YES!! Finally I am getting my eating back on track! I got some good fiber cereal from the store last night (since I discovered over the weekend that I don't get enough fiber in my diet). I had 1/2 cup cereal with 1/2 banana cut up in it last night. It was so filling!! I didn't want to snack the rest of the night. I purchased a pair of pants last night that were on clearance! they were $2.00. A pair of grey dresspants. They are also a size 14! I am now in a size 20 pants. I bought these (since they were so cheap and gorgeous) as motivation to try to fit in them by this fall. I will have to look at them again but I think the color is to where I could even wear them to work this summer if I can fit in them that soon! I'm also drinking water right now. I've drank almost a full 20 oz. of water this morning. I still have my diet soda on my desk but I haven't opened it! AND I walked around the block during my 15 minute 10am break! I walked for 10 minutes. It's a little chilly for it today but the sun's shining around one side. (there are ice puddles on the other side) I'm not as stressed about the job thing today. I'm fine. If I don't have a job, I will apply for unemployment. It will all be well. And I'm finally starting to feel much better from that darn bronchitis! I think all the medicine has finally done it's job! I hope to jog some this evening! That is the last part that I need to stick back in to be totally on track!!

Cyan - We all slip up every once in a while. The most important thing is just to get everything back on track as quickly as possible. But you know that already. You've been very successful with your weight loss! (I guess I say it more to remind myself than anyone) I'm so proud of you for going to the gym. I didn't realize that I had so many roadblocks waiting for me in regards to the gym. I thought that when I wanted to, I could just start taking the little one to the daycare again and go. Oh well. I am regrouping now that I know this. I have some weights at home. 10 pound and 5 pound handweights. They should work for doing some toning at home along with my jogging. And that's just what I'll have to do and go to the gym when I can on the weekends! It will work!! Have a great day!!

Stephanie
234/226/125
SW/CW/GW

I have a long day today...ACK!! its school right after work...debating if I should leave work early but dont know yet...I dont get paid if I dont work..so gotta really think about it.

I went to the gym last night...did some cycling for a warm up and then I did the weights...I couldn’t do any ab machines...my abs are way to sore...the top portion of my abdominals are anyway...like the top of my stomach...man I had no idea ..I worked those puppies out on monday but still no go yesterday...funny thing is that today...they are much much better...so I am sure I will be able to work them out friday. The rest was fine...did arms, shoulders, chest, back and legs...about 1.15 minutes...kinda cool. Looking forward to my next gym workout this friday.

I have to set up my home office this weekend..I have planned for sunday...Mario will help me move furniture...I spoke with him on the phone yesterday....for about 2 hours...for a guy who told me he is not a big phone person and that its hard for him to make conversation...well he sure hasnt had any problems talking on the phone with me....which of course I am grateful for..I enjoy talking on the phone. But I would of prefered to talk in person...we usually talk to each other while we hug...I know kinda mushy....but it just kinda happens...before I know it...we are wrapped up in each others arms talking....ok smooching too....he rocks! He’s a metrosexual in a burly man’s body...too funny. He is picking me up tomorrow at work...I cant wait to see him and spend the evening with him.

Meal Plan for today
breakfast: hummus and french bread
lunch: shrimp salad sandwich on french bread
dinner: beef steak sandwich..yes on french bread
snack: pear and yogurt
beverages: water, tea and diet cola

exercise: just walking today

way too much bread in today’s diet...going to school after work makes it hard for me...sigh! just a couple of more weeks to go before this class is over...YAY!!

Good going on getting your eating back on track Steph...I am still having a hard time with the pie...lets just say there is no more pie in the house...thank goodness...I am happily digesting it...argh!

Ok have a good day

Cyan

Cyan - I'm posting quick! I don't feel like I have much time for anything. I have about 3 hours of work left!! I'm kind of excited. I'm making mental notes of all the things that I need to do since I won't be working!!

On an awesome note, I got a great gift this morning!! 1/2 pound weight loss!!! YIPPEE!!! I'm so happy about it!! That puts me down to 225.5 pounds!! WOOHOO!! It's so great to see that my hard work is paying off!!
I hope you're doing well!! Have a wonderful day!!

Stephanie
234/225.5/125
SW/ CW /GW

I wish it was the end of my work day instead of the beginning..no one is here but me and the other programmer...the rest are in florida or in bed sleeping...sigh!! I had a long day yesterday...this work and school thing is just too hard for me...thank goodness its the last class next thursday...looking forward to wrapping that class up. I also met with my friend after class for chai tea and to meet one of her close friends..it was all good...then on the way home, we met another friend of hers...Mouse...very friendly guy...anyway, it was pleasant convo all the way home.

Spoke with Ivano last night...he is hanging in there...doing the best he can...still grieving him Mom but that will take some time but at least he is doing better most times. I feel bad that I havent seen my Mom since Sunday...sucks...I will go tomorrow...I have to find more time...but its so hard with work, school, boyfriend, Gym, friends, house chores...I have a ton of clothes to wash tonight...seriously and my room looks like a bomb hit it...ACK!! Maybe I should go home early so that I can visit with my Mom before I go home...cause tonight I go to the gym for 6pm...as usual..Lisa will be there...we buddied up and it works really well...its always great to have a friend go with you...keeps you going.

I didnt get to speak to Mario tonight but he is picking me up at the gym tonight and coming over to my house for the evening...looking forward to seeing my man.


Food wise has been so so...I has a chocolate bar yesterday...1/2 of a big one..so its like having a regular bar...cadburry’s ...time of the month is around the corner...I usually crave chocolate around this time. I have been on a plateau again...I am at 153 to 154 so I am actually up 1-2 pounds from 152...very angry about this...but cant really blame the numbers...I have been eating more calories..just hungrier and I am hoping that being around the time of the month...and my new weight training program. Dunno...but I have to focus on going back to 1200 to 1400 calories per day....somehow I must shave off those 200 or so calories that I have been eating for the past 3 weeks or so...not helping me at all.

On the up side...I am wearing my new size 8 levis jeans..yes stretch jeans LOL but they look good ...not tight but fits right...so its all good...cant wait to fit into a size 6...man that will be awesome the day I buy my first pair of size 6 trousers or jeans...I used to be a size 6 back in college...over 10 years ago...that would rock!!

I am roughly 12-14 pounds away from my first goal but I seem to be dragging my feet about this...it would be so much easier if I could just be ultra strict and move these pounds off of me once and for all already...just getting frustrated with this bull poop.

anyway...I think I will focus on portion control...scale back on how much I am eating just a wee bit and hopefully this will get me losing again...I am working out...so that part is going great. and once the weather improves, I will be back to walking to work and home again..that will add another 40 to an hour of walking everyday.

Meal Plan for today
breakfast: carnation breakfast with skim milk
lunch: shrimp stuffed pepper
dinner: maybe sushi ...dont know yet or chicken breast with vegetables and salad
snack: grapes and yogurt
beverages: water, tea and diet cola

have a great weekend everyone

Cyan

Sorry I haven't posted in such a long time. I am on a computer all day but not able to post from work, so when I get home I almost feel like not looking at a computer anymore at all!!

Things have been going okay. I am a bridesmaid in 2 weddings coming up and last weekend went to a dress fitting for one and a measuring for the other. That is totally depressing!! The woman at the first one told me it would cost over seventy dollars in alterations because of my hips and the style of dress--she basically has to re-work the whole thing--Yikes!! The second measuring was an older Italian lady who told me I was too big in the hips yet again!! Ah well, that's the way I am built, so I guess I have to enjoy it since seamstresses don't!!!

I have had good eating days and bad ones. Good workouts and none at all. So I guess you can say it all balances out to not too exceptional but not bad. I have been maintaining my weight lately but not accomplishing any goals of losing weight so far. Haven't been too focussed on it because I have been just getting used to all of the changes and events going on.

Cyan, so happy to hear about your new love. He sounds very special and I think it sounds as if you are a great match!


Stephanie, I am sorry to hear about your job. You sound like a very bright and determined individual who will find a way to make things work out for you. We will be thinking about you and hoping all of the best.

Lisa, you are right I am getting married...but we are postponing it until next year because this year is too full of weddings and anniversary and 50th birthday celebrations. We want to go away to a tropical place and then come back and have an outdoor party as a reception. Are your kids home yet?? I could see how you would miss them. It wasn't so long ago that you had the baby and it still may take some time to lose the weight. If you can re-focus, I think that you will reach your goal. You accomplish so many other wonderful things in your life that I am confident that this is just one more thing!!

My guy and I sat down today to plan our summer in terms of outings etc.

We were thinking of going to Mammoth Caves in Kentucky. Anyone ever been there before? If so, any feedback on how it was??

Talk to you all soon!

Cjunk

P.S. Cyan--no pie this week!!!

hi....everyone im new here ...and i already love this website its great.......wish to speak to lots of you out there., and im really glad to see im not the only one that falls off the wagon of dieting... especially under stress! As soon as those wheels start to buckle ..thats it im eating like there is no 2morrow.....please say hi to me soon........im from sydney australia....would love to talk to others from same place .....or any where else in the world...........bye for now chubby!!

Good morning all! I don't have much time. I'm on the computer at the library. I only get one hour.

I have good news!! I am down two more pounds! I am now at 223.5 pounds!! I am so happy about it!
I still don't have a job. This week is a holding week for unemployment so I can't earn anything this week. If I'm still unemployed next week, I can get some money. The bad thing is that I'll only get $154 a week for unemployment. YUCK!! I've got to really look at my budget again to see where I stand with that. I must have a plan!! On a good note, my daughter is on spring break next week so it would really be nice to be able to spend that week with her. As of now it looks like I will!! I'm going to go home and clean and figure out the bills and budget!!

I hope you all are doing well!! Have a wonderful day!! I'll try to post tomorrow.

Stephanie
234/223.5/125
SW/ CW / GW

Oh well...onward with the day. I went to the gym on friday...it was a good work out...the tops of my stomach abs are still sore...so I couldt really work them out...again!! I can do some exercises but not that one machine that originally hurt my abs...I did do the rest of my body....and that went well. Mario picked me up at the gym...he had a contract job to go look at..he will be rennovating a dance studio down town...its like a 3 week job...so after his welding job...he will be going there week nights to do that...so I wont be seeing him as much once that job starts… Anyway, I got to see him plenty this weekend...Saturday I went over to his house...we went to the movies...Saw Constantine...and I ate Pizza Hut...EEEK...but it was tasty...I worked out Sunday at the gym ....so hopefully it balanced it all out. Mario came over to my house after my work out and I set up my new computer....my internet provider has to send me out a new modem that is compatible with my new puter ..so no internet at home for a week until they send me my modem....

I visited with my Momma on Saturday and I also met with my good friend on Sunday. She told me that she and her husband just bought a new fourplex...four units...and they need rennovation work...so she asked if Mario would be interested in doing that....so looks like he has more work coming his way...after the dance studio is done...the kitchen and bathrooms need redoing...So I told Mario about it...and he will take a look at that job too.

I go to the gym tonight...looking forward to that...should be a good workout..I think I will focus more on cardio tonight ...do at least 20-30 minutes of the bike.

Meal Plan for today
breakfast: carnation breakfast with skim milk
lunch: ham sandwich
dinner: oven baked trout with carrots and snow peas
snack: yogurt, fruit smoothie, pear, and plum
beverages: water, tea and diet cola

exercise: gym

Welcome chubbyaussiegal ...tells us more about yourself...we want details please!! LOL

Hey Stephanie..you lost your job!! I must of missed that post...sorry to hear that your unemployment is so little..hopefully you will find a job soon that suits your needs and is more in tune with what you want to do.

Cjunk...I had no more pie this weekend...but I did have ice cream, and millefeuille pastry....two reeeses cups...individual size...Gosh...I am out of control....just typing it down here has freaked me out...I must have a clean evening tonight. Hey...you are gonna get married in a tropical setting...I was think I would like a hawaiian wedding myself. Hey when are you coming to Montreal to see your sister...we should really meet...how long have we been online buddies..I dont even know your real name...I'm Mariette by the way.

Have a great day

Cyan

I worked out last night at the gym....did 20 minutes of the bike and 40 minutes of weights...its funny how the time flies while lifting weights..I always had it in my mind that it would be boring but its actually rather fun. The scary part is that I am up to 155 this morning up from my previous low of 152 pounds...so that is scary...I am hoping its my body adjusting to the weight lifting....but I have been eating more...like about 200 to 300 calories more per day...I have to cut back on that....its the deserts...those are putting me over. Also last night...My Dad brought home a big mac...yes I ate it...ack!! I told him to not do that because I cant eat those for a little while until I start losing again....lets see if he gets it.

I also have my period so I am hoping I am holding on to some water weight...fingers crossed. Funny, I start working out really hard and I am gaining weight instead of losing it...very frustrating but I wont give up..I will keep at it...my clothes arent tighter so thats great!!

Mario is picking me up after work today...I cant wait to see him...poor fellow..he is going through a rough patch...he is quiting smoking and its very hard on him right now...he has been smoking since he was 16 years old Thats like over 20 years of smoking...anyway...he’s working on quiting and the cravings and physical addiction is of the nicotine is very hard on his body...I am hoping he can do it...I am not a smoker so I dont know how hard it is but I have heard that it is very tough.

I guess I can relate to him in some ways. I have an addiction to food...and I know how hard it is for me to control my food intake and not eat whatever I want...like last night after the gym...my friend wanted to go have a chai latte...so we went to Santropol http://www.santropol.com/ very funky cafe restaurant...been going there most of my life...check it out...neat website..anyway...they were out of chai latte...so instead of being tempted to order one of their delicious sandwiches...and they are soooooooo good...or one of their heavenly deserts...we left...Yep...didnt order anything...I went home...so I was very happy I was strong enough to turn down their delicious yet calorie laden food.

For me..its one temptation at a time...that is how I deal with it...If I mess up...I get back up...keep at it...I have been working on my sabotaging ways...trying to stop that behaviour...its hard...but its ongoing...and I will conquer it..I have too.

So I can understand how hard it must be for Mario. But if he wants it bad enough..he will do it. And it sure does look like he is trying and wants it.

Meal Plan for today
breakfast: carnation breakfast with skim milk
lunch: frozen meal...lasagna
dinner: finally that oven baked trout with asparagus and rice
snack: pear, and fruit smoothie
beverages: water, tea and diet cola

exercise: Mario is over tonight

Have a great day everyone

Cyan

Hello Everyone,

Just a quick post from work.

Welcome chubby! Also a hello to Stephanie. Some plusses do come out of not being at work--like being able to spend time with your kids. Good luck on finding a new job. I hope you find one soon!

Hello Cyan, I think we have known each other for a few years now. Strange to hear your real name but it is an awesome name. Mine is Christine, but most friends call me Chris and you are welcome to. I should be going to Montreal sometime in April and will let you know as soon as I do!! I am going to Quebec soon but that's a little out of your way.

I went rock climbing yesterday. Scheduled to go again later this week as well. Eating not spectacular but not bad.

Talk to you all soon,

Cjunk

I have to go pick up my new modem at the post office today...they delivered it to my house yesterday at around 11 am but my Dad didnt get the door.... So I couldnt install it last night..but boy am I rushing over to the post office today and picking it up. Then I will go home, change quickly and go to the gym...then later tonight I will take a look at my modem and possibly install it if it doesnt look too hard to do...hopefully it wont be.

Mario picked my up last night at work...I just got off the phone with him just now and drum roll please....he has been smoke free for over 24 hours!!! Poor fellow...he is having a hard time but he says he can do it...here’s to him going day two without smoking...Send lots of good energy his way...thank you.

Meal Plan for today
breakfast: peanut butter sandwich
lunch: leftover trout, one boiled potato, one boiled egg
dinner: tuna sandwich with green salad
snack: yogurt, fruit smoothie and banana
beverages: water, tea and diet cola

exercise: gym tonight

Have a great day

Cyan

Its my little fur bucket’s birthday today...Molly is four years old...she is so cute...a traditional ruddy colored abyssinian feline...that she is...very dainty...tappered paws and tail...the perfect halloween cat....she is very sweet and shy....has very loving eyes...I am so happy she is in my life. Happy Birthday dear Molly...hope your feline day today is full of fun things to do as you play around the house waiting for me to come home. She has an older brother ...Cyan...he takes very good care of her....His birthday is next tuesday...March 22...he will be 5 years old...and he is a wild ruddy colored abyssinian...big cougar like cat...strong paws and broad shoulders.

Anyway....I went to the gym last night...work out went well....I could finally work out my abs...so they are finally healed..but I was extra careful wit them...didnt use heavy weights at all and made sure my form was correct. Looks like I did it right because I am not in pain this morning.

Mario is still smoke free....I spoke with him last night and he said he gave away the rest of his cigarettes he had at home because it was to tempting to smoke them...I am going to Costco this weekened and buying him industrial amounts of sugar free bumblegum...his favorite. This way he can eat those as often as he likes and not fear running out of the gum. I wont see him till Saturday afternoon...I have my last class tonight...he has hockey...then Friday after the gym I am going over to Ivano’s house for his first dinner party...he has invited a small group over for indian food..hmmmm cant wait. I know he will do a great job...he is so maticulous at everything he does.

I installed my modem last night and it was easy as pie....so that means I am back on line!!

Meal Plan for today
breakfast: carnation breakfast with skim milk
lunch: small bagel with cream cheese and smoked trout
dinner: not sure yet
snack: bolthouse green goodness juice, yogurt
beverages: water, tea and diet cola

exercise: either cycling or walking

Have a super duper day

I am hoping the feelings of will follow after writing down Happy Monday...ACK!! who am I kidding...Monday mornings are always tough...I did manage to pass by the post office this morning and drop off my old modem..sent it back to my ISP.

Anyway, went to the gym on friday and Sunday...so its all good. Dinner at Ivano’s house was great...Mario and Ivano both hit it off nicely...conversation was natural and flowed easily....Mario always surprises me with his wit, intelligence and social abilities...he keeps telling me its hard for him..that he is not a good conversationalist and them...bam....he does such a great job and it seems so effortless.

On Saturday, we drove over to my accountants house which also happens to be a friend of mine...its like over an hour away and when we got there...she was trashed...seriously...totally drunk! She live with her boyfriend and they had gone over to a neighbors house and they were both drunk when we got there for 4 pm!!! It was quite the spectacle..anyway, needless to say, I didnt get my taxes done that day...instead we hung out a bit and her boyfriend made lasagna...in his drunken stupor...we really wanted to leave but felt obliged to stay...anyway, it was rather interesting to say the least...she kept apologizing...I told her it was fine...Mario felt kinda awkward cause her boyfriend kept plying him with beer and hard liquor and Mario had to keep saying no thank you....very stressful for him...he did drink 3 corona’s for the 4-5 hours we were there...and he had a spliting headache afterward!! Anyway, Mario is on day 7 of no smoking and still going strong although he just told me this morning he had a weak moment last night...after soccer he said he had a hard time sleeping and thankfully there were no cigarettes in the house...his brother is quitting too....see how the ripple effect works...just takes one person to start it...anyway, his brother is supporting him as well in terms of encouraging him not to smoke...looks like they are helping each other with this...always good to have support.

Anyway, my workout last night was fun cause Ivano came with me and Lisa and kept us company while we pumped iron, cycled, ran and did our thing...before I knew it, it was 1.15 minutes later. We then went back to my house and had Chai tea and watch a little tv. I was in bed and sleeping my 10.30pm. Out like a light...I slept over at Mario’s on Saturday night and his bed is way too soft...my lower back was killing me when I got up and I found it hard to get a restful sleep. So come Sunday night...I was tired and oh my bed is so comfortable.

Meal Plan for today
breakfast: carnation breakfast with skim milk
lunch: turkey sandwich on french bread with hummus and cheddar cheese
dinner: same thing..I am going straigth to see my Mom and then to the gym
snack: bolthouse green goodness fruit smoothie, 6 grain yogurt
beverages: water, tea and diet cola

exercise: gym workout.

Have a great day

Cyan

I had a very busy day yesterday...In the morning I hauled back my old modem to the post office...two post offices..the first one was closed.
On the way home last nigt, I passed by the SAQ ...Societe des Alcool du Quebec...its the government liquor store ...anyway, I bought two bottles of white wine...one italian and the other portuguese....I will use on of them for my mussels recipe for Good Friday dinner.

I then lugged both those bottles with my lunch bag and bag to visit my Mom....I was so happy to see her and her me...but when it was time for me to leave she sat on the chair and peed right there...I was devistated...I felt so bad...I had a hard time finding anyone to help me change her...everybody disappears around dinner time...finally I tracked down a helper who gave me attitude...but I told her she had no choice but to help me change my mother...she was completely urinated...soaked through..urine on the floor ...on her chair and in her slippers....I finally got her washed up and I noticed her brown slippers were missing...I asked the lady if she knew where they were and right away I got more attitude...I told her I didnt want to hear that she doesnt know...that she doesnt work on that floor...this is what I get all the time ....I asked for her name and at first she refused to tell me her name...I guess she is afraid I will get her in trouble...that place tires me out. The least she could of said was...I will check for you..I will find out or take note that your Mom’s slippers are missing.

Anyway, I hauled home a bag of urinated clothes to wash immediately upon getting home. I started the washing machine as soon as I got home...with extra detergent..I also let it soak for a good hour whilst I ate and then went to the gym to work out.

I ran on the treadmill for 20 minutes...first time...that really helped with the tension...then I did my usual weights. I also walked to and from the gym...my friend Lisa came back to my place and we heated up the roasted chicken and she made Salad while I showered. We ate, I finished washing my Mom’s clothes.

Then Mario called...he always puts a smile on my face...his voice comforts me...I cant wait to see him today...he is picking me up tonight. I am so looking forward to seeing him. He will be coming over for my good friday dinner...looks like Lisa and Ivano might come if they have no place to go. Sunday Easter will be spent with Mario’s family...brother and kids and bro’s GF...looking forward to that too.

Meal Plan for today
breakfast: carnation breakfast with skim milk
lunch: leftover roast chicken with carrots
dinner: thai green curry chicken with veggies
snack: bolhouse green goodness fruit smoothie, yogurt
beverages: water, tea and diet cola

exercise: Mario is coming over LOL

Ok have a good day

Cyan

But its really thursday cause friday is a holiday!!! Wooooooohoooooooooo I have lots to do for the weekend too...all good stuff. On thursday, Mario is picking me up at work and I am going to pick up the mussels for friday’s dinner just incase the stores are closed on Good Friday...dont know if they will be open and I dont want to take a chance. Anywho...I will pick up what I need thursday night. The mussels should be fresh for next day cooking...right? Hmmm will look into that.

Anyway, Mario picked me up last night at work and we had a wonderful dinner...I made thai green coconut curried chicken with veggies...turned out really good...spicey and coconutty...yum yum...I brought it in for lunch today....also some for my office pet Greg...who always enjoys my cooking so its nice to bring him some food ...especially when there are left overs that no one will eat at home...I dont like throwing away food.

Its gym time tonight...I am surprising myself with how much I am enjoying going there....for real..I find it destressing to go there and spend a good hour working out and hanging out with Lisa...she has been just wonderful with going with me all the time. She is tryingn to lose about 20-30 pounds and she is working very hard at it too. Lets just say that I am inspired and impressed by her motivation and dedication. You see...her Mom is dying from lung cancer ..so she is very stressed out too...and she suffers from schizophrenia...which is controlled by medication....if you meet her, you would never guess that she carries such a heavy load....she manages it so well. So I am so pleased that she comes with me to work out...I really enjoy her company especially when I see how hard she works at keeping her life together....she has taught me a lot by example.

Anyway, Meal Plan for today

Breakfast: carnation breakfast with skim milk
lunch: coconut curry chicken
dinner: turkey breast sandwich with hummus
snack: strawberries, yogurt
beverages: water, tea and diet cola

exercise: gym tonight...cardio and weights

Have a super duper day

Cyan