I used to do that too. It was fun for the kids. I would put out bowls of cut up stuff and they would take what they wanted. Now I try to make enough salad for 2 nights and put one in a zip lock where it all gets gooey.
When I win the lottery, the first thing I get is a chef.
Laura

me too! a chef would be lovely esp. one who does dishes
I hope this doesn't upset anyone- my GF sent it to me and thought it was too funny

I thought i would pass on this Interesting Psychological Fact...

A study conducted by UCLA's Department of Psychiatry
Has revealed that the kind of face a woman finds
attractive on a man can differ depending on where she
is in her menstrual cycle. For example: If she is
Ovulating, she is attracted to men with rugged and
Masculine features. However, if she is menstruating,
Or menopausal, she tends to prefer a man with scissors
Lodged in his temple and him moaning in pain while he is on fire.
Further studies in this area have been cancelled.


food today is not worth mentioning- i am so upset & stressed i don't want to eat - theres a first- not even hungry at all.
i'll prolly lose it later and eat everything in sight
to all
Sandi

Sandi I luved that,it is so true LOL.
well yesterday I walked 2 km, ate, a pair, jumbo hotdog, half order of onion rings, for supper was a pork stirfry, then I had some crackers with speg sauce ham and cheese, for snack.
today I had 1/2 a subway melt lots of lettuce, 2 beef baritos** just hamburg,bbq sauce, wrapped in a fahita** with melted cheese on top, and for a snack I m gonna have a apple.
I went to Curves today and another 2 km walk.
omg I just re-read what I ate no wonder, for sure it must help to see it in black and white, I have go to do better. Oh well can't change the past only work on the future.
Take care ladies.

ROFLMBO! NO wonder I feel the way I do-it isn't my fault ROFL! Very hectic day today as I had to be at an IEP meeting for josh at 9a this morning. I pulled up and then there were cop cars and I am like ok what did I do??? Well it was a kid in josh's class in crisis and it was so bad the cops had to be called. I said a quick prayer for the parents and the little boy too. I was relieved that I knew Josh wasn't at school yet so it couldn't be him. Meeting ran long but it was a really good one and she will be josh's teacher next year too and so from now till end of next year we have to try and get him ready for middle school. It just doesn't seem possible he will be 10 in july! So my day is all thrown off and I didn't make the best choices.

Meeting with michelle went really well yesterday too and she was amazed at how much he has grown. Amazing what getting 3 squares a day will do for a kid. It looks like he will be completely mine probably in sept or oct by the time all the red tape is done. How weird is this-I am my son's grandmother when this adoption is done. Boggles the mind.

Off to find the kitchen again and hopefully read to josh a bit too. Need to find out how the kids get away from Count Olaf this time!
Melissa

ooooo Kashi has a new cereal out and it is YUMMY
it's the heart to heart w/ blueberries -publix had it this week BIGIF- i could eat it all day

I still have no appetite- i think for once the upset and tension has really gotten to me and i just don't wanna eat- this is a first for me - usually i grab whatever is in sight and eat until i am miserable. but i haven't been hungry these past two days.

I think my #1 excuse is because of "stress" - either real or imagined i feel food will make me happier and it's my friend -when i know it isn't going to fix anything and i know it won't make me happier - the "wrong" foods will only make me fatter. but i don't process the logic when i am stressed.

yesterday i had a slimfast and a luna bar, banana & at night i had some chicken and noodles- the only reason i do the slimfast high protein is becasue i am a chocolate junkie and it has lots of fiber, vitamins and protein so i don't feel like i am cheating on chocolate.

today i've had a bowl of the new kashi and skim milk and a banana- have no idea what to have for lunch today- dinner will be salsbury Steaks( made w/ ground turkey) & veggies.

sandi

Sandi- I so agree with you about eating because it will make you feel better and not processing the results. That says it all.
This might sound like a cliche but now that i am working out I am seeing my body much more and not hating it as much, and therefore being more aware of abusing it by eating crap or too much. I feelbetter, I can move easier and I can see some small changes all of which are helping me from falling too far off OP. After so many years of avoiding mirrors and wearing big shirts and hiding out, i am forced to look, and I know there are some things that will never change, like scars and blue veins, but there is hope.
This post sounds very toudhy feely gooey, but it's true.
On excuses- Another excuse I use for eating too much is hopelessness. It will take too long, it's too hard, so just eat.
Laura
Laura

Today's food
Omelette with sausage and cheese and veggies
frozen fruit bar
yogurt and frozen mango shake
I can't think about dinner yet.
Laura

i agree with the hopelessness- it seems i will never make strides - i will never lose this weight - and on and on and on- BUT then i see how far some of us have come and i think i am so whiny- i don't have so much to lose- so i need to get off my butt and move- (as soon as foot/ankle heals)and just do it.
and no your post is just fine- very honest and true.
Melissa- to you- Logan will be a well cared for & loved little boy-he will have a loving family to help him and be there for him- we can still pray kate shapes up and be a good part of his life. and i adore the lemony snicket books- they are great!
Ice- i know when i first wrote down what i was eating in a day it was sad- i was like i ATE THAT??? my eating is good but i am not exercising at all and that isn't helping me at all- i am not gaining but i am not losing either.

oh well -on to rest ankle and chill till dinner

Well I am totally bummed. It looks like I am going to be moving after all. My rent will be doubling if I stay here and there is just no way I can do it that I can see anywhere. I would like to just go to bed right now. House hunting with all the kids packing ect-ugh! I am not sure what I am going to do really.
Melissa

Oh my Melissa, just what you need. How much time do youhave to find a place?
Laura

I am so sorry Melissa! I know how hard it is to look, and then to pack and move everything! Stay strong! Wish I was closer to help you out! If you need someone to sit with the kids you can call my daughter Grace. She is not far from you and she has LOTS of experience being the oldest of 6!! Right now she watches a 1 month old on Thursdays.
I hope you find something quickly that is affordable!
Hugs!!!
Kathy

oo melissa i am so sorry- how quick do you have to move??
maybe there's a church or other non- profit in the area that can help ?? a lot have what is called mom's day out where they will watch the kids for a day for free- I know many kids in our youth group have helped lift boxes etc..when someone was moving.
to you
and take Kathy up on her offer of her daughter- she must have lots of experience!
is there anyway the social worker can help you find a place?? there has to be housing assistance for you with all the kids.
I know i am babbling - just thinking what i can do to help while being so far away so i can't physically help.
it's so hard in this country to get decent affordable housing, and it's not getting easier.
we know a family who came back to this area cause they lost everything in Mississippi due to Katrina and they just found out the insurance comapny won't pay a penny to them as they said it was a flood and they didn't have flood insurancecause they didn't live in a flood zone. so not only did they lose their home and belongings BUT they still have a mortage they are told they have to pay -and they can't get assistance because last year they made lots of money but this year they have nothing- but the assistance is based on from the past 12 months income- does that make sense?? i always have said don't depend on the GVT to help you -you have to take care of yourself and your own family.- ok enough sorry

Stood in the Easter Candy Aisle and people must have thought i was crazy as i had a conversation with myself:
" oooo Chocolate Bunnies"
"No you don't want the calories"
But no one will know- if I have 1 chocolate Bunny
"yeah you'll feel guilty and confess it and candice will tell you what crud was in the bunny"
"Not if i don't tell anyone"
"You'll feel guilty and HAVE to tell them"
so anyway i put the bunny back and went on my way-after i read the calorie count of 350 calories and 17 grams of fat

Sandi

Not sure how it is going to work. Apparently landlord can't sign a year lease with me and it is supposed to happen with a rent increase-so housing may just tell me to move which she still isn't sure if she is going to be able to keep the house or if it will sold in her divorce and I just don't want anything last minute. Mom has boxes and I will start packing non-essentials and as soon as I hear from rental officer start looking. I have no idea what amount of rent is my range or if because I have logan now I am eligable for 4 bedroom which would be nicer for all the kids since i have all 3 babies in one room right now and plus not sure about getting another baby this summer or not either. I just hate moving is all and I really want josh to stay in the school he is in now-he is doing so well there. So will know more tomorrow I guess as to what i am looking for and I just may take grace to watch kids for me. I do have a sister in law like 6 blocks from me too so will see what happens. Rental officer told me to call volunteers of america, catholic community services and also welfare office to see about help with new deposit so that will mean more paperwork again-when is mr. joe millionaire gonna leave me all his money????? ROFL

Katrina was NOT a flood-it was a giant tidal wave tsunami hurricaine whatever you want to call it but it was not a flood and I would be fighting them tooth and nail on that one. floods come from rivers and streams not the ocean. Bad enough to lose everything but then to pay all that time on insurance just to be messed over is so wrong plus a mortgage for a house that isn't there anymore! Legalized extortion is what insurance is in my opinion. Now I will get off my box too lol.
Melissa

hi everyone! i'm so sorry you have to move melissa. moving is a pain, even without kids. hopefully you will get an even better house.
well i have not been good today. i finally broke down and made the banana bread dh has been wanting me to make for so long. i have been putting it off because i knew if i made it, then i would want to eat it . so even though i knew i had this banana bread at home, i had a cupcake at work. grrr.
breakfast (280)
yogurt/jelly/granola (280)
lunch (760)
roast beef sandwich (300)
cupcake (200, i guess. they're small)
banana bread (260)
dinner
don't know yet, but something with around 300 calories. i don't want to go over again today! depends on dh what it is though.

food for today
omelette with sausage cheese and veggies
fruit
yogurt and mango shake
salmon and brussels sprouts and salad
grapes
20 minutes on the elliptical and a 1 hour class on muscle activation

I am keeping what Sandi said about not processing when stressed in my head, I hope.
Laura