
I need to apologize to everyone. I am very guilty of not reading all the posts in our threads. Sometimes I just skim through, quickly absorb any highlights and then close my connection. Other times, I feel the need to "say" something, and I do so without acknowledging others struggles and/or accomplishments. I am truly sorry for not "talking" on a regular basis. I do try but here lately, I've been struggling with many personal conflicts. My way of handling these types of situations may not be the best, but laying low and keeping to myself is sometimes the only way to be...until things pass. I think this is why I now find it so easy to stay off the scale. I am staying in the moment, nurturing my body and will emerge triumphantly on the other side...very soon.
Thank you for the birthday wishes....it was a very good day. I treated myself to 2 new scarves, a mani/ped and some new panties.

I am so happy for the newest members of the "50 pounds lost" club! Job well done ladies, job well done!

and a special 
NSV yesterday too.....We all know how (most) men won't compliment us on our new physiques...well straight men anyway. I was dropping off some gargae sale items to a good friend and member of my club...a gay male. I was bending over gettiing things out of the car when he exclaimed (and no, he doesn't have an effeminate voice) "OMG, look how skinny you are!" Yes, I was wearing my black jeggings and a new scarf blouse, but THAT comment sure felt better than ANY I have gotten in quite some time. For a few moments, I forgot that I still have a tummy pouch. I can't wait for that miracle moment that will never again pass when I FINALLY see me as the rest of the world does! Soon, very soon.
Best wishes to all!

. I feel so stupid but I want to cry over +.4.
or the
or especially the
but I already stepped on the scale this morning. I have a problem, I understand!
Anyway, I've had a couple of awesome days and wanted to see if it was working. Well, I was down to 153.2.
I've never seen a 153 number before so that was exciting. I know it will go up and down a bazillion times before next Thursday so I'm not holding my breath for a big number. Heck, I'd be cool with staying right here til Thursday. I have a big dinner out tomorrow night that scares me a little but the good number only makes me want to stay op that much more. I am off of work today for the baby's funeral so it will be a tough day.
I hope everyone has a great weekend. 
