It is my third (or 4th) day without a smoke and I am going strong.

I am totally gonna get back into eating better. I have actually missed it.

I am leaving for school, but will write more and get some responses in when I get home. OH! and my second class was canceled which means I can spend extra time on making dinner healthy and extra yummy.

Here we go - sorry to hear about your car! I hate cars, no good ever comes from them. We just put about $800 in ours.

So, I'm 15 days out from the wedding and the moms are making me crazy. My control freak future mother in law keeps trying to commandeer the party that we're having when we come back to the US and my sweet passive worry wort mother keeps freaking out about random details ("are you sure the hotel we're staying at is going to have towels?"). So annoying. I'm the bride, dang it, I should get to be the one who is a PITA, not all of those folks!

I'm incredibly envious of my fiance, he has been temping and decided to end his temp assignment a couple of weeks early to have some time to relax before we leave.

Anyway, I hope everyone is having a great day!

Here we go again: I am super paranoid about my car. Luckily, I love my mechanic. Every little noise my car makes, I take it in and he just laughs at me and tells me its fine. My car is my baby, but it's getting up there in age. I could have bought a new one a couple years ago, but I just couldn't. When I park it and I walk away, I still look back at it and smile. I love that car. If Sac weren't so far away, I'd refer you to my mechanic.

Taylor: you are my hero! I remember pissing and moaning when I gave up soda. You're doing great.

I over slept this morning by a whole hour and instead of rushing out the house and grabbing something at Jack in a Crack, I still managed to get ready, fix my lunch and inhale a bowl of cereal in just over 30 minutes. Yea me!

And at least I didn't have french fries last night. But I did have a cookie and some juice because I was running a little short on time. Tonight I plan to have an actual dinner. I did a mile up hill--like a SF hill--on my treadmill last night and my thighs and my butt hurt. But I like it. I also danced around a bit as I straightened up my room. If I don't finally lose a pound this week, I am going to lose it and it won't be pretty.

Hey all. Happy Hump day.

So I was an hour late for work this morning, b/c I couldn't find anything to wear. Non of my tops fit me. All of my blouses pull across the chest. literally felt like I had nothing to wear to work. I must have changed tops like 8 times. It's frustrating that tops I bought less than a year ago are too small. I 90% of my pants still fit (not well but I can get away with wearing them) but tops are another story, especially those that button up. I can't wait to get into all of my aswesome shirts again.

Here we go I've had the same issue with my car. I've brought it to the dealership 3 times over the last 6 months and they tell me it's fixed then wham! I realize it's not. I refuse to pay them and I've told them so. I'm taking my car in for the fourth time next week....hopefully it will finally be fixed. Congrats at being 284!

Iconised Ghost & just keep swimming I was completely emotional all last week. I cried all the time and for no reason at all, all I wanted to do was lay in bed and cry and cry and cry. I have no idea what caused it, but I've been fine so far this week.

Cali- The bay is not that far, and if these people don't fix it, I may take you up on that. This is the first "nice" car I've had. It's a 2002 Mustang convertible. I bought it in May and it's became my baby... it just agitates me when you pay to get work done, $535, and it's worst than before. My boss is letting me get off at 1 today so I can take it in, but it's still frustrating. Even if they are not done at 5, I have no choice but to request it back. Good job on still packing your lunch even when you're late. I do mine the night before. Congrats on no fries!

Shan- I'm sure you'll be in your old clothes in no time. You doing great already. You've lost 8 pounds! Go you!

Silver- that stinks that you had to put $800 in your car. I feel awful over $535, couldn't have imagined $800.

Oh, so I ate like 2,000 cal yesterday. It was all healthy good stuff, so I don't feel bad. Now that I'm eating 1800 cal a day I've been way more hungry, but I've also been working out more too. Kinda strange, but I'm losing again so I'm happy!

Silver - Good luck with the wedding! I was in your position almost a year ago, now, and I almost wish we had done a destination wedding. It was crazy! Just don't let anyone push you around on your wedding day. I told my mom that I wanted to look back on my wedding day and have good memories and think that it was everything I wanted it to be and not look back and think to myself, "Well, at least everyone else was happy..."

I tolerate Cottage Cheese. I wish the fat free stuff came in small containers! I can only find it in the larger containers, and I'll have a craving for it, eat a bit and then suddenly not like it. I've tried mixing it with peaches, but it's still hard to choke down. Maybe I'll try it on the side with the warm food? Any other suggestions?

Another weird thing: I have been getting into eating yogurt. I only like the yoplait variety (everything else tastes too "yogurty", if you know what I mean) and I only will eat the low-fat kind. Nutrasweet and the whole aspertame thing just don't sit well with me mentally or physically. I figure 1.5 grams of fat once every other day isn't going to completely destroy my diet. So, ANYWAY, I tried blueberry yogurt last week and LOVED it. It was freaking amazing, but then I couldn't find any more until yesterday. I just had one a minute ago and it was....blah. What gives??

Some people are stupid! I'm a corporate trainer. I go to offices and teach them how to use certain audio visual equipment. I had sent an email to a client a few weeks ago about setting up their session. She replied that she would get back to me. She sent me an email this morning stating that training is booked for next week and so many people have confirmed. Now, I've only been doing this for a few years....but wouldn't it make sense to perhaps confirm with the trainner before you book the session and invite ppl! Because you guessed it I'm already booked for a training in another city at that time. So now I'm apoligizing for not being able to make the session. geez some people....

Silver are you excited? Hope we get to see some pics of you and your hubby looking gorgeous on the day!

Shan - You're telling me. I work in real estate and we have to deal with landlords and tenants on a daily basis. It really doesn't do much for my hope in humanity.




Today I really want to eat my bodyweight in chocolate. My scale eventually went down this morning so I figure its success sabotage.

Shan: I can relate.

I'm going in b/t wanting to cry, and just being angry. I've had so many things happen today. Car, work, family, friend, attacking me. I'm like what the heck is going on today? I vote that this will not be a pick on Heather day. grrr...... at least I'm not trying to eat away my feelings. I'm not even hungry, but I'll force myself to eat my healthy lunch, b/c I know I'll be famished later.

I'm sorry to be ranting.... it's just one of those days. *sigh*

Heather, sorry to hear your having a bad day. I've had many many of those days.... glad you're making yourself eat. Go to the gym later and work it all out. People just suck sometimes!

Spoz, I know people are crazy and frustrating... I enjoy a job that lets me work with people, but every now and then I just shake my head in amazement. Granted, she did ask me if that date worked for me. But it just seems so counter intutive to invite everyone then find out if I'm available. Oh well, how she wants to run her office is not my problem.

Shan, I used to do trainings and short and long term goal setting with Board of Directors for many companies and I've totally been in your shoes. Its like "well, I'm glad you found dates that work for you, unfortunatly you forgot to check with me and I am not available, so back to square one for you."
So glad I switched careers!

Wow! That is crazy not to check with you before scheduling. Doesn't the whole thing kind of depend on you being there??

Makes me so glad that I'm just a lowly promotional accountant.

i just realised i forgot to take my BCP yesterday! Maybe that explains it

or maybe i just love u guys

Thanks guys! I'm excited and nervous about the wedding. I went to the doctor to get something to help me sleep on the 10 hour flight and made the mistake of telling my mom about it. Of course, she's now freaking out about how sleeping pills are addictive and what if there's an emergency on the plane and what if my feet swell up because I'm not moving enough... the woman literally worries about everything. I told her maybe she should get a prescription for Xanex. She (of course) did not find that funny.

Heather, sorry to hear you're having a rough day. I'm having a terribly unproductive day at work. We're going through a reorg at work, which means the rumor mill is running full force and everything else is at a grinding halt.

Silver -- congrats on the wedding!! Sorry the M-I-L is being so annoying!

Here we go -- I HAD THE SAME THING HAPPEN TO ME with the jerking car!! It turned out they had just switched 2 hoses in my car (I think....). Anyway, nothing was hurt and it took them literally 15 minutes to fix it and they felt like idiots. I hope you get it fixed and it's not a big deal!

heidelene -- I FREQUENTLY go back/forth with yogurt. Actually sort of with everything. It's weird, I can't get enough of certain things for a few weeks, and then I don't want anything to do with them. I'm crazy...