i agree vonni, its not fair to diet and get no where it makes me feel like NOT trying coz trying doesnt work
although it is this week so i will stick with it.... but ANI YOU WILL BE PLEASED TO HEAR it doesnt feel like a diet
i am just eating sensibly and it is a little boring but it is making me appreciate the taste of a little of something and not pig out on it kinda

i was thinking how you said you dont eat brekky coz you are not hungry WELL i think the idea is to eat when you are not hungry so your body doesnt take over when you do it and you dont eat too much
keep it fueled up and stuff so it doesnt get desperate and cling on to the food
you know the old saying starving yourself fat or something

just a thought anyway
coz i have found that if i have a banana mid morning i can wait for lunch and plan lunch properly rather than just going for a fast food feed me now option

I hear ya Vonni. When I started back at this battle after Christmas, the first week I lost 100g, the second week I gained 200g. No fair! This week however, I'm down 1.1kg

So stick with it and it will pay off in the end.

Yesterday was a great day and I aim to make today another great day. Off to a training course shortly and will then go to the gym in the evening.

go Julia. U and Kel are on fire lol.

Thats it, I am packing away my scales for a month. I will not touch them.

Going for my scan this morning. A little scared but keeping positive everything will be ok. Doc said if nodules not cancerous there is still SOMETHING going on with it and it'll be a diagnoses by process of elimination. She just wants to get worst out of way first lol. Then she's going back to the simple things and working her way from there.
pretty lucky really. I only went for a pap smear and cause the first time to her she did a full physical. Hopefully anything going on has to do with why I can't lose weight. No put it on..... thats MY fault. But maybe its stopping me losing even tho i am trying hard.

Going to a family reunion of sorts on Saturday on the Gold Coast. It'll be great to see my cousins and one brother. Sister can't go as she just moved up to FNQ grrrr.

Vonni . Please let us know, as soon as you can, because we're all thinking of you.

Kel and Julia .

I might need to reassess my month of maintenance. My closest friend is being cheated on by her partner, and that has raised some ugly memories for me from my last relationship - I am eating like there's no tomorrow, and in danger of putting weight back on, so the scales are coming straight back out and the food diary is too.

Have to get the biopsy done as scan was "suspicious". What the heck? Neither hot nor cold..... in other words warm lol. Have a Dr app next Tuesday.

Going to the COast on Saturday woohoo and taking kids to seaworld. They've never been and they are gonna love it.

Will try to take lots of photos.

Ani when you think about it go for a walk. NOT to the cupboard lol. xxx thinking of you and hugs to you also.
Vonni

Oh Vonni I'm so sorry that you're no closer to knowing what the ****'s going on. Hope it gets sorted soon.

Ani, good on you for realising that something is triggering you to go off track. Being aware of why you're doing what you're doing is the first step towards changing the behaviour and I'm sure that you'll do just fine.

Yesterday was a pretty good day, food was pretty good and I had a good session at the gym.

Tonight I'm not going to the gym as I've got a cocktail party to go to The goal will be to not go too overboard with cocktails and nibbles!

I'm so fat I got a chub rub rash on my thighs!

julia how did you go at the party?

vonni - "suspeciious" what the **** does that mean?

ani - i cant believe you still turn to food when things shake your world - you seem so strong and focused, be strong for your friend, try not to dig up your past as hard as that is - use it as a moving forward postive experience to help your friend?

gen - i have chub rub too, i love that term!

me - sneak peak at scales (weigh in day is monday) (i get benji to look and tell me if it is less) i am 98 today so that is a loss of 700grams so far!!! i hope i lose some more tomorrow but if not i gotta be happy with that!
its all about salad sandwiches and weetbix!

Hello world!

Quick update...

...my stuff arrived, as promised, on Wednesday! Been busy unpacking boxes all weekend!

I started work on Tuesday...so far so good! Actually, I have been told I am very argumentative already! I have work ethics that I will fight to stick to if I have too!

I booked Mums flight home for the 6th! Once she is gone I am officially starting my new healthy lifestyle! To date I have been eating what is placed in front of me and, as I have already said, they are big portions! My meal times are right on target, I am eating breakfast, lunch and dinner every day.

Because it is a 20km trip into work every day I have had to learn about packing a lunch to take with me. Last week was Ryvita with vegemite...boring! Any suggestions for quick, healthy lunches on the run? I don't really want to go to 'last nights left overs' that I have noticed a lot of others do...to me that makes another full meal for the day.

I have managed to steer clear of the McDonalds, KFC's, Hungry Jacks stores in the neighbourhood...I just wish I could say the same for the local Bunnings store!! In all the time I have been here I think I have managed four days of not having to go to Bunnings!! The first day I never went there, I half expected them to send out a search party!

Anyway, must move.

Vonni, stay positive. The waiting and not knowing is often the hardest part. Please keep us informed


Oh yeah, I saw my first ever episode of "The Biggest Loser" tonight!

i know you said "quick" if you do a little bit of prep maybe the night before this can be quick and has been filling me up for lunch.... every day this week i have had a salad sandwich it has been so refreshing and filling and stuff
grainy bread, philly cheese or avocado, lettuce, tomato, cucumber, grated carrot (that is the bit that takes the longest) a little slice of cheese or a slice of ham
and then i put it in my sandwich keeper and off i go
i even ate it while watching jemima play in the shopping centre playground on friday when i guess usually if i had not made the time to make the sandwich i would have eaten something from the food court

if you pm me your address i will send you a sandwich keeper, i have so many of them at the moment or pm me and i will pm you my mobile number and you can sms me your postal address
sandwich keeper means your sandwich does not need gladwrap (therefore saves you money and the environment) and that you can chuck it in your bag easier it fits perfectly my salad sandwich and i have friends that say it fits a breadroll in too (and i put other snacks in it) at the moment trying to focus and get back into enjoying rice crackers - 10 of them for 1 point on weight watchers which really is a lot of rice crackers

oh and it is official weigh in for me tomorrow - as long as i am still 98 i will be happy!
went to kids birthday party and was so good - ate a little bit of camembert cheese and stuff but not as much as i usually would and had a bite of the cupcakes i made and then some pav and not some cake when usually i'd have both and for lunch i'd usually have two sausages and i only had one with salad and a piece of bread so i was proud of myself for recognising i didnt need or want to eat as much as usual....

oh and lindor what did you think of biggest loser?

woohoo 98kg
i lost 700grams this week
this week plan
more exercise

I cannot believe the Biggest Loser Club was advertising shakes and meal replacement things during the show last night. I feel so strongly about it that I am going to write them a really angry letter.

They proved to me last night that they are a) using fat people as a freak show to exploit their vulnerability, b) using the Biggest Loser brand to make money out of as many fat people across the country as possible and c) showing the nation the most dangerous and least successful way to lose weight.

Having said that I do enjoy watching the show - the people who are there trying to lose weight are gutsy and inspiring.

I have been way off track the last couple of weeks, and I'm not game to go near the scales. I know they will demoralise me if I get on and find out the damage I have done, so I am going to avoid them for another week or so.

But what I am going to do is learn from what's been happening, and try to understand what lies beneath this dark spot I've discovered.

The only goal I am reaching is my walking. This week I am due to pass through Balladonia on my virtual walk - definitely in desert country now .

Kel - just saw your post. I am really, really proud of you