Right-that's it. Enough is Enough. I am so angry with myself! I have put on weight grrrrr. I have been really down in the dumps in work over the Christmas period(Beginning of Dec onwards)-change scares me-and because we've been having to move around a lot in work, different areas and there has been lots of temps in, I took a liking to the vending machines and scooting off into my car at dinner breaks and eating chocolate and crisps in a 'feel sorry for myself' fashion. I weighed myself this morning and I'm 19st 4lb. DAMN IT! I am SO angry. What didn't help is, on Thursday I was in work. I got in the lift and some scrotebag scum chavs laughed at me and said "Woah, it suddenly got snug in here" and stood behind me laughing and making comments "look, she's all... *whispers*" I didn't hear the last bits as they conveniently whispered it. Lots of laughs-when I got out they said "well, that was a bit comfortable". I so wish I was management so I could sack their arses on the spot. What I REALLY wanted to do was turn and say to them, you should've seen me 18 months ago-you really would've had a great giggle then! But no. I just got out of the lift, sulked off to my desk and held back the tears. I am just so fed up now.
I have just looked at the before and after photos on this forum and upset myself-praying that one day I might be able to post some too.

I saw an article on Rebecca Wheatley and saw how much weight she's lost. I found a video on youtube, which shows her exercise video-and includes her eating plan, so I have just bought it-the exercises look like something I can do-and doesn't require much space-which I don't have. I also have Michelle McManus's book 'You Are What You Eat' but I can't bring myself to read past the first few pages, because of-"Jealousy"... knowing I might never be able to be like that.

I have to make sure I come here every day now-I need your support more than ever.
A girl in work who is also overweight has said in the new year, she will let me use her cross trainer and we can start going on walks on our dinner break-but I need to really knuckle down and start cutting out my 'comfort food' etc again. I was doing so so well, but I started skipping meals-and ended up reaching for the "convenient" choc bars etc from the vending machines. I need to plan ahead-think what I'm going to eat-and actually stick to it! I did it before, there is no reason why I can't do it again.

My sister has postponed her wedding until July'ish' next year for me-as I am suppose to be her bridesmaid, but I refused to do it until I have lost weight, so it's paramount I DO!

I'm sorry for the long winded post... but I really really needed to get it off my chest....

hug: HM.... we've all felt the same way, now keep that positive hat on, don't look at the vending machines at work, enjoy your Christmas and you'll be enjoying being a bridesmaid for your sister this summer

We have faith in you, we all have rough days, weeks even, and we're here for you, come in every day... I know I need to as well.

Hello everyone

Hope all is well with you all.

I've just been catching up with you all.

Hommersmummy I felt so sad to hear you sounding so down. Spiteful comments by wankers like that are so hurtful. I've had some myself at points. Please please please don't give up. You have done so well. I know what a struggle it is. Definitely try and post on here more often I'm sure I've slacked since I havent posted so much, and as Chris says we are all for you.

I am still struggling myself I seem to lose a few pounds and then put them back on. Motivating myself has been hard. My mindset seems to be all wrong
but I'm optimistic in the new year I can get back on track. I havent weighed myself but I know I have gained some. So my goal in the new year is to lose about 10lbs to a stone. Not a huge amount but trust me it really is just as hard as when I had stones and stones to lose, and I never want to go back to being the big girl I was.

Take good care my friends and hope that 2008 we can get our healthy habits back on track.

Christmas blessings to you all

Love Michele xxxxxxxxxx

Homersmummy you're a lovely person and they are ignorant pigs just remember that. and their families must be idiots too allowing them to be brought up thinking that sort of stuff is acceptable behaviour, pity them.

HM-I'm sorry those people were so rude to you, ignorant idiots.

I've been slacking too, eating my way through the holidays, well drinking my way through them too. I know this is a diet forum but has anyone tried the Baileys with caramel??? Good lord it's good.

Anyway back to business I've been holding my own and have managed to maintain but I've definitely lost focus on weight loss. The mountains of snow have not helped I went running today and almost broke my ankle a few times.

Oh well....maybe we should all just try and get refocused after the holiday season

Hey redsox girl long time no see.

I've not tried that Baileys but I'm hugely tempted. You know how I enjoy a tipple!

Well done you for maintaining.

Michele

Michelle my pal across the pond, we both enjoy a tipple

Currently I've had 2 pomegranate martinis, I stopped because I'm driving to my boys house, where I plan to have a few more Christmas cocktails. I really ate like crap today but I did run 4 miles.

Oh well the season is winding down......

i'm all for getting back on track in the new year. Although I've got a dodgy stomcah today which meant I didn't need any will power at all to avoid the choclate at work.

Good evening to you all

Again another day of eating crap. Ah well I shall get tomorrow and Boxing Day over then crack on. I'm away on a hen weekend on 1st February so I don't want to feel like a big old lump. I intend being the most saintly girl during January.

Well I've finishe my shopping, had to go to the shops this evening didn't I forget Christmas crackers. Came back did some more wrapping and Martin made me a fried egg sarnie.

I've got to pop out shortly and deliver some pressies, I am just so worn out from it all.

Hope you feel better soon Sarahgrace. You have done so well was just looking at your tracker.

Oooh Redsox girl how posh does a pomegranite martini sound. Shame we are not neighbours you and I could go out and get rotten drunk.

Christmas blessings to you all

Michele xxxxxxxxxx

Michelle I think we could do a lot of damage and have a lot of fun, we'd have to bring your Dad on his scooter

I just finished shopping like an hour ago and I have to leave soon for my brothers house, one more night of eating like this and I need to wrap it up. I'm feeling all kinds of nasty.

Everyone have a happy and healthy holiday.

RSG - I love that Caramel Baileys. I might just be having a glass or two later

Homersmummy :hugs:

I´m in Gran Canaria at the moment, trying to make sure I don´t gain too much more weight than I have done in the past two months - a bit of overindulgence in NewYork and a lot of comfort eating while my grandmother was ill have put me up to about 155. Not a disaster, but heavier than I like to be. I´ve been quite good while I´ve been here though - even though I´m eating a fair amount I´ve been running a lot more than I usually do while I´m on holiday, so it´s balancing itself out.

Today we´re going on a boat trip to look for whales and dolphins!!! before eating this evening. I did a quick 3 mile run before breakfast, so I can indulge without too much guilt.

Then when I get back it´s time for marathon training again - I can´t remember if I said, but I got intothe London Marathon! Plus I want to lose a few pounds for when I´m my sister´s bridesmaid in February.

Have a good day everyone.

Happy Xmas everyone!!

Happy Christmas everyone

Helen I am so sorry to hear about your grandmother.

I am so stuffed with food. My husband bought me new trainers, is he telling me you fat lump move yourself I wonder!! Actually I very much doubt it, even when I was the roundest barrel you ever saw not once did he ever mention my weight or say that I should lose some.

We had a quiet day, my brother Andrew was supposed to come round but he got rotten drunk last night and was too ill to come round the big eejit. He is coming tomorrow for Boxing Day with our other brother Patrick and his family.
We will drink a toast to our other brother Mark who we lost nine years ago.
Even after all these years without fail when I am shopping I see something and think Mark will like that. I took my parents dinner round to them my father didn't feel well enough to come round. He hasn't been that good lately.
It was a year ago tonight that he had a heart attack.How quickly a year passes.

Enjoy the rest of your evening

Goodnight godbless
Michele

I've not been as bad as I thought I'd be. I am going to have a picky tea shortly, with crisps etc, but I've not been filling myself with chocs. Quite proud hehe. As yet-no weight gone on, I'll see what happens come the weekend.

Hope everyone had a lovely Christmas?

I haven't been well which means I might not put on too much this year. I wasn't too bad yesterday, but only managed 1/2 my xmas dinner and no pud . however I managed to do ok at a party on the night.

However I think the very rich white chocolate cheesecake was a mistake because I have felt It was made owrse by the fact we went to my nan's for a meal at lunchtime. My aunt and uncle had made a turkey dinner for everyone but they were just heated up ready meals,and were not good. I hardly ate any, I think they were a bit miffed but I really couldn't do it. If I had been well I would have eaten a bit more. I forced down some trfile after to keep the peace.

i'm sort of hungry now so might eat yesterday's pudding in a bit.