shannon - for telling about the calorie cycling. i was a little embarrased to ask what it was. Now that i know it's like duh, it is just what it sounds like. thanks again.

Raindancer, I am sorry for your loss.

I also have something else to say to you and please take this with every bit of kindness imaginable because I mean no disrespect.

I have been noticing in your posts that now and then you seem to have a binge. I had a peek at your blog and I noticed that for your height and weight your calories are at starvation mode levels. I'm 5'3 and close to 450 pounds and I am keeping my calories at 1600. I have also noticed that while doing this my desire to binge has greatly diminished. It is not gone away entirely but at 1600 calories it is easier to keep under control and say no to an entire bag of potato chips or a container of ice cream.

I think you need to increase your daily calories to get your binging under control. I believe you are binging because you are literally starving yourself. One day (on your blog) your calories were below 1000 and for a few days they were under 1200. That is not enough for someone of your height and weight.

Please consider what I said and again...I am sorry for your loss and I hope things get better for you.

dlp - I had no idea what it was at first either! Once I saw it though, it made so much sense!

1200 calories is a base amount to keep the body going. It isn't enough for anyone that has an active life style. Even at my height If I am active I need more calories. We all have to remember we have to eat to lose. The tummy thinks the throat has been slit and it isn't going to get anymore food. It is going to let the body know. The body is going to turn all it can into fat so that it doesn't go without energy. The worst thing we can do is not eat. There is a reason there are four basic food groups ( I do understand there are those that doesn't eat meat products but they do fill in that food group with other things ). Sometimes we have to become children again. We were taught in school, at an early age, about a healthy diet.

Shy, Blue, Retiredone, Cdiem, Didjaever, Dlphnmomva, Shannon, Canadianwoman, thank you for your hugs and condolences. They meant so much to me and helped to ease my sorrow.

Canadianwoman and Shannon, I have been giving this subject a lot of thought and I agree that too few calories may be a factor in triggering my binges. I don't think that is the only reason, as I was binging when I wasn't counting calories, but it may very well be a part of it. I have decided to try a bit higher target range and see how things go. Thank you for your concern.

Yesterday was a really, really bad day for me. In so many ways, not just my eating. But especially my eating. I am still stuffed and sick and very mad at myself. I really need to learn that using food as a drug or weapon against myself is never a good idea. It never turns out well.

Rain
It is hard not to turn to food for comfort. Things that taste good make us feel good. Why do you think we eat cake at birthday party's instead of mud pies lol. When we lose someone a part of us leaves until we find the energy to let our wonderful memories keep that person with us and fill us again. My children keep my father alive for me with their stories. My son remembers some of the strangest things like my father and he watching a spider and a wasp fight and my father explaining why the wasp was going to win. Funny memory for my son to have but that would have been the kind of thing my father thought was important for my son to know. My son told me that story again yesterday and it reminded me of the time a pray mantis stalked me around the pick nick table and I was terrified ( oh how i hate those devil things ) and my father laughing and laughing and telling me how it was going to eat me. UNTIL the darn thing got brave and was coming at me and my father plucked the thing off the table and tossed it way back in the back yard lol. I will never forget screaming for him to not do that and thinking it was going to eat him alive lol. Oh the wonderful memory's time gives us and how they keep someone fresh in are hearts.

HI All,
I am having a good day. On track with calories and the past week has seemed so easy. I love it when its easy!!To bad we cant bottle it for the hard days. I have been exercising and i can tell a difference in my body again.
Today is an exciting day for me..my daughter who just got engaged is coming home tonight and we are going to start making plans. I get to see her ring today!!
I am actually looking foward to weighing in tommorow. I took a peek this morning and loved what i saw!!
hugs to all

I hope you're all having a better day than I am. I fell into the bathtub this morning! I was giving my mother her shower and I had just soaped her up and I was getting the hand held shower to clean her off. I always rinse my hand and the shower head off because my hand is full of soap. When I went to turn on the tub tap my hand slipped and I went into the tub and my thumb got jammed into the drain. Owwee, I thought my thumb was broken but I don't think it is although it is very sore. And now I can't use my step bands because I can't take any pressure on my right hand, although I can type. So I can't do my circuit workout for a few days until my thumbkin is healed.

Other than that my day was good. I weigh in tomorrow. Have a good weekend everyone.

Rain Dancer~ I noticed you are a "Daddy" girl (I always called my father Daddy regardless of my age too.) Mine passed a little over 6 years ago. It has been very hard, so I know what you're going through and what you'll have to go through. Make sure and take care of yourself emotionally! I, of course, don't mean with food though. I won't lie, it sucks. Feel free to PM me if you feel the need to chat.

Rain, so sorry to hear about your loss. It is so hard to lose a parent, no mtter how old we are.

retire
Oh my gosh, you take care of that hand and don't over work it. Hands seem to take forever to heal and we sure do find out how many times we bump a sore finger for thumb when we have hurt it.

dg
Glad things have been going well. Have fun with your daughter today.

Tinky, Zenor, Bargoo, . Thank you so much. Zenor, it is hard, isn't it? for you, sweetie.

Retiredone, owwww!!! You poor thing! I hope that you hand is much better.

Tinky, enjoy your trip! Two weeks in San Diego... Sounds lovely. I hope that you get in some serious beach and ocean time.

I had a good day, yesterday. Once the concrete left my stomach. I ate well and got a total of 1303 calories for the day. I was still way too low by evening, so I had a bow of cereal with low fat milk while I was watching the tube with hubbs. It was good and got my calories up where they needed to be. And I must admit, I have missed having a bowl of cereal in the evening. So it was a lovely treat, too.

I hope that everyone has a great day. A happy and on track day.

I hope you figure things out.

Hey, Tinky have a great vacation.

Last night DH was watching a documentary on sharks when I happened to see the sharks jumping out of the water for the bait that was held above the water. They would jump right out and latch onto the fish and wouldn't let go until they had bitten through and taken the bait under water. I looked at my husband and told him I was like that with potato chips. Once I latch on to a bag I don't let go until I have the whole bag devoured. I never imagined I'd come down with "shark syndrome."