i am SO tired tonight....its been a busy week...yesterday i was up early and at the gym, then worked all afternoon, then had a doctor's appt half the evening, then cleaned up the house etc

today i was up early and at the gym, then i ran errands, then i worked all afternoon, then i went for a 45-minute bike ride between work and a staff meeting, then i had the meeting, then home to eat and clean up the house...so glad DH made dinner

i feel like i strained something in my neck, in the front of it..it's like a sore throat only on the outside(?) instead of the inside(?) ...i think with the weight machines that i might have used my neck once or something and kinked it up...it's weird, i dont feel sick so i dont think it's that

and tomorrow after work i have a board of directors meeting *sigh* what a busy week!

Vent: I look fat We took family pictures for K's graduation and I still look HUGE. I KNOW I have lost 20 pounds, and I KNOW I was super huge then, but I feel like a cow. Sorry, had to get that out. -- Part of me just wants to give up, what's the point when 20 pounds has not made a big difference. Part of me is just angry and really wants to get down to 125 where I actually look slim. -- I loathe my tiny frame...it makes weightloss so difficult. Someone else would be looking fab at 145 pounds, not I. I just look like a tub of lard...

Kristiina
We are our own worst critic!

Krystal Thanks! I am trying to concentrate how my thighs don't rub together when I wear a dress and how they used to last summer.... I think I wore a wrong dress. It did not accentuate my good features, but make me look think(er) in the middle, shorter and it hid most of my legs....

Enough about me....I am a bit emotional after K's graduation. I also chaperoned all night senior party.... I have slept grand total of 9 hours since Monday morning. - I hope the goodness that scale will be kind to me tomorrow, I need it ~ I took over 40000 steps yesterday. I was a roamer and I walked 7 hrs straight at the all night party, plus my daily 11000 step walk, plus all the normal daily errands/cleaning....and scale still was up. How on earth you ladies can go without weigh-in? You are my heroes! BUT ENOUGH ABOUT ME

Where is our shining Star?

Krystal I Hope your weekend turns out okay. And congrats on the compliment from your mom.... I don't think she needs an eye exam Hehe.

Alaskan I hope your neck is doing better today.

Jo Are you feeling any better? My boys are sick (again) with a cold.

im still SO stoked from my great doctor's visit this week!! i posted about it up there somewhere...

and im still SO TIRED by 9 p.m. every night being on my feet all afternoon must be wearing on me....i went to the gym this morning, did stuff at home with the kids the rest of the morning, then went to work...i spent the students' lunchtime on my feet monitoring the lunchroom, then i spent an hour outside monitoring the playground and walking around it, i sat down for half an hour for a group meeting, maybe only 20 minutes, then i was on my feet to make snack, serve snack, clean up snack, clean up the kitchen etc....i was on my feet for 4 1/2 hours today except for that 20 minutes or so of sitting down...in addition to running 1 1/4 mile this morning at the gym....

then i came home and cleaned up the house, cooked dinner, cleaned up after dinner (did i forget to mention laundry?), and went to the store...its 9:20 p.m. and younger son is asleep....i'm ready to CRASH

calories came in at 1520 today with 210 of those exercised away this morning....zzzzzzz

Sounds like a liberated woman!

Still gimping along here. I am about halfway through my course of antibiotic and although I am feeling better, I wish I was back to normal, whatever that is, lol. I still have a nagging cough and a nose full of thick crud. I am hearing of others who have had this similar cold and it has taken WEEKS to fully get over it, like 5-6!!!??!!!??? wth?
I haven't worked out yet this week. I feel like a slug. I plan to try to lift this weekend.
I tried to go out and do some yardwork yesterday, but my nose started gushing and then I started sneezing (prob more allergy related) so I quit, and then I was exhausted for the rest of the day. Not worth it, but so hard to sit around and feel so useless.

I am sure you looked fab. Like Krystal said, we are our own worst critics! 20 pounds has made a difference, you just went shopping and fit into all smaller sizes. Try doing that 20 pounds ago.
I am the same way, I like how I look in a dress and then I see the pictures and I just see all boobs. I don't see that in the mirror or when I look down or anything, but a photo-yuck. Those dresses I picked out in the spring gathered right under the boobage and hung/flaired out from there and once I looked at them in photos I wondered if that just accentuated the boobs too much. Not an area I need to accentuate, but I think in my mind I was trying to hide any belly/waist problems. So in hindsite, probably the wrong style for me too, but that doesn't discount how far I have come, right? It's the dresses, not us

I'm exhausted!
1 more night to go!!

Jo...u r too funny....now I picture you in revealing boobage cuts AND I know they were NOT revealing...hehe... It is just my darn belly. I have a beer gut and I HATE beer. P said I looked thin and it is all in my head. He was really sweet about it. -- I will post a picture of kids and I later.

We are harsh on ourselves, aren't we?

Feel better....sucks to have a summer cold!!!

I am a slave Krystal...maybe I can only weigh-in every other day to ... I dont' think I can...weak I am.

K I have no idea how you do the nights! You rock!