Hi Ladies -

First let me say that I feel guilty and unsociable because I am not responding to other posters. Two reasons: first, I am very busy at work every month until around the 17th, then I get a break until about the 27th, then I'm rolling in it again - So I only have a few days a month to really concentrate on other posts; but I think my second reason is the most important, namely, that because I am struggling lately with staying OP I have been concentrating on my own needs now. I just need to keep a clear mind and be very selfish until I can get some things worked out. And I've had an interesting revelation. I have always known that I was addicted to sugar and that SB was one great way to get myself "clean". But this morning I had a flash of insight which hit me like lightening. I love to get high from the sugar. Plain and simple, I love the feeling of the insulin rush, the sugar high, the whoop dee doo of the demon white powder. This is news to me, because I guess I used the "sugar addiction" thing as kind of a joke, but now I am realizing for the first time that this is a deadly serious thing. I must say I am kind of ashamed of it, sort of like I was admitting to a moral failing (the same way I would judge a drug addict). But then again, admitting this to myself gives me hope. I have found the enemy, and she is me. I have a long row to hoe, but at least I have one of the tools now. I don't know if I mentioned this when I first started posting here, but SB is my very last chance before I commit to bariatric surgery, which I have been researching for several months. So I am deadly serious about changing my entire life. One way or another this weight is coming off. So I just wanted to vent.

I hope everyone is having a great weekend, and I'm guessing most of you are busy busy busy because there are so few posts. -Ruby

Just got in from having dinner at my daughter and son in laws. He had smoked turkey and pork and made ww rolls. He had even made a ww crust pumpkin pie with agave, which was not only legal, but really delicious! It was fun sitting and visiting with them some. We got to play with their new kittens...it was a nice evening.

I noticed GEORGIA beat Kentucky... GO DAWGS! They play Auburn next weekend...uh oh!


RUBY: Bariatric surgery is pretty serious stuff. Debelli had something, and so did Bob, so maybe they can give you some insight. I hope SB does it for you and you don't have to do something so drastic.

I am about to drop. I am going to sign off here, and climb in bed. I may just give up for tonight and sleep in the recliner! I am too tired to deal with the bed, pillows and the pain! Night!

Is it Sunday already! Well DH finally got the roof coating on our leaky roof. Hope it works.... We'll know later on in the week cause its supposed to rain. I've got a pan of lasagna in the oven going. I can use the leftovers in Steve's lunch. Hope you can get some rest Monet. Hang in there Ruby Slippers.... The week ends for me are awful with my eating. I'm ashamed of myself there. Hi Julia! Bob! and everyone.