i had a long post already written and i clicked on something and it got deleted hate when it happens.

i don't have the time to rewrite it but i made it trough day 27 and i'm not letting the scale to throw me off!

jalsa and hazy - thanks. jalsa i'm so glad you won over your animal brain as you call it
hazy- i really hope you get trough today...try distracting yourself with something else...

Thanks for all the support and kind comments. The body is so funny...after my crazy rant about being stuck at 190.4 on Tuesday morning, I was at 187.2!!! Three pounds came off in one day? I must have made some big #2's.

I am in a much better place emotionally, regardless of the weight. I feel better about my job, and I got an awesome performance review and career discussion. My surgical procedure seems to have gone well today.

And I'm on binge free day 74. Halas, I echo your comments on the 3 meal/2 snack routine. It has helped me tremendously. I used to save calories til later in the day which made me feel empty and weak in the morning. I was just so worried about going to bed hungry; I hate that feeling. But now I eat a decent sized breakfast, supplemented with a snack later, and I feel so much better physically and mentally. I still occasionally feel hungry at bedtime, but will have a tiny back if that happens.

Thanks again everyone; I love this forum and reading every comment.

Bad day food wise, ended up bingeing too much on stupid brownies. So, restart tomorrow morning, not going to do this to myself again.

Today is day 11.

Has anyone noticed how much time you save when you're not binging?! It's amazing to me...somehow in the last 10 days, i've hopped out of bed easily at 5:30 a.m. (i always get up at this time but sometimes it's a struggle), had plenty of time to exercise before i go to work, and am getting plenty of sleep. This seems to be because i'm not eating a huge binge meal in the evenings, which delays the time i go to bed (i don't want to straight to bed after a 2000 calorie meal, but i feel fine about going to bed after 500 calories), so i get to bed earlier...which means i get up earlier...and don't need to budget time for a huge breakfast in the mornings. It feels like everything is going smoother!

kittykat- you're amazing! if i only i had a whoosh like you
pinkhurricane-nothing is lost yet!! forget it and keep going!
surfergirl-that's so true...i spend so much less time thinking when i'm shopping because i don't need to buy binge food

it's my day 28...which is four weeks. and a thought hit me today that maybe i should have to lower my calories to lose anything. but today i was so hungry i could eat all day. i'm really hoping it's pms.

I'm on day 4 binge free good for me, I have only heard a slight whimper from animal brain today - have a great day everyone

Day 10 today.

Going onto day 5 - scale is not being good to me but I am trying to forget about it and get into some exercise action

Work has been H*LL and people are leaving, thus there's been WAY too much pizza, cake and chocolates lately. Thursday I did pretty good resisting, but yesterday (friday) I didn't. Oh well, not getting discouraged though.
Tonight is a surprise birthday party (for me. My husband is a HORRIBLE liar, but he doesn't know that I figured it out), and we're going to a Mexican restaurant, so planning on sticking to a couple soft chicken tacos without sour cream. I'm figuring on going over my normal calorie limit, but in a controlled/limited way.

i ate way totally too much chocolate today but i think i'm still within my calorie range. i decided that i'm gonna eat normally this week, 2000 calories per day and see if the scale will budge. day 29 finished.
tommorow i start working at a fair and it's gonna be full of pizza, gelato, pastries...but i already made my snacks

Missunshine- I'm betting you'll be okay with planned snacks ready to go! Congratulations on 29 days and good luck with all the fair food!

Mccull- how fun to have a suppose party thrown for you! Enjoy it! And good luck getting right back on track afterward!

Jalsa- good job on 5 days! That scale can be a real pain sometimes. Keep it up- you'll see results eventually!

Clevername- double digits! Yay!

Surfergirl- yeah it's amazing how much time going to the store and binging and hiding the evidence can take up...

Pink hurricane- how are you doing? We're you able to get back on track?

Kittykatfan- you are amazing! I am glad you are in a better place!

Today is day 8 and I am leaving to Florida! I made my first mini-goal and feel good! I also had a goal to be under 130 lbs before I left- this morning I was 130.0 but I'll take it! Much better than the 139 I was at the beginning of January.

It's tough for me to not binge while on vacation... I'm hoping that I can have my first binge-free trip this week. We'll see how it goes. I'm planning on still counting calories (I don't know how to NOT count and eat like a normal person) but to be reasonable. If I come back the same weight as I am today I will consider that a HUGE victory.

Hi everyone! I made it through the last day I posted on just fine (Thursday)...and then I binged on Friday. It wasn't as big as a usual binge, but it definitely counted and put me way over my calorie limit. It wasn't even healthy-ish stuff like last time, it was the worst of the worst. Fried food, Starbucks, and movie popcorn!

But I guess at this point I have to be happy with every single day I manage to avoid a binge. Today is my second binge-free day, and let's hope tomorrow is my third.

Fell off the wagon for two days, feasting on a whole carton of ice cream, a box of assorted chocolates, a pizza and doritos! In two days however, which is actually not too terrible.

I'm firmly back on the wagon and am going sugar free for 30 straight days, NO CHEATS. I have to break the cycle of 'get hungry, eat sugar, crave more sugar'. I know I'm being 80% primal but the sugar has got to go. If I'm going to go 'un-primal' for a cheat I'll have hummus or beer or something.

I just have to remember when I'm looking at sugar and drooling that it's just a craving! I absolutely adore and savor every bite of the chicken I coated in olive oil and seasoning before baking last night. It took work and it's good for me. I do not savor any of the sugar, which takes no work, that goes into my mouth. I feel completely unsatisfied with one or two pieces of candy.

Anyways, I'm learning sugar is a no-no, but I made it 5 days without it before falling off the wagon!

1st official day on vacation and I binge. I'm trying so hard to just let it go and enjoy the rest of the week but I'm SO angry with myself. So angry and disappointed- disgusted.

The walrus- good luck with the no-sugar. I hope it helps!

Hazy- I really hope you get to 3 days!

Just checking in for the morning. Its amazing what a good night of sleep and actually waking up to sunshine instead of dark yucky smog will do for my outlook on life I added up my calories and although I did hit about 3,500 yesterday (I know its nothing to be PROUD of)- its a much smaller binge than I would normally have done. I was thinking about being really restrictive today but you know what? I am just going to STICK to my plan of a reasonable 1800 calories per day while I'm here- and I am NOT going to feel guilty about it. I am on vacation to reset my mind and body and could probably USE a break from being in a deficit anyways. I am not trying to justify my binge last night- just trying to treat myself like I would someone else. I messed up yesterday- but I do not need to punish myself for it for the next three days.

whew- I know that was like a little personal journal entry, but it feels good to get it out of my system, this little forum is a lifesaver.