So, short short version.. I'm doing relatively well.. got the results of my cardiac test (they came back normal), but there is definitely something wrong... Doctor is doing more tests to test adrenal function. Since the ticker isn't the issue, she thinks that the BP may be the reason why I've been having heart palpitations. My BP runs around 85/55 lately, and this leaves me feeling wiped out. I hate it. It's so utterly frustrating that I thought losing weight was going to make me feel better (and I'm talking purely physical better, NOT psychologically better. I know weight loss isn't some magic panacea that makes everything better and you're suddenly happy and sunshine, puppies, and kittens). Doc also wants to send me to see a cardiologist just to be safe since my resting heart rate has been really slow too (average of 54bpm).
Gwennie is doing much better.. she had a couple weeks of emotional ups and downs, and some issues with frustration where she couldn't find the words she was looking for, but she seems to be recovered! Doc told us to keep an eye on her since this time is a huge transitional point for her.
I had a few realizations yesterday when updating my stats... I'm now in double digits for weight loss.. not triple digits.. first time in over 20 years that I haven't had HUNDREDS of pounds to lose. Typing this has made me incredibly emotional, I cry all the time now lol! I'm 12 pounds away from losing the "morbidly obese" diagnosis off my medical record. I've been morbidly obese since I was 8 years old. 30 years is enough. I'm ready to be healthy and live my life, a smaller, more well adjusted, and happier me.
I could complain about the physical stuff, but there's so much to be thankful for. This group is one of those thankful things. While I know Slipfree IRL, I feel like this thread has allowed ALL of us to become friends. Thank you.
Oh! One other exciting, kinda neat thing.. I'm 20lbs away from being "the biggest loser" at the clinic I go to, and my coach asked me if I'd be willing to have my data posted up at the seminar and if I'd be willing to talk at the seminars when I get to my first goal.
I'm 1 point away from being at a healthy viceral fat level, and I FINALLY can see yellow on my body fat scale (according to the printouts that we get at our center).