Thanks for the input neurodoc! There is a stool softener sold here called "Koraku" which may be related to "Colace;" I have used it a couple times but worried about its habit-forming properties. It's taken the same way Metamucil is; mixed with water and tastes like seeds. As far as weight loss things go, congrats on 120.6!!!!!!!!!! Just seeing it, knowing you're capable of it, is so encouraging. Enjoy shopping without worrying about fat - anything specific you want to buy?

I am scaring myself, have stayed on plan all week with absolutely no problems whatsoever. Who is this new Krampus and where did she get that awesome new sense of self-control? Sadly a week at eating under 1400 hasn't done anything, and I actually weighed more this morning than I did last Friday. I have noticed I feel less hungry; perhaps I should eat less? I don't know. I hope I didn't break my metabolism while I was binging and yo-yo-ing wildly for the past month(s).

Good job staying OP guys! I'm not doing such a good job. I haven't been able to exercise all week because of my various tendon issues. Not exercising + TOM + bad weather + self pity = eating junk. OTOH my weight has restabilized at 136 so not too bad.

Tailbone doctor is changing my prescription since I called and said it wasn't helping at all. I didn't take any anti-inflammatories today and my wrists feel much better. I'm almost afraid to start taking the new one which I'm picking up from the pharmacy tonight. If my wrists are better then even if my feet are screwy I can at least ride the stationary bike. Still waiting on lab results from the endo.

Jessica, you crack me up with your references to the "tailbone doctor." What the heck is that? Do you mean an orthopedist? A rheumatologist? A physiatrist? I wonder how many people call me a "dementia doctor" behind my back (I see a lot of older patients with Alzheimer's disease)?

Krampus, I'm pretty sure that Koraku isn't Colace. Colace is docusate sodium - read the ingredient list to see if that's what it says (in Japanese, of course). The capsules are typically red and white, and sort of translucent, like the material inside is a gelatin (though I've never cut one open to look). I've never ever seen Colace that looks like metamucil, or was meant to be sprinkled.

Weird day yesterday - I overate everything in sight from the moment I got up until about 9pm, when I simply became tired of it. This morning, it occurs to me that all I did was eat like I did when I was 174#. Nothing was all that bad ... it was just TOO MUCH. Unbalanced toward the breads and cheeses, deficient in fruits and veg. The prior week went quite well - I was feeling like I was settling into the groove of knocking off these last pounds finally. Today has no cravings or compulsions (except to go to the grocery store and restock on the good stuff). Was that a "cheat day"? I guess I had it in my head that good habits were just good habits, and I wasn't going to have to think about it all that much.

krampus - give the plan a chance, I'd suggest. Don't we tell all the newbies in the support group to go three weeks at least before deciding something isn't working? The scale might not be responding yet, but if you're happy, energetic, and not hungry, you must be doing something right. And hey, if it's the same plan that worked before, it deserves an honest chance to work again!

jessica - glad you're getting some improvements! Good luck on dialing in the right combination.

I've gone on 3 interviews outside the company, and thoroughly clicked with one of them. Headhunter feedback said I was the top candidate as of last week, so crossing fingers. I withdrew from consideration on one - I knew it wasn't a good fit, and the other one would be a decent backup. And I have two possible internal moves, one of which meets what I want from a job. Now it's the waiting game, which still feels a whole lot better than anxiously doing nothing. There's another reorg in the works, I'm hearing. Next week could be very, very interesting!

I woke up yesterday to a high weight and I really don't know why. I was extra careful yesterday and it all whooshed away (thankfully). Now to continue with that extra carefulness!

Neurodoc - I've been taking one colace every night with my allergy meds for about two weeks now (the generic version, so brown and white rather than red) and I think it might finally be helping. The last two days have been much regular than normal for me lately. I was glad to see you recommend it, I was about to stop it earlier this week but kept at it when I read your comments. Thanks!

I know I've posted about this before, but I went clothes shopping today and once again found myself both exasperated and amused at the absurdity of vanity sizing. I picked up a pair of khakis at Express that looked to be a size 6-8 and laughed when I saw it said 0. So of course, they have to have a 00 because, after all, some women are smaller than a 26" waist. A little later I was in Macy's and took a look at the BCBGMaxmaria line. Now here the clothes were tiny (the vanity going on was whether or not you could fit into the teeny clothes), but still THEY HAD SIZE XXS. That looks like a porn film rating, not a size. Could they just label things 2, 4, 6, etc? It's like the sizes at Starbucks- Tall, Grande and Venti instead of small, medium and large, because they think you'll forget what you're getting if they re-label it.

Anyway, clothes shopping was not the unadulterated pleasure I thought it would be. Between having to find 0-2P, having unfashionably broad shoulders from weight lifting, and hating the ruffles and billowy blousy styles that are all the rage this spring (and oh my god, some of the colors...), I only managed to get 1 pair of pants, 2 shirts and a tank top. Total fail on the business clothes front, which is a problem because I have a conference at the end of next week in Miami and my only suits that fit are for winter. Anyway, I'm grateful that I need new clothes because the old ones are too BIG for a change, instead of too tight.

Happy Easter to all of you who celebrate it.

. . .'til October (Turkey time).

No more excuses for cake, wine, chips, beer, etc. etc. I'm looking forward to getting to goal by mid-end of June. This is getting embarrasing

At least I had all the Easter stuff last night - one really nice chocolate bunny and 2 glasses of shiraz. Now I'm a day ahead on getting OP with diet cals.

Happy Easter to those who celebrate!

Dagmar

Happy Easter, Passover, a late Ostara!

I think this will be my first Easter without the pull of jellybeans. It's just not worth it any more to have to search hard to find some with natural coloring, and it's not worth it to bloat up 4 pounds for Monday. I've had a bit of premium, 86% dark chocolate, and today there will be a glass of wine or two ... but otherwise, I'm good.

Exercise: Spouse and I have 10 of the 17 fruit trees planted (the apples and peaches), and fencing to give the babies a fighting chance against roving packs of #@$% deer. I am bone-weary and sore - so glad to be heading to my mom's for dinner.

Blarghhhh binged last night, first time in over 2 weeks. At least they're getting further and further apart. Really can't pinpoint what triggered this one.

Back on the hamster wheel from today. Treating today as just another day, no "detoxing" or "compensating" necessary.

Me and you both Krampus. Binged big time today, from mid-afternoon onward (just quit about an hour ago, after consuming a final bowl of air-popped popcorn). I refuse to tally up the calories, as it would be completely pointless except to make me feel worse. I JUST HATE THAT LOSS OF CONTROL. The sad part is, I don't even binge on yummy things anymore (well, ok, the cashews were yummy), I binge on straight, bland carbs for the most part. I ate mostly matzah, rice, graham crackers and popcorn, along with the nuts. We have ice cream, chocolate, candy, peanut butter and other tasty things in the house, but somehow, I manage to justify binging in the moment because "it's not that bad- at least it's not full of sugar."

I hope all of you Easter-celebraters had a lovely day and enjoyed it, whether you ate a chocolate bunny or not.

Yeah, there was a lot of oatmeal and plain probiotic yogurt involved in my non-festive festivities. On the (morbid humor ahoy) bright side, because of all that yogurt I had no problem whatsoever "going" today and feel somewhat relieved in that department.

Coming clean today. Starting weight, 156.0. Launching a 4 month, 12-pound project, meals are planned for the week, and exercise is built-in with the rest of the fruit trees/fencing this week.

There were no jellybeans for Easter, but my evil (jk) mother had ... get this ... dark chocolate covered potato chips out. I'd never seen them before, and should not have tried one. Where does she find that stuff????

No Easter candy at all here, except for the bag of peanut butter eggs I bought for DS--which he placed in the fridge and has not opened. He has such willpower!

Was looking at old photos of him the other day. In about 5 years he's grown 2 feet and I don't think he gained an ounce! He's one skinny minny!

Dark chocolate covered potato chips?!? Those do sound evil. Luckily I haven't seen them!!

Avoided any Easter candy here. Being Jewish helps but it still came into the house through my dd.