totally BORED that explains me too ani, totally over it.... i want to say it is harder for me because i did this already last year, i did optifast and shed 15kg real quick and i guess i'm just sooky that it is not fair i cant do it again, i am terrified of losing my milk if i go on optifast but right now willing to take that risk
i just DONT WANT TO have to think about it anymore, cant be bothered walking, cant be bothered going out to the cross trainer cant be bothered caring about what i eat and so eat whatever i want whenever i want
i guess i may put on weight this week and i will most likely see that number 90 again and maybe that will be the slap in the face i need

i'm basically being a baby and want the easy way out..... it has become worse with me finally seeing photos of myself.... the last six months i have taken photos of the baby but noone has had a reason to take ones of me, not since 3/4ish month pixie photos NOW i see how bad i have gotten

motivation is kinda lost as i dont feel in control.... i think i thought at 6 months jemima would start eating food, i would drop a couple of feeds maybe get pregnant real quick (though i still may not get my cycle back for ages while i do any breastfeeding) then maintain weight or something, or i think i thought i would have lost more by now......

ani you need a flatmate that is into weightloss so you can spur eachother on maybe advertise for flatmate at a gym or weightloss centre or something

vonni - how you travelling with your kids? and study? and everything!? you really are a hero

julia - you have lost so much weight so quickly, i really think you rock, i feel like i am about to start again, but dont want to write everything down or hop on calorie king or pay someone to make me meals (liteneasy or whateva) so it is up to me to exercise and drink some water for starters

i am going to have to make ONE goal and stick to it for a whole week, i think i will go with water and wash away some of this fat

here we go ..... since i've been drinking none i will go with 1.5L per day for the first week.

ani we can do it, gosh you should know look how awesome you have already been! why dont you drink some water too..... maybe i'll use you as motivation... i see your 86.2kg and i am coming to beat you to 80!

Ani... *slap*

I remember reading your posts everyday thinking, "She went walking -again-??...Ani really loves it" or something like that. Maybe it's your chance to do some more exploring around your area...surely you haven't explored every nook, cranny and path?

Kel, I know we haven't really got to know each other very well, but keep your chin up, love. It can be really demotivating when you see how awful you think you look (did that make sense? as in, you don't look awful but you think you do?) ANYWAY.... I was thinking of taking a photo of my grosso body, and putting a pic of Beyonce next to it...ha! There's my motivation! That and I'm sick of feeling self concious around bf. I never used to be, but suddenly I'm terribly aware of what he must see. Especially when he says I look good.

Vonni - hi back to you! Good luck with your assignments. My first round are out of the way, just need to catch up on readings etc. Hope bubs is doing better... Brain Collapses??? Usually the technical name is scarier lol.

Julia, how do you manage to get up for the gym every morning?

I'm off, stuff to do, but it is so nice to be catching up with you all again.

i have someone watching over me I MUST
as i weighed in today and thought here we go, it is my own fault, bring it on and fix it but
89.5KG

THANK GOODNESS
i dont get a dancing carrot party for that BUT i get to think to myself.... that was a fluke..... lets not screw it up
lets do it

Well so much for taking the dog for a long walk. Yesterday I only took her for a 20 minute walk and today it was 30 minutes. Better than nothing but compared to what I was doing, it's pretty pathetic.

I don't know how I manage to drag myself out of bed and to the gym in the mornings but I feel great when I do it. It's so nice to have it over and done with and to not have to think about it for the rest of the day.

The key for me is to not think about exercising because if I do, I feel like I can't be bothered and I start making excuses not to. I guess that's why it's good to go to the gym first thing in the morning.

The one thing that's been absolutely key for me is to record everything in my training diary. If I eat it, it gets written down and that's what keeps me honest. I'm still following weight watchers points and by writing everything down, it's easy to see whether I'm staying on track or not.

I'm feeling the same as you all are at the moment, sick to death of dieting and having to think constantly about eating and exercising. However, I've made good progress so far and I'm determined not to see all that hard work go to waste.

Keep up the effort ladies, we can do this.

OK - thanks for the slap Kylie, and for the encouragement from everyone. I've decided that the only way I can do this is to report in here every day with what I've done (and that includes confessing my bad days as well as the good ones ).

My housemate moves out on Saturday, and I have an ad going in the paper to try and find another one. *Sigh!*.

I can report that I have walked for an hour today and consumed 1.5L of water. I've eaten pretty well too, so I'm confident of being able to give today a big tick.

I'll report in again tomorrow and let you know how it's all going.


Ani

Hey Vonni~

Just found this article in the current Australian Healthy Food Guide, about MD.

" Eating a diet with a hight GI may increase your risk of developing advanced age-related macular degeneration (AMD). AMD affects the central part of the retina (macula), leaving sufferers with only limited sight ... Analysis of dta from more than 4000 men and women with varying degrees of AMD found consuimg a high-GI diet resulted in a 49 percent increase in advanced AMD risk. These results suggest the type of dmage produced by poor-quality carbohydrates on eye tissue may be similar in both diabetic eye disease and AMD.

While additional studies are needed before dietary carbohydrate management is used as a prevention strategy for AMD, including more low GI-foods in your diet will still manage blood sugars..."

Source quoted as : Am J Clin Nutr 2007;86:180-188.

Might help

PS Sorry for the typos I typed it straight off the page

Ok - so I just got creative in the kitchen making tomorrows lunch. Question: is this dip healthy? I think so. I hope so...

I avocado
1/2 tomato
1 tiny tin 4 bean mix, drained
lemon juice, salt, pepper

Smash, mash, mix, beat, blend, beat, puree until smooth.

The end. It made heaps, I'm going to eat it with celery and carrot (my new favourite snack).

When I am not sure if something is healthy or not.... and i want to eat it.... I always kinda justify it by comparing it to something else heaps worse.... not really a BRILLIANT idea but works as if you eat it without feeling guilty you wont find the need to be NAUGHTY and over do it.

Oh yeah THANKS heaps for all the support and motivation, I hate needing it... I am never usually like this.... I am just living cluttered at the moment and the weather is weird and I am supposed to be feeding Jemima solids now and that is such a messy waste of time at the moment everything just seems too hard, so I go out and leave the mess at home and then come home and relax with Jemima so no housework or exercise (or baby development) is really happening.....
i want to say it will be all good when the new kitchen is in and I think the guy has started building it so once that happens there will be no excuse.....

Kylie that dip sounds pretty good to me

Ani, great to see you sounding positive again. I'm sure it'll make a huge difference when your current flattie moves out. Here's hoping that the next one works out

I'm going for a long walk with a friend tomorrow so looking forward to that. Hope you all have a lovely weekend.

My flatmate "thinks" she's moving out this afternoon, but she isn't sure. How lovely to be able to live in utter chaos and remain oblivious to it.

Anyway, my goals for today are:

• Walk for an hour;

• Drink 1.5L of water;

• Eat no more than 1650 calories;

• Plan my meals; and

• Write it all down.

Kylie I don't claim any expertise, but your dip sounds yummy.

Come on Kel - you're below 90kg. And you're not going to win that race to 80kg with me if you don't pay more attention to what you're doing

Julia I love long walks - hope you really enjoy it tomorrow.


Ani

Vonni and Gen - where the bloody **** are you?

I'm here, just don't have anything helpful to contribute ... just ate some cadbury snack choc. I did do weights yesterday - had upped my weight and I'm sore today!

Hey Gen, are you losing weight at the moment? I know how tough it is to find the way back after moving and drastically changing your routine.

Don't lose heart, you've done so well up to now. And I don't agree that you have nothing to contribute - your knowledge and experience is a wonderful asset around here.

I take the view that this place is even more important when things are going pear-shaped. I'm expecting to post another gain on Monday, but I'll toddle in here and report in - even though I HATE it. But I've been eating too much, exercising too little … and still expecting the scale to drop. Pfft!

Anyway, yesterday was good. I walked for an hour, ate 1560 calories, and drank 2L of water. And most importantly I waved goodbye to the departing housemate

I've set myself a challenge: I want to lose 5kg during Spring (which starts in a week). Does anyone want to join me?

I'm not quitting, or making any more excuses for myself.

I have to do some work over the weekend, but today's goals are:

• Walk for an hour;

• Plan meals and eat no more than 1600 calories;

• Drink 1.5L of water; and

• Do a couple of hours of domestics.

Hope everyone has a great weekend.


Ani

I guess if i am going to beat you to 80kg then losing 5kg during spring would be a good start!
BRING IT ON!!!!!!!
we can do it no worries

does anyone else's routine totally go out the window when the weekend comes? how do you stop it from happening?

No, I don't think I'm losing weight, although I haven't unpacked my scales yet - and I don't think I want to! I know by my clothes that I've gained weight though - I'd guess I'm back at 94-95 just by the clothes

Partly it's the routine change, not having my own space, having the parents cooking for me etc. Part of it is not working and just sitting around on my arse. I think part is that I'm up to almost 6 months not smoking, and I think my weight loss slowed right around when I stopped and my appetite increased. Part of it, I stopped tracking my exercise and food obsessively, have stopped planning my meals as I am not in control of the house anymore!! Part of it is feeling yuk, so I eat to make myself feel better... we all know how that goes. Actually at the moment, it's actually bingeing almost.. if I've had a good day, I just have an overwhelming urge to eat rubbish. I know I should resist and all that, but it's physically overpowering, and I get in the car and buy rubbish and eat it all, then feel sick, and promise myself I won't do it again... and then the next time rolls along.

Sigh.

I am just **** scared at the moment that I will gain back everything I've lost.

Apart from that, I'm great. Haha. I'll get the scales out Sunday, and check in with my current weight, write out my weekly plan tomorrow and start again on Monday. I have been going to the gym, so I'll keep that up.