Long post ahead! I try not to bore people with long posts. Please forgive me, I can't stop loving you.
OK,
knee news. Probably a tear in cartilege, says the doctor. Right now, he says to take pain medications and do some exercises. I go back to see him in two weeks. If my knee isn't better by then, we will consider surgery. I don't want surgery, because I don't want to take time off of jujitsu. Also, recovering from surgery would make it hard to lose weight -- the last time I had surgery on my legs, I gained a lot of weight. Plus, I have two weddings to attend this summer, and I am not keen on traveling to the mainland while using crutches.
At any rate, I am doing my exercises, taking my pain meds, and hoping that I can return to biking as well as keep up with jujitsu.
Still, I am a little depressed. The reason is that I read yesterday in Readers Digest that obese people are fifteen more times likely than normal sized people to tear cartilege in their knees. Ironically, I was reading the magazine while I was sitting in the doctor's office. I am mad at myself -- I never should have let myself gain fifty pounds. This injury is
my responsibility. Even though I never was obese, undoubtedly my weight gain put stress on my knees. Now I am paying the consequences.
Anyway, today I am recommitting myself to losing weight.
All of us in our little group constantly seem to be recommitting ourselves. Maybe we could recommit ourselves each morning and then not mess up during the day?
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Jennifer -- Ah, the bar exam results won't come in until June. By then, it would be too late to sign up for the July exam. I might sign up for that exam now, because I'm pretty sure I failed this time around.
MsRD -- I'm with you on needing to count calories, and stick to my limit every day! I could keep up that habit just a few years ago... why can't I do it now? Congrats on losing that pound. The doctor was happy, yes?
Elisha -- Hills are great exercise. You will build muscle in no time. At my undergrad, there were hills all over the place. The saying around campus was that you could tell who attended our university, by the size of people's calves.

New pets are needy, so don't worry about Ella. She'll calm down once she realizes that she has a permanent home. And YES, walk her in the mornings. I hear you about the frustrations with feeding your man. When I went on the bar-exam-study-binge for two weeks, Hubby never went grocery shopping. He never cooked healthy food. I was a bit disappointed that he didn't take up that responsibility, even if only temporarily.
Julie -- Thank you for calling us on Middle o' the Month Syndrome.

We're right at the middle-mark o' March today. Let's all
end the month like we usually
start the month. Who cares whether you lose weight, you asked? We do, chiquitita! (If you know the ABBA song, sing it in your head and think of us.)

Yeah, five pounds in two weeks is realistic, if you stick to your plan. Just think about that goal every time you want to go off plan.
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What is your biggest weight-related health concern? High blood pressure? Diabetes?
Diabetes. My father is struggling with it. And my ability to stay active. Frankly, I'll never
thrive at jujitsu so long as I have too much body fat.
What are some of your favorite healthy foods? List at least 5.
Broccoli, orange juice, Boca burgers, salads, black olives.
What doubts or fears, if any, do you have about your ability to lose weight?
That I won't be able to lose the weight, and that I'll gain it back. Positive thinking: I can succeed, because I have the tools necessary and I am a strong woman.
Does your weight loss or motivation seem to move in cycles? How do you break out of it?
I have trouble during PMS, and I lose motivation after about three weeks of being OP. Hmm... that timing is suspicious. Maybe I have to be more mindful of PMS.
What are your physical signs of hunger? Do you wait for them before eating? Do you try to prevent them?
My belly growls and I get a headache. I'll put up with a growling belly for an hour, but if I get a headache, I'll eat something.
What do you do when you slip up? Do you beat yourself up over it? Do you have an all-or-nothing mentality and end up on a total binge? Do you get right back on track and pick up where you left off?
I beat myself up. If I have one bad day, my problem is that it tends to turn into two bad days, and then more. If I could do better right away the next day, I wouldn't gain back weight.
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I liked the
Primetime show, and I would be willing to commit to a threat. Even though threats aren't how I want to motivate myself as a habit, I don't mind having one threat. Elisha and Julie have already picked weight loss time goals. I'll continue working on my April 21 goal. What should our accontability motivator be?
Another idea I've had is that we could encourage each other by pointing out
patterns in each other's behavior that seem to trip each of us up. I could use an outsider perspective. If any of you have noticed a trigger or habit that seems to de-rail me in this weight loss effort, please point it out to me. And if you want, I'll do the same for you.
M'kay, have a good day, ladies.