I shouldn't laugh Ani

But you sure know how word things in a humorous way!

Seriously though...I hope you are OK? I'd probably have reacted much the same way!

One day, when I have the time, I will tell you of an incident which involved me running down the street screaming for help when, in my mind, I had it all worked out calmly!


Going back to your previous post...

What you wrote up there is soooo like me too. I can laugh and joke and be out there with friends...but when it comes to intimacy, I can't do it. That 'guy' I mentioned some time back, nothing came of it. I backed out at a hundred miles an hour as soon as he asked for my phone number!!! Why? I really don't know. I think it comes down to having to love myself before being able to let someone love me.

My hope is that with a slimmer me, I might be able to accept it and believe it when someone says something nice about me?

Am I an emotional eater? YES!!! Usually when I pig out it is with an 'I don't care about anything anymore!' attitude. This is why I say dieting is also a mental challenge. I think it is good that you are also trying to get an understanding of the relationship between your mind and you eating habits.

What you are feeling now Ani, is very much how I felt back at the start...and I still feel that way now from time to time.

Hang in there

Leeny, your background explains a lot too. Why is it that we think food will make everything better when we know it won't?

Your positiveness is catching too. And you are so right, sticking around for the future is much better then the cake on the plate today. We have to stay positive.



Not such a good day for me today.

I threw in a packet of almonds this afternoon...BLOODY NUTS!!!

Tomorrow is going to be tough too. Going out to the local chinese restaurant for dinner.

I have done my step-ups (20 minutes...not counting anymore!) and I have all my water.

Someone I haven't seen in a month mentioned that I have 'lost inches' from my legs and thighs! I can only put that down to my step-ups??


Well, I am going to work on a good day tomorrow, then enjoy dinner, and then get back into it full force after that.

Ani!! OMG! I would have died (not from the venom neccessarily, but more from the sheer shock of having been bitten by a redback!!)! I would have used that as an excuse to have a pigout, lay on the couch all day and whinge...haha.

Lindor, you and your nuts...haha. Again, I think you'll be fine with your little almonds! Sounds like you are doing so well though! Keep it up!!

Well, I did ALRIGHT yesterday, but not full-force again yet. Didnt walk, didnt drink my water and my food, altho not terrible wasnt the best. I blame DH - he was supposed to take the brownies to work with him yesterday and didnt...and if its in the house, Ill eat it, so of course, thats what I did. Not all of them of course, but I did indulge. Ugh. I promise I will get there again - I love the way I feel when I know Im doing things right and healthy. As for the other side of my life, I think Im pregnant again. I took a test yesterday and there was the FAINTEST second line (looked the same as what I had with my first test with Carter), but Im not confident in it yet. Going to wait until tomorrow morning and test again. Ill keep you guys posted. It would be cool if I am tho as I never did get my af (haha) back - that means by the time I have this second bubs, I will have had no period for over 2 years!

Anyway girls, have a great day! Will check in later!
Britt
xxxx

Good morning girls – I'm feeling much better this morning. My arm is sore, but aside from that, and feeling a little bit weary I seem to have survived the surprise!

Lindor I don't blame you for laughing … it really is a silly thing to happen. And Britt, there's no way you'd have curled up on the lounge and pigged out - a red back bite shocks your body and makes you feel really sick. I weighed myself this morning and I was 98.6kg (which is 1.2kg lighter than yesterday). I'm not gonna move my ticker yet, because I suspect it was just the shock and suppressed appetite. And I would think some of that weight will be back on me tomorrow.

Yes Lindor - we do sound really alike with our issues sometimes, don't we. I was wondering what happened to the man you'd mentioned. But I understand why you backed off too. Do you think it's about weight and self-image?

It's something for me to work on and learn from. I guess that once I find some answers for myself it will help me with the weight loss, hey!

WOW Britt, if you're pregnant all I can say was "that was quick". You know, if you haven't had a period for two years that would affect your weight loss heaps. I've gone into early perimenopause - and have only had three periods this year. I seriously think it makes weight loss slower, because your hormones are having a full-body dance party. Naughty little hobbits!

Leeny I felt really inspired by the story you shared. It's so tough, and look at how much weight you've lost.

OK – I've got a full can of outdoor surface spray sitting here. I'm off now to go on a spider-spraying expedition… and kill everything that even resembles a redback spider - even the males :-).

Hope you all have a good day. Lindor, watch out for those nuts :-)

Ani

Well, I didn't do too well at avoiding the nuts today

Nor did I manage my three litres of water...made 750ml at best

Nor did I do too well with the food intake...not only because of the nuts, but also the Chinese meal that I have just got home from. It has been over 10 months since I last had a Chinese feed! I pigged out big time and enjoyed it too!!

I did however, manage my 20mins of step-ups before I went out!

It is a tough week for me this week. My first month in my new job is being assessed this week. I really didn't think I was doing too well, but I have been given many pats on the back for my work...I just wish I could feel more confident about it! Anyone know where they are dishing out confidence by the bucket full???

Anyway, I have an extremely full belly and I am ready to crash in bed.

Tomorrow, back on the wagon!

Lindor, I reckon you're better at your job than you give yourself credit for. It would be wise to think about the positive comments and 'back pats' you've received, and try and take them on board, instead of waiting for that knife in the back. How on earth can you expect to be confident at your job after only four weeks? Or are you secretly Superwoman? Hmmm???

As for your big pig-out on Chinese tonight, it's all part of learning to live a normal life when you've lost weight. It's OK.

I've had an interesting day. Some lawyer sent me a stern letter today, telling me their client is going to sue me for defamation - and that I'm required to print a retraction/apology for something I wrote. Now before you leap to any conclusions about my integrity, and start thinking I'm a dodgy tabloid chick, bear in mind that MY legal advice is that this law firm are bullies and there are absolutely NO grounds to sue. I'm being set up by a couple of people who want to pay me back for exposing some very dodgy financial dealings that they were trying hard to hide!

Life is fun - from playing street-hero one day, falling victim to a spider's fangs yesterday … and now evil journalist who gets threatened because I DARED to speak the truth. Almost makes me want to eat lollies :-).

But I won't … I will behave myself, and do my best for the last four days of our 21-day challenge.

:-)
Ani

Last 4 days of the challenge? Where it did it go???

Sorry to hear you both are going thru it at the moment. BUT, am proud that you are still managing so well under your current circumstances.

Well, either I had a VERY early miscarriage or a dodgy test, because it was negative when I tested this morning and I spotted a bit (which I dont normally do before starting af), but I fear she is on her way. So, not pg this month Im afraid. Ah well, another month to lose some weight and get healthier.

Have a good day today girls - Lindor, like Ani said, you need to give yourself more credit. I reckon you are doing wonderfully at your new job! Ani, how are you feeling following your near-death encounter (haha)?!?

Britt

Morning girls

Ani...you brave thing. I was once bitten by a red back and ended up in hospital...rushed by the ambulance, lost control of my bowels, vomitted..not pretty. Given anti-venom and had an allergic reation to that. I ended up in the newspaper...the bloody thing was a female(with lots of babies) inside one of my childrens toy trucks in the sandpit. Bit me on the knee whilst i was playing with the truck(with the kids of course). Thank goodness it was me it got and not one of the kids as they were only little at the time. So take it easy as i know your arm must be sore. Don't worry about lawyers and stuff...my DH is a journo too so i can relate to "daring to tell all"...some people are just afraid that they will be caught thats all so protect themselves. Don't eat the lollies though...

Sorry to hear you are not pregnant yet Britt but keep trying you know you want and also that will give you more time to get healthier as well.

Lindor..chinese sounds lovely...i can smell it now. I am imagining the fried rice and sweet and sour something...oohhh....one day...
You also know that you are doing well at your job and if i have said a million times now you are much too hard on yourself. You sound like a great lady who is confident and definitly strong so you must be doing great at your job. Now i am imaging you sitting at your computer reading that and saying "yeah right"...accept the compliment and say "thanks leeny you are right"

Me...off track yesterday..well sort off. Had a major pain the in the tummy so missed breakie..too icky. Lunch was a donut...too icky too. Dinner was a piece of toast. As i said not the right food but definitely not enough food. Still not game to let the scales yell at me...Monday is the day. Today so far great...breaki...natural yoghurt, peach and sunflower seeds...yum. Sitting here with my water and just finished some gardening...i must check my gardening gloves eh ani...

Keep on going girls....you are doing fine...xxxleeny

Hey Leeny, the spider that bit me was female - it's a really nasty bite, isn't it. I feel worse today than I did yesterday - but I guess it's just the poison working through my system.

Thanks for what you said too about the defamation stuff. Honestly (and I'm sure you would know this), people often get lawyer to write "we're gonna sue you" letters, when they really don't have any intention to do so. It's very often a bluff.

My weight loss is going along well I think. I certainly feel more on track this week than I have for the past month. Monday is weigh-in day, and it's also the end of our 21-day challenge, so it will be instructive :-).

Good luck with today everyone. I'm looking forward to hearing how you're all travelling.

:-)
Ani

I will report in later with everything, but I just had to come on now to say two words...







































HOUSE SOLD!!!!

WOO HOO! That's wonderful news, and I bet you're relieved.

And those really revolting neighbours of yours will soon become nothing but a distant memory.

I'm excited for you.

:-)

Yup, H A P P Y ! ! !

There is one small thing that could cause it to fall through...but I think that is unlikely. Shouldn't get my hopes up though!


Just a quicky...

I have eaten ok today and done my 20mins of step-ups!

Not doing so well on the water though, but I put that down to drinking more coffee at work!!!

Not going to stress over the water too much!


Alright, I need to go to bed. Sorry about the brief post. Will post more tomorrow!

Night!


And what is Kathy up too? Hope she is well?

Hi girls

That is fantastic news Lindor...what a relief You can now move forward and start a new life in your unit...how exciting. Have you got your eye on one yet? Do you have much furniture to move? I'd help you but its a bit of a way to come over...he he.. Great going on your diet too...you must be on top of the world now

Ani...rest your arm you hear. I seemed to get worse as the week went on too and had a terrible sore left on me knee for ages afterwards. Drink lots of water to flush those nasty toxins out won't you

Wheres Britt and Kathy? Long time no hear from Kathy. She may be caught up in exams again this time of year. Britt...well we all know what she is doing don't we????hehe

Me...good yesterday, today so far so good. Got a bit of sore throat this morning...hoping that does not mean i have another bloody infection, just a sore throat from talking to you guys too much eh? Weekends are my test..anyone else the same? We do so much as a family and seem to be out most of the weekend so food is hit and miss. Even if we are slothing around the house or in the pool, we nibble on bickies and wine etc,,,yum but not good for the diet.

Keep well and happy everyone...xxxleeny

Hahah...Im not doing any "baby dancing" at the moment!

Im here - just been busy the last couple of days and havent been feeling too hot. Headaches, cramps, etc. BUT, af still hasnt shown, so I dont know whats going on. Im hoping the spotting I had was implantation spotting (which can happen when the little embryo is nestling in your uterus - funny the things I know, huh?? ), but time will tell. Still negative tests, but I fear its still way too early considering Im not due for af until the 30th or so. So, I will continue to wait and see. Anyway, so yeah...thats been my life for the last couple of days. I havent done TOO bad with my eating, but still not 100%. Lets not even TALK about the water - Ive been shocking with that! Its my goal to get back on track with it today tho.

Ani and Leeny, I had no idea red-back bites were so toxic! And the fact that its still making you feel unwell after a few days - I hope I dont ever have to encounter that (well, except for maybe the loss of appetite thing - I reckon that would be a perk for me!). We found one dangling from our laundry ceiling a couple of years back, but none since - not even in our garage. I hope youre feeling better today anyway Ani.

Lindor, I got chills when I read your house sold! Congrats! Thats awesome news!! Now comes the fun part of packing up and moving (ha, ya right!).

Leeny, sorry youre not feeling well. I find that weekends are actually easier on my diet as DH is home and he motivates me. During the week when its just Carter and I, its much more tempting.

Ok, well, off to do some more housework - laundry is never done...Wont be on tonight as will be another late one and wont be home until late, but will check in tomorrow!

Britt

Can I have an evening off the step-ups tonight???

I'm feeling really exhausted tonight.

I might try and make up for it over the weekend, I just don't have the energy tonight.

Hi everyone,

We're all sounding very tired, so close to the end of our 21-day challenge. Maybe it's something to think about for our next challenge - that we factor in a "day off" every week. I feel OK this morning, still a little bit sore from the redback … but determined to keep going with my weight loss.

I'm working all weekend, so will have to structure my exercise and food around that. Today I'll walk for an hour, but aside from that will mostly be chained to the computer.

Good luck for the weekend!

:-)
Ani