So far I've just gawked at Bob's picture on the front page. I don't this it's fully functional yet. You gotta feel sorry for the new diet sites IMO, they must know they'll never e as cool as 3fc.

Good morning, Everyone.

The very first week that Hubby and I decided to start walking just happens to be the week of the highest pollen counts for my area. This morning, I feel absolutely rotten. Am I whining? You betcha! This feels like a sinus infection or a really bad cold, but I have my fingers crossed that it’s allergies. Next week, I’m on vacation and I have no time to be sick! I haven’t decided if I’m going walking today or not. Am I crazy for even thinking of walking outside today? I really don’t want to take a break from walking with Hubby as I know how easy it is for me to just quit exercising. I’m on a roll and I want to go with it! Maybe I’ll go pick up some allergy medicine at Wallworld today and see what happens. The Benadryl and Neti pot just aren’t doing the job. The good news is that the scales are continuing to smile for me and I’m looking forward to my “official” weigh-in on Monday. I’m going to give it 100% effort to stay on-plan this weekend.

Too busy playing twisty pretzel boy to run a proper website. Chelle--sounds like he needs help! Maybe he is hiring!

I cannot imagine a venue in which I would be more likely to be an absolute failure. Have a good time!

You should start an Internet business. As someone who loves gorgeous quilts but has NO skill, I would buy one! or two....

Have you thought about adding a decongestant?

Dee - Don't you dare read Lover Revealed before you read Lover Awakened! Glad you got Butch and V's books! You don't have to send Volume One if they don't go in order. I just wanted to make sure I wasn't missing key character development stages in V1.

Rhonda - Did you buy Butch's book? Want me to send you V's?

Vanessa - on 15 lbs! That's Awesome!

Ok so it's official... I stayed up last night until 12 finishing V's book. And I'm soooooo upset. And this crappy weather is not making it better. I have a love / hate relationship with that ONE book. IF I read it again in the future, I won't be reading the end, that's for sure...

Ha! See... I did that spoiler free!

So I have a list of things I want to get done personally today:

• Talk to the team leaders and get the FAQ up
• Blog for the week
• Go rant and rave on the Brotherhood site about V's book
• Work on reviews for the books I've read on GoodReads
• Get my desk cleaned off
• Clean my house when I get home
• Take new pictures of Lexi

I'm sure there's more but I can't think of anything.

Anywho for any of you that may head over to GoodReads.com, I'm on there so you can friend me. My Profile is here. Marianne (practiceliving) is on there too! Her Profile is here

Well I'm going to skeedaddle... need to get moving on my list.

Things I hope to accomplish today:

that really seems like enough...

I'm torn between whether today relly sucks or is a bright shiny new opportunity.

I've made up my mind to leave DH. I love him but we're going down two different roads in life and those roads are crossing less and less. Financially it will be several months before I can physically leave, but I'm starting to plan. I made up my mind last night when he went to the store about 9:15 and didn't come back until who knows when. I kept calling, but he wouldn't answer his cell. This means that he probably went to a friend's house from work and they were drinking. He's been assigned back to an area where he's very unhappy and stressed and this is his way of dealing with it. He's been on Lexapro for stress and last night he told me he wasn't going to take it anymore. His way of dealing with the stress is binge drinking. It's not like he's abusive, or a mean drunk, but I just can't watch him do this to himself anymore. It's not the first cycle of this we've gone thru. Last time it happened I told him I wasn't going thru it again. I feel like, if I don't keep my word and leave, I'm damaging myself. I've put up with enough, I just want my self-esteem back. Trouble is, giving up feels too much like failure to me. I'm still conflicted, but I want to keep the promise I made to myself. My way of dealing with the stress last night was taking an Ambien so I'd eventually get to sleep and cleaning the bathrooms.

On a positive note, while watching 6 back to back episodes of "You Are What You Eat" while deep cleaning the bathrooms, I've decided to start trying more natural foods. Today I ate a banana. I realize that's not exactly exotic to most people, but I've never liked bananas. Mom doesn't like them, therefore we never had them at home. The few times I've tried one I didn't care for them. Guess what...I still don't like them, but I ate it anyway, cause dangit, I'm an adult and I know it's good for me. I've decided they might be okay in a smoothie though, so if my coworkers don't finish off the fruit bowl I brought in, maybe I'll try that.

Awww Dee!

It's not my biz so I'm not going to comment. Just know I support you as a strong woman whatever choice you might make. And I'm here if you need a ear to yell in.

I totally understand. I was engaged to a guy that was very similar. His argument to me was that he was not abusive, so why did I care? I cared because by 10 PM most nights, there would be 18 beer cans in the trash. You have my complete sympathy.

Not answering the phone would cause me to have a screaming fit.

As for failure, it is what anyone feels when any relationship ends. The only time I have had that feeling linger was when I felt I had not done enough on my part to make it work. It sounds like you have been candid about what you expect. After that the choice is his to either live up to it or not.

I am so sorry that you are struggling with this. That "I won't live like this anymore" moment is always hard. For me, it's like a big hole in my chest.

I wish you peace of heart.

Dee - I'm really sorry that you've been put into this position where you have to make such a difficult decision. I know it feels like a failure, but we have to accept that some things are truly beyond our control. I'll be praying for you.

BTW - I don't like bananas either...unless, they're frozen in a chocolate coating or fried in butter and topped with vanilla ice cream!

Bout Dang time!

I told you I didn't like Vs book. It just wasn't up to standard. I enjoyed the glimpses of John though.

I am hoping Phury's book is better, have to wait a couple month to find out, until then ... I will re-read the first 3 which in my opinion were the best (you know they say the 3rd times the charm, must explain Zadist being SO GOOD ... or is that BAD)

Dee - we are here for you with any decision you make.

I like the idea of clean when stressed ... I might turn my black hole of a house into a shinny hole (I will always manage to lose things). Much better option than eating

Rhonda - Bananas Fried in Butter, what have I been missing???

In light of Dee's announcement, this seems petty and small, but I am going to gripe anyway.

DH has two small jobs that keep me sane. Make breakfast; unload the dishwasher. In the world of the female multi-tasker, I can do these two things at once. He cannot.

The dishwasher is not unloaded. Honest to god, it throws off my whole day. I have not done it yet. So the kitchen is cluttered. Rather than just do it and move on with life, I stand here at the computer and seethe about the counters have three meals of dishes on them. Will is too short to do it yet, so that is out. It takes all of six minutes, but I am going to have to set a timer for myself and then force myself to do it. Childish, but true.

Anna, I'd gripe too.

Know what has been really cranking me off lately? My oldest daughter talks to me like I'm an idiot and she gives me grief anytime I ask her to do something. One of her jobs is cleaning the kitchen after dinner, but I have to hound her about it every single night. I had to mop sh$% off the floor this morning, because she was the first to get up and she didn't let the dogs out....like I tell her every single doggone time. And, my oldest dog walked through it...over and over again... and it was all over the kitchen floor! So, in addition to cleaning the floor, I had to wash him.....first thing in the morning. I swear, that child is gonna drive me crazy. And, guess who's picking up her way of talking and treating me? Her little sister. Empty nest? As of right now, I say "bring it on!"

Rhonda--you could hide the mop head in her closet and let the smell punish her!