Hi again, it's been ages since I posted but I wanted to update this thread. Mostly in case someone reads it and maybe it can help them too.
Firstly, I am so grateful so all the responses I had, it really gave me a lot to think about and helped that it was unbiased.
About 9 weeks ago he moved home at my request, the intention was to try keeping things long distance for a while, but after a few weeks I noticed he was still trying to control me and being nasty, so I ended it for good. It was definitely easier having made the first step of him moving out.
At first when he left, I missed him and started to wonder if I'd overreacted etc, but after seeing that he hadn't changed even after this, it was enough to start remembering all the horrible things he put me through and realising I did actually have a choice. Things got to the point where I started to feel incredibly depressed and numb, I began not caring about my life because I couldn't bear the thought of staying trapped in this horrible 'relationship'.
I felt really trapped for a long time, especially by us living together, but I'm starting to feel much happier and more like my self now.
I'm not in a rush to look for another relationship, but I will certainly have my eyes wide open next time. Emotional abuse is incredibly deceptive....
Thank you all so much for the support you offered, it really did make a difference! xx
It really wasn't a smooth breakup (If such things exist), between him moving out and breaking up life really kicked my butt and I started wondering if I was even doing the right thing, I guess when the chips are down it's easier to want to turn to familiar things. Somehow I managed to carry on though, and soon started feeling better than I have done for ages.
