Just logging on, feeling a bit sabotaged (by self, of course)... saw a few words on kayaking and just wanted to chime in re:
total fear. I took DH on a kayak experience for his 40th bday. (we were dating then) The instructor took us to a lake to practice a "roll" and after I did it I was so freaked out. Not only couldn't I see my legs, they were snapped under a piece of material!! I almost cried when I got to surface. But then we went and had a fun day. I made sure not to topple over tho.
I think my weight was the same.. crazy morning didn't get a chance to strip and check before many cups of coffee and running running running-- the frantic busy running get to school, doctors office for check up (baby) and sick visit for 4yo (rash).. mommy and me class to run back home for an appointment with new house cleaners.... (paid money for what was soso job until I spoke up, politely
and they gave a proper cleaning-- I was looking thinking.. this is the job I can do.. not adequate... wanted professionals...) To fight with mortgage company, run to pick up little kids come home fight with mort. co again, pick up big boy.. go to costco buy 2 tons of food to prep for memorial day weekend away.....put it away, pack for family....
want the wine/beer don't have it....BUT
OK, so I'm over cals by 1000 and ate very off plan. I am really now aware of just how critical planning planning planing is. It was that darn fried chicken my mother always brings for my kids (and dh and me.) Next time I think I'll mention that kiddles said they aren't hungry for that chicken any more.
Sorry to blab, just a bit of a vent. I am getting some compliments on weight loss and I think my EDed brain wants to mess me up. Thanks for listening/reading. I feel a little less desperate now.
plan plan plan
even for family-- I want to start writing down weekly dinner plans. Yesterday I discovered a shrimp salad that I bought from costco for dh and I to have for dinner last week-- totally forgot about it. Now it's in the garbage.
have good night and for US Losers a wonderful holiday weekend. My goal is to be at 147 (start wt., or dare I say it.. lower??) by tuesday am.
I knew you were going to do it next try 
Today is the first day of freedom for the rest of your life...Well as long as you have a car 
..I hope tomorrow I will say good bye to the 230's again 
