Well, I know I have not been on here for a while, no one seemed to miss me though. waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah , sniff, sniff. I just haven't had anything interesting to say and when I miss the two days when I am at home, I MISS SO MUCH!!! You guys need to slow it down a bit. hee hee hee
Well gals I got a big wake up call, kick in the pants if you will this weekend that Has I think done what I have not been able to do myself. Motivate me to get off my ugly fat butt and do something about it. The thing that hit me in the face was when my boyfriend got back from his birthday dinner with his family( I had to work) and he told me his mom said we both looked," Pleasantly Plump," and the fourth of July celebration that we had at his brothers. I had to fight back the tears. I mean I knew I looked bad when I see myself in the mirror everyday, but to have it pointed out like that was devestating to me. I mean if someone is actually going to say that , then everyone can see it. I don't even want to go out of the house anymore I am so embarrassed and uncomfortable to have anyone see me. I also overheard a conversation between two of my male co-workers last week that I wasn't suppose to hear. One of them said, " she would be kind of attractive if she lost some weight, " I cried for hours when I got home. Of course these comments are nothing I haven't thought about myself, but it always takes mean comments to give you a wake up call. So I am all gang busters about really getting off my butt and proving my boyfriends mom and the jerks at work wrong. They are going to be sorry they were mean when I get all skinny and pretty. grrrr
JANA: Hey girl, way to go with the added 1/2 lb loss. I hope to be adding lost pounds soon. cross your fingers for me. I need to start exercising more than eating better since I already eat pretty good. I am also going to cut way down on the alcohol, which is going to be hard since I love my wine and vodka drinks.

I am glad the wedding went great, I am sure you were one of the prettiest ladies there with you beautiful new dress. I am soo envious of you, can you see my green skin from over there??? hee hee. You go with your bad self girlfriend.
MARTI: I am dying to get together for a scrapbook/Craft day. I finished two pages on Saturday. Found out at 1 that day that byron was going to go play in a poker tournament instead of going to the annual springfield filbert festival, so we could have gotten together. i just didn't want to call you back since you were already probably planning with your sissy ( which was true) so I spent the whole day by myself cleaning and crafting. It was soo sad and lonely. Men, always changing their minds at the last minute. grrrrr
SUSAN:You and your watermelons!!! hee hee Pretty soon you are going to float away with all that water in your system. I still have yet to satisfy my craving that you starting a couple of weeks ago, I just don't have enough money for extra food stuff. I don'r even have enough for the needed items. Oh well, one of these days, or I could just come up to your house and get some. hee heee. Knock, knock knocking on susans door, ya ya ya ya ya.
Well I unfortunately do not relaly have a cervix story to share, but I do have a funny one. I had to actually finally get a gino about 1 1/2 years ago, before that I just had my annual at my regular physician, but a big medical problem forced me to get a real one. Since I was a new patient I had to get the on call one, which my mother had warned me she did not like. She went to him for some problems and he told my mother she would never have children. She said, " oh really, well you better tell that to my 2 year old daughter!," Needless to say my mother said he was taken back a bit. Anywho, I was not looking forward to having him exam me. Well, he was very blunt, very fast, very graphic, had me do all these tests , sent me to specialists , which had them wondering why he did ( they were shaking their heads) and he took me off estrogen birth control. Well to make a long story short, I went back to him when he gave my new prednisone birth control and he started telling all these sexual things I could do to my boyfriend until the new medication took effect. My face was sooooo red, I was so flabbergasted I could not even respond to tell him he was out of line. He was telling me stuff to do that would prevent a pregnancy until the medication too effect in my system It was stuff so x-rated that it could only be seen on the raciest porno. I was soooooo embarrassed and when I told my boyfriend he could believe that a doctor would think of saying that kind of stuff to me. The other part of the story is not fit to be posted on this website. I think I have told marti all of it though. But can you believe that?? Thank god he retired before I had to go back and I got the new young woman doctor instead. I actually felt so violated and dirty. Ugghh, you can never really truly trust all doctors, which is sad. anywho, enough, I just thought to share a funny story, I can laugh at it now.
Hello to cristi, angie, TJ, and all the newbies that I can't remember yet, just scream at me your names and i can right them all down since my brain lately has a sieve or something. hee hee ta ta for now I think I wrote a novel and made up for the days I was MIA.