Im definately doing this for me the problem is im living the life of a single mother .. My hubby is working away and everything just keeps going wrong.. I have lost a good friend ( she has decided to be a B*tch ) but i have to see her everyday becuase our kids fo to the same school.. she has told her kid she is not allowed to talk to Cameron ( he is a kind loving sensetive boy and its upsetting him that his best friend isnt allowed to talk to him). and is ignoring my kids and me.. even walking past me with her nose in the air.. (even my 3 year old ) ... I feel great in the morning i can ignore her .. but in the afternoon it just seems harder becuase the kids have more time to play after school.. and atm i think this is what is triggering my blueness and comfort eating in the afternoon.. im hungry but im also emotional.. and we all know that can lead to bad choices.. lol.
Im also living the life of a single mum since hubby is working away and evey extra dollar is going straight into the morgage so it feels like we are not benefiting though i know we are ..
Then i have Leah who starts kindy in a couple of months and is very allergic to food additives ... Im constantly worrying about her.. what if they feed her something or she takes someone elses food??? She swells up all over and gets covered in a burning rash then has trouble breathing goes pale and starts to shake.. its terrible.. I then have Cameron who is behind his class at school and struggling..
and at the end of the day i spose i just dont feel like im as important as everything else.. i dont know .. im just blue in the evening .. like everything just too much . and then you get the whole.. what does it matter pov lol.. I hate being alone at night i hate not having hubby to talk to and hold me and tell me Leah will be ok .. i just need him home.. i need my life to go back to normal .... i need to cry.. its so hard when your duaghter is allergic to everything. immunisation reactions antibiotic reaction serum sickness and erythemea mutliforme ( she was paralysed for 4 days so swollen her body was hard unable to move or be moved her kidney spleen and liver were all affected)asthma. grass pollen animal allergies. and now bloody food for crying out loud . i have almost lost her so many times.. im so scared of the next step.. im scared of being alone too .. i dont want to let her go... and i only have a little time till she is gone to kindy ,,, and ill be alone.. food was fine till she had her 6 month shots... at 3 years old.... had a raction from that and got sicker and sicker... and started reacting to food additives... try and find food with out them they are the numbers on the pack... ..
IM sad im angry im lonely and im frustrated. and im sorry to put all this on here.. the flood gates just opened... and i thinkit was just what i needed.. I have cryed this entire post and im kinda feeling better now..
i love your suggestion you cant get the tbl books here just the crappy food diary that i dont need.. so tyvm
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Originally Posted by chellez
Question of the Day:
If you could have any job in the entire world, what would it be and why?
I would love to be a kindergarten teacher.. i love kids .. and this is a great age.. I love singing and playing with kids.. i love reading storys and making a fool of myself as i over dramatise them .. and i love seeing them learning how to write a little too.. its just such a gret time in a kids life..
But i failed school miserably and i have a learning disorder so i could never pass the courses required.. lol.. i came out of high school at 17 unable to read.. My huby tauggt me.. with alot of patience on his part.. lol
i do fine now in reading but my spelling still sucks lol and im not gonna apologise for it.. its just how it is with me.. lol and just for the record i have read everypost on this thread to this point .. lol and can read faster then my hubby now lol..