I haven't binged for a while but when I'm in a situation with food i.e my fella wants a takeaway or I buy icecream to make him dessert the bad behaviours come back, I can't stop until I finish, the food makes me very anxious and I don't even want it.
I planned (allotted calories) to get a potion of cheesecake on my way home, one portion not 6, I tasted a bit when I got home (its so sad I was actually excited just like old times

) took one small bite and it didn't taste as good, got half way through and thought offt thats enough but a panic came over me I couldn't throw it away or leave it there, it felt horrible. But I worry about not buying small amounts of my trigger food to manage this rather than abstaining and then rebounding.
I did well though I went into the shops and my urge was to buy an array of junk and I was starving, I took out cash right beside the bakery, thought mmm cakes, then saw cupcakes on special, then white bread, the cereal, then fried chicken, then biscuits/chocolate/crisps then icecream, then chips/cheese and I said no to all and bought what I wanted to eat my small cheesecake, small milk, eggs, quorn burgers and yoghurts.
A mixed day.