HI guys!

Just a quick hello and goodbye, I am off to work and then off for my 7 hour drive to school. I meant to pick up a book on tape but I forgot so I guess I'll be stuck listening to my class lectures. Yuck!!! Please pray for my safety to and from school. I have not driven this far since my car accident in November. I have been flying to and from school since then.

Red, I do Pilates. I thought it was boring too. I bought a video called firm and burn Pilates by the Crunch which is a lot of standing Pilates with light weights and cardio. It is much better and not so boring. I am doing okay with my challenge. I am eating right and exercising but still no weight loss. I think part of it is a lack of sleep,etc. I am nearing the nd of my Winter term at school and so I am really busy, which means that sleep is sacrificed. When you work full time and take 7 classes something has to give and for me it is sleep. I am proud of myself that I have at least kept up with my hour workout each day. Keep up with your good work! I am so pumped up about your clothes fitting better.

Sub-I hope you feel better soon!

Shan-I hope you feel better soon also. How is your brother liking his Boot Camp workout?

Doing-Hope the jet lag is gone. How are the night sweats?

CG-I know what you mean. I just had a fit when I found out that I made a B on my Neuro midterm! I tend to set high expectations for myself.

NBK-I am glad you are on the mend. Do not push yourself!

Lttle GH, where are you? We miss you!

Hey everyone!

Thanks for your concernd. The night sweats seem to have tapered off.

Yesterday, I did MOST of my goals. I did work out, and I did get work done. I didn't eat so well...A candy bar (a big one) tripped me up. But that was pretty much all, so it's progress.

I need to stock my home with good things and make a point of eating whenever I am hungry. That keeps the siren song of the candy bar quieter.

Yeah, I got good work done. I pushed hard and wrote 1500 words on the book. I also cleaned the house, which dsperately needed it. Still needs more...

Princess, that is a good recipe, I'll have to try it. I love making dishes out of canned veggies...

Stormy, too bad you didn't get a book on tape. Those are great! Hand in there.

CG- Don't worry about being homeless and without a job. Graduation is a good thing, a thing to look forward to. There are homes and workplaces out there to accomodate you. Just forcus on the schoolwork, and let yourself breathe.

Red- I can tell you are a writer. Your posts are prolific... You know, in addition to the pants-o-meter, you might want a measuring tape.

Okay kids! I'm off to start my day. Yes, it's late, but I am letting myself get caught up on sleep. Yay for getting things back on track!

Heh guys, not much time here. It's really snowing hard outside, every bit of it is sticking. I don't want to go to work. I hate the place as it is but to have to battle this to get there and for nothing extra, that's just too much. And the chances are good that others will call in saying that can't make it. Some of the train lines are down. Oh, darn, should I call in sick or what? I don't get any money if I do that but this snow is awful. . . rant, rant. . .

I went to the store to buy new pants yesterday, not because everything is too big. . don't I wish, but because everything is ripped or too small. The dressing room is a horror trip. Why do I hate what I see in the mirror so much!? It must be the lighting, the close proximity to my humongous thighs. . oh damn, it's this kind of thing that makes me want to cry, want to throw in the towel right at that point where I start to see progress. Sometimes it seems our points of victory are our weakest moments. Here I am seeing some change in my body, with the pants zipping up and I can oh so easily sabotage it, oh so easily backslide. Why do I do this?! How do I NOT do it?! Help please!!

subpreme -- hello there. glad to see you posting. I hear you on the depressing snow. Snow is fun when you can go sledding and whatever, but trying to get to work in it is awful. Do you work out of the home? Does the snow make you just stay inside? Chin up kid! It'll soon be spring.

NBK -- heh there. Where have you been? What's this about getting shafted. Performance review while you were gone? Well I guess you weren't peforming too well if you weren't even in the office, well, at least not that they could evaluate?! what's this about stitches. I think I missed something. Waht happened? I remember the food poisoning but that's all. tell us more. Congrats on being at 72.2. I'm not there yet. Still over 74, what a bummer! Hope to hear more from you!

Crime girl -- sorry about that lost post but really, you should write in another file like Word or even Notepad or something where you can keep saving. I sometimes write right on the forum thinking I will just write a bit and then I end up going on and on but I know it's dangerous. It's easy to delete the whole thing. Don't panic about work. You've got to stop this. You're starting to sound like Chicken Little, or worse, the Boy who Cried Wolf. There is no way you are going to be jobless or homeless. Stop the panicking. Just look. You'll find so many things. Stop putting yoruself in the victim seat and acting like employers have to choose you. You are the one who can choose. You are obviously very talented and very qualified for any number of jobs.

Thanks for the congrats on my no-sugar stint. I am honored to be your hero, don't feel very deserving though. . . I am thrilled about the clothes and then not. Do you know how many times I've been here before. I want to enter virgin territory or at least territory I haven't seen in 20 years. I want to have the added 20 years of experience and take my body back to a better time.

I am glad you like that self-esteem thing. I have to read it too. I don't think I ever think I'm not OK, but I do start focusing on things like body and looks because I'm around young guys who only have that in their little heads. I have to remember everything I have that they can only dream of. And they could only dream of a girlfriend who had the things I have who would even bother to give them a second look. Thanks for the horoscope. I am feeling better. I hope to have this support source in my life. I do need assistance. I don't think I'm afraid to open up. Don't know why I don't seem to get the assistance I always say I need. Strange. Maybe I don't really need it, that's why I don't get it. Kind of a Mick Jagger thing. . .

stormy -- thank you for being happy about my victory. That is so sweet of you. You are amazing with all you do. Yes, an hour workout on top of all that work and little sleep is just amazing. I bought a Crunch video too but it wasn't the fat-burning one. It was a 10-minute choose your spot one or something like that. Haven't watched it yet. Keep up the good work. I am proud of you too!

doinmybest -- hi there! Good for you for doing most of your goals. Ah, so the work is the writing you are doing. 1500 words is a lot. Hope you are making headway. Do you plan on getting this book published or is it just a hobby, just for yourself? As for my prolificacy, I think the only thing I am prolific about is posting on this forum. As for regular work, you can hear the screams when the words are forced from me seconds before deadline. I have my newspaper background to thank for meeting deadline at all. It's great pressue to meet such deadlines, especially when you're covering a story and are writing from some noisy, smoke-filled press room, hoping the computer will work and that you won't lose your whole story just as you hit the "send" button. I have done that and didn't have a backup. All I did was sit there and start typing again from the start, with tears running down my face. Got the story out though.
Well, good luck with your goals best, cut the giant candy bars, don't let all your good work be canceled out!

*********

Ok, guys, later! I am going to brave the snow.

Just a quick note for Red-
CALL IN SICK GIRL!!!
Have a fun day in the snow and don't worry...

How is everyone tonight???
I just got home from work and ate some dinner and now getting ready to study so thought I would jump on for a minute.

Red- I think what you are trying to say is Get over myself. You are probably right- I do let things stress me out. I just haven't been this overwhelmed in awhile. I think anytime we go through change it cause stress. Anyway- I will take your advice and try to chill. It is not that I literally think I am going to be homeless or unemployed. I just think I am a little overwhelmed- I know deep done it will all get done.
I know how you feel about trying clothes on- I hate it. I have started just buying what I like and bringing it home and trying it on. I also tend to get in the habit of wearing the same style of clothes in different colors when I find something I like. Good luck with the pants hunt!

Doinmybest- Great job on the workout and progress on the book. I bet you are feeling much better- it feels great to meet your goals. Don't worry about the candy bar- they are devious and sneak up on you when you are not looking.
Thanks for the reminder that I am doing this school thing for a reason- like I told Red I will try to calm down.

Stormy- Have fun at school! Sorry you forgot your book on tape- I love those things when I travel. I will definitely think good thoughts about your trip- keep you in my prayers but I know you will be fine.Try not to tense too much and be careful.

Okay folks- I need to go. Need to study- good news though- I have next week off from work and school. I am so looking forward to not having to worry about going to work and class. I should be able to get a lot of resumes out and get the research for my paper done. We will see- I am also going to try to exercise everyday next week. I think it will help my stress problem and maybe settle me a little. Wish me luck!

I can't believe we went an entire day with no responses. WOW!
Red balloon, little grasshopper, NBK, doinmybest, subpremeprincess, stormy...
I think NBK might not have access to a computer, stormy is in school, what about everyone else?

Okay well- It is Saturday and I am going out for the day with bf- it is the first day of vacation for him and the first day of Spring Break for me. I am trying to make it a day for him so we are going to do all the things he wants to do since I will be busy the rest of the week doing my stuff and he will be on his own.

Hope everyone has a great day! Come back and talk-

Hello and how is everyone doing? I am sorry that I have not posted lately, it has been a very busy week. I have done pretty well with my eating this week, but not exercising like I should. I am feeling better though. One thing that definitely works for me is eating breakfast in the morning. On the days that I do have breakfast, I am less prone to pigging out all day or late night snacking. A food journal has been ever so helpful in helping me to see this. I know that some of you guys have been going to the gym and working out only to see that the scale *GASP* hasn't moved or gone up a pound or two. This happened to me after I had my son and I was working out at the gym at least four days a week. I panicked and I was really upset, so upset that I went to the doctor crying. My doctor informed me that I probably was putting on muscle which weighs more than fat. I did learn on my own though that I should cut calories, eat smaller portions of food, and move more. These things sound like easy things to do, but those of us fighting the battle of the bulge daily never ever take these things for granted. This is especially true for me because I have a sister who is as naturally thin, as I am naturally fat . My two year old son always tries to feed her whenever he sees her! At a size two, my sister can put away tons of carbs and not gain a pound! She once tried to gain five pounds and ended up losing five! Needless to say, I must stick to my plan because people love to point it out when you gain a couple of pounds. Or, you end up running into an ex-boyfriend that loves to tell people you haven't seen in a while how horrible you look. This doesn't mean that we beat ourselves up! We will only work harder towards our goals. A candy bar or a bag of potato chips does not blow our diet/exercise plan for the whole week. I hope that everyone is doing well. Sorry about the long ramble, I think I am suffering from cabin fever Have a nice day

Crime girl, I am here, just wasn't in the mood to write, as there was nothing interesting to say and I was laid low from a late night out! First time in a bit and it was a birthday for a coworker. Will try to write today sometime. Am just tired and not wanting to go to the gym. Subpreme, hello! Long posts are fine. Ramble on! I will catch up later.

Ok, guys. Went riding. The whole way there I was thinking of quitting, calling and canceling. I was falling asleep on the train, even dreaming. I barely have a voice but otherwise don't feel that bad. Still, I thought I may be pushing it. Even kind of hoped the snow would have frozen the arena and I couldn't ride, but no, it was OK, just wet! and I rode and I think I even got something down a bit better. I was pushing it though. Definitely have a cold here, or one coming on, settling in my chest and throat I guess, though I have no pain in my throat, just a real husky voice that takes a lot of effort to even use! My chest does hurt some. I often get this kind of cold. It's better than the head cold but this one is dangerous because I tend to push myself too much. Almost got pneumonia once because of that.

Crime girl -- Ok, here I am. Sorry you were left high and dry there for a while. Don't panic. I guess people are just having a breather or whatever. They'll probably be back some time. Well, the other day I got your message too late to not go in to work. I was actually in the train when I read it on my phone. But it was good I got in. That night we went out and it was the next day I took off! I know, get Red out of the bars. Well, I'm not in them as much as many people I know. Course it was another all nighter. No, CG, I'm not really saying to get over yourself. I'm just saying chill and get to know yourself! You probably do but there seems to be something there that makes you panic or sound like you're panicking. I know other achiever types like you. I mean, they're achiever types but they don't have faith in themselves. Or maybe it's because they're afraid of NOT doing a great job. Me, I'm an achiever type but I don't care if I fail. If I do, I'll just try again. No big thing. It's never over till the very end. You don't have to have everything down pat, if fact, you can't. There are no guarantees in life so why bother worrying about something that you can never ever guarantee anyhow. Maybe you're a planner type. I never planned, probably should a bit more, but I've always just taken things for what comes and it's so much fun that way. Never really knowing what's around the corner, keeping open to whatever may come up. I guess I'm like a cat somehow. I seek things out, curiosity and all that, hope it doesn't kill me. You seem very cautious about things, but heh, like I said, the more cautious you try to be the more likely life will try to throw you a curve ball. Ok, off my soapbox. As for the pants hunt, got two pairs. I always buy the same things. These are still tight but wearble, well, kind of. Just got to get back on track. I'm still off sugar but I've been eating too much again. So, how did the day with the boyfriend doing his stuff go? What did you do?

subpreme -- I hear you on your frustrations. I'm often there myself. Your doctor was no doubt right about you putting on muscle. Get a pants-meter like I have. Weight is pretty meaningless. You can get much smaller as you actually gain in pounds. Muscle takes up like a seventh of the size of fat. I once had a really gross picture of fat and muscle. I think someone posted it on this forum. It really showed you what an enormous difference it will make in your size and shape. That must be tough having a sis who is so different from you bodywise and eatingwise. My sister is the same as me, can put the weight on very easily. Well, good luck! and like I said, long posts are great! Keep 'em comin'!

Heh subpreme, I found that picture. It's kind of gross but they're just replicas. 5 lbs of fat, 5 lbs of muscle. Now which do you think is going to make you look more slender?!
http://www.3fatchicks.com/forum/atta...chmentid=17582

and here's the sticky it was on with all the people grossing out!

http://www.3fatchicks.com/forum/showthread.php?t=37091

I weighed today but I was up again. It is too ridiculous, really. I am not going to think about it, just record the number and kick on. . .

shanberg -- dream analyst! I had an interesting one last night. Here in Tokyo, we often leave the doors unlocked. Sure, there is the chance of somebody coming in but it's small. Anyhow, I don't think that is what this dream was about really.

I sit down at my computer and only then do I realize that my computer monitor is gone. I realize it's been stolen and then I look around my two rooms and all the appliances are gone. They have been neatly taken away and things are even neater than they were when the stuff was there (which isn't hard to do!)

It's a yucky feeling, knowing someone's been in here, very spooky, knowing they did it very quickly and just vanished. I go upstairs (in my dream there are people living above me, but I don't really know them and it's a strange big place they have (in my dream). I find someone and tell her and she's coming downstairs to my room when I see the dark figure of a big man in my room again. It's scary but I lunge at him, drag him into the light and try to jab my fingers into his eyes, trying to sit on him, hold him down, somehow immobilize him so the police can come. But he's a big guy and he can easily just lift up with me on him but I'm digging at him, pounding at him, trying to gouge him, bite him, poke his eyes out, in the meantime calling for someone to come and get him but I don't think anyone is coming and I can't hold him much longer. I'm thinking I surprised him but the surprise is wearing off. .

then I wake up.

Ok, I had taken Nyquil to get to sleep because I was coughing so a lot of this is probably drug induced. What do you think? Kind of weird, no. I like the fact that I didn't just run off or something but actually went for him!

Here is the link for the new thread!
http://www.3fatchicks.com/forum/show...565#post792565

Hello all,

Yes, I have been M.I.A. (Missing In Action). I call myself upgrading the motherboard in my computer and it turned into a major project. Well needless to say I built myself a whole new system thank goodness I'm a computer tech....or this would have cost me a couple of thousand dollars....LOL

RED~I am still catching up on all of the postings, however I did hear about "Tetchan". I lost my dog "Teagger" to cancer back in 2000 and I still miss her. I took 3 days of bereavement from work and when I returned there was a pet sympathy card on my desk. I thought that was so sweet.

ALL~ I want to thank you all for checking up on me . Although I have lost 2lbs since my last post it has been an up hill battle. At first it wasn't so hard, but then I went on a trip with my sister out of town. Now I didn't do as bad as you may think, but we all know we are our worst critic. When I got back home it was as if sugar was waiting at my front door. Ok maybe it was a Honeybun Oh how I love them with their cinnamon glaze dripping from their plastic wrapper (wiping the drool from the corner of my mouth). Oh let me stop and just focus on the size 12 skirt I just bought today. YES SIZE 12!! (I'm doin' the "Happy Dance"!!)