Hi Silk....sorry your weight is at a standstill right now. Mine is really dragging. I'm down to the last 10-15 pounds, so it'll take awhile. Like you, I can't exercise....that makes it very slow. Don't get discouraged, we can do it, & we will!!! Be sure to drink lots of water. The more, the better. That's something I've really slowed down on....I gotta get back to it.

Sorry you're still having problems dealing with your brother's death. I remember going through those things when my dad died. I was only 21, & we were very close. I'm 54 now, still have the dreams.....but I welcome them. It's my way of hanging on to him, I guess. Sometimes, it seems I can feel his presence. Can't explain it. No, I'm not weird....I just feel like he watches over me, somehow. Maybe, I just want to think that, but it helps.

There was another death of a young man my daughter was dating when she was 16. We had known him most of his life. He was killed in a car accident, on his way to our house to pick up our daughter for a hay ride on Halloween. She never really got over it/him. Neither did we. He was a very special person. She gets real depressed during October....I always hate when Halloween comes around, now.
She is married to a great guy now, & has a little boy & a little girl. Right now, he's in Iraq.....we are all so concerned for him, as well as all the others. If anything happens to him, I'm afraid my daughter wouldn't be able to handle it. She is a basket case all of the time. Luckily she has an identical twin sister, who helps her a lot. There are some things in this life, I just will never understand.

I don't mean to sound so down, today....sorry. I think, fighting with this cp this week....combined with living in the middle of a burnt house with no walls, etc, are just getting to me a little. I'll be ok.....also, I think my Remicade is beginning to wear off. I start getting a little moody, when that happens.

Feel better, & take care of yourself.....I'll check in later.

Hi All,

Angel, so sorry to hear that your feeling blue. I hate when that happens. Sounds like you've got a Buffet of Worries to choose from....don't you wish that buffet had a light section? Okay, bad joke. Know what you mean about the house. We had our cesspool replaced back in March and the front of the house is still a mess. Lucky me is the one to deal with all the contractors....worst part is that the guy who put the cesspool in neglected to get a permit. Haven't heard from him recently and I'm debating if I need to file a report with Consumer Affairs. GRRRR!

Silk, sorry to hear that your still down. Nothing I can really say excpet (((((HUGS))))). Don't beat yourself up about stuff...what purpose does that serve? Wish I had a tape in my head that would play everytime I did it to myself.

Hmmm....life is pretty interesting for me right now. Have an old college friend who's having trouble getting a job. We both took similar college classes and taught at the same school. We've made a mutual support/motivation system. Getting tired of the Same %$#@ different day routine....Actually emailed my resume last night for a part time hospital job, got a call today, and they want me to interview for a more permanent position.

It's not exactly what I went to college for but at least it gets me out of the house and it's a step out of my rut. Now just need my car to be fixed so I can get there and I'll be one happy camper!

Still haven't gone for that stress test yet. Need to call, find out the cost, and arrange it around when I can borrow a car. Not looking forward to the treadmill because I'll be embarrassed at how out of shape I am. But, on the brightside, if I am going to have trouble with my heart at least I'll be at the hospital! Sick way to think about it isn't it? lol

Hope everyone is staying cool. I'll keep you guys in my prayers.

Deb

Hi Silk, glad you got the kidney stone looked after and that you had a holiday as well. I think that this is just part of the grieving process and soon you will be able to remember the fun times and be able to laugh. You will still cry and feel sad at times as well - even years later. Hang in there. I hope your appointment with the rheumy went well. I don't know what they can do to help you. Let me know what he tells you please, as I aslo have FM.

Angel - Sorry you are going through such a tough time. That virus was a rotten thing to get, especially when you don't know much about computers. I would be the same way. Thank goodness it missed me. Men can be very stubborn. It's like the saying goes "you can lead a horse to water, but you can't make him drink" Hope you are feeling more up today.

Grasshopper - Hope you get the stress test done soon. In Canada, it is done as part of our healthcare and we don't pay out of pocket for it. Good luck on your job hunting.

I have been really busy the past few days. Had to wear the Halter Monitor for 24 hrs., had my kids here for dinner Sunday, and my cousin and her husband came and spent the night last night. Then today, I had to go to the dermatologist and to see my Dr. I am feeling rather drained tonight and it has been so hot the past few days - today it was in the 90's. We just don't get that kind of hot weather in August - usually. It has happened a few times, but it is rare.

Well everyone have a great night.

Hi ladies, Angel please tell your daughter I will pray for her everyday. It must be awful for her to be alone with the kids and worrying about her husband. Life is scarry sometimes, I wish her all the best.

Grasshopper, I don't think I have heard from you before, thanks for the kind words. We all have our troubles and it is good to have someplace to go to release our problems.

Happy Canuck, I love your cartoon, I have to get busy and practice so I can add some of these lovely characters that you use.

It is 1:00 a.m. and I can't sleep to I thought I would check my messages and was so glad to have one from all of you.

We sold my mothers house last week, she passed away a year ago May 4. I signed the final papers today and now we have to clear her house out by October 31. That is the house that the five of us grew-up in. We never lived anywhere else until we were married. With mom gone and Max gone our family dynamics have certainly changed.

Well take caer everyone.

Silk

Hi everyone.....I didn't mean to sound so down in my last post. I try to keep a positive attitude, & encourage. I really think when my Remicade starts wearing off, it has a big effect on me in several ways. I have a friend who takes the same treatments, only he takes them for Crohn's disease...mine is RA. I've noticed he gets a little moody & depressed just before his treatment is due. I thought it was because he dreaded them. ( the first 2-3 days after is really rough...not able to do anything, but stay home & lay down a lot!) But, since I've been taking them for about 6 mos now, I'm noticing the same pattern with me.

Silk....it wouldn't surprise me if the Neurologist didn't recommend these treatments for you. When mine found out I was taking Remicade for RA, he mentioned that it would probably help FM, also. I asked him if he thought I had that...he said he had suspicioned it. If he suggests it, I would recommend you try it. After the treatment, itself, wears off...there is SUCH a difference in your energy. A lot of my & my friends' problem is we're very sensitive to it, & receive a lot of other meds with it.
Sorry you couldn't sleep last night...I know how that is. Ever since our house burned, I sleep very little. I get up anywhere from 3-5am & get on the computer. Sorry, I'm talking about myself too much!

Happy Canuk....Have you found out anything from having to wear the monitor? Keep us informed. It's been very hot here, also! Yes...hubby's still working on house without hat. I, also, loved that cartoon!

Grasshopper....Don't worry about the treadmill showing you're out of shape. Dr will only be watching your heart...to see that it's IN shape! I hope you have some kind of insurance...it's VERY expensive! I feel like it should be like Canada...have health care available for everyone!

Hope all have a good day....I'll check in later.

Hi, I went to the Rheumatologist today and he didn't recommend anything different then what I am already doing. He is going to recommend that my family doctor re-check my thyroid and to see if I am anemic, he just felt that all that has happened in the past year has caused my FM to get worse.

Angel, please don't apologize for talking to much about yourself as that is what we are here for, Lord knows I do enough of talking about myself.

It is very, very hot here again today, but as summer is almost at an end I guess I should not complain.

I am going to start supper now so I will probably be on later.

Hope everyone is well.

Take care
Silk

Hi All!

A lot of running around today... but got a lot done. Man, I'm beat...wish the cleaning fairies would come clean the house and cook dinner!!!! Think they went on strike.

Still haven't scheduled the stress test...need to take care of that tomorrow. I think that I'm eligible for a sliding scale...either way, I have to get it just so I have peace of mind.

Angel...don't apologize for venting. What's that saying? A load shared is a load lifted. Yes, it's not good to wallow in negative thoughts but it's not good to stuff them either....cause I don't know about you but stuffing bad feelings always goes better coated in chocolate ...or deep fried.......or.....

Where did my mind go? lol

Really tired today....no idea why. Went to be early last night too. Do you guys find that your joints hurt with heat? Weird, just that my elbows and knees have been buggin me a little. I know it's the weight but wondering if it could be something else.

Enough talking about the World O Deb....not much happening here! Hope everyone is staying cool and feeling good!

Deb

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