on here, Amoses, who is my cousin) come up with her daughter, they was my matron of honor and flower girl and it just made my whole day having them here and both looked beautiful!!! The marriage is going great, so far, lol....

Amy ~ a HUGE congrats on the newest member of your family, he is adorable (saw the pics you posted) and what a good boy to start to get into a good routine so you can get your excersise in, good boy Sabor!!!

Nice to see so many new people in here, boy alot of us went MIA didnt we, glad to see alot of us coming back though!

Lisi ~ good to see your still here and doing good!

Amie ~ Have no fears I know you and I know you will get right back on your wagon and you will be at your goal weight in no time! Miss you already!!

Hong Kong ~ I have so many of the same feelings you do and go through so many of the same hurdles! The feelings of you wondering how your husband truly feels? I feel the same way and you know you will never truly find out or I wont anyways because he is to much of a gentleman to tell me, lol, I of course may not want to know, lol, I know he loves me but the wondering will always be there I think!

Lets keep each other on the right track and be here for each other, I knwo I need it right now!!

Heres some for all of us!!

Lori