Oh no Annie, I'm so sorry to hear that your dear BearBee had to go to the rainbow bridge. I know it breaks your heart. We've had our share of loss this year, haven't we? Hang in there and give Pepper hugs and kisses. I'm sending some via computer to ya. I'm looking at my goldens and both are going gray in the face!! How dare they? Ratrat is doing well so far. She gets more antibiotics on Friday. Her ear is still draining, but she is way more comfortable than last week.

Hugs and puppy licks (you don't want the teeth end of Ratrat.. them things are sharp!)

Ratkity

Im so sorry annie to hear that you had to put your dog to sleep it is really sad when you have to do something like that to someone that has become part of your family...i am thinking of you and sending *hugs* i hope things get better for you soon


lots of hugs to you!

Heather

I had 1519 calories today. As long as I get at least 1500, I feel pretty good. We've been so busy that I feel kind of tired, but not tired in the same way that I used to when eating too much.

Annie,

I am so sorry about your dog. I would be heartbroken if something happened to one of my babies. Take lots of good care of yourself and know that you gave him a good life and lots of love.

Zelma,

It was GREAT to hear from you. I've thought of you and the loss of Daryl several times and was wondering how you and your family were doing. I've never lost a sibling, but all of the pain from losses I've had in my life seemed to ease when I was able to share good memories with people who understood. Feel free to do that here or PM me!

Hugs to you,
Ratkity

Oh Annie! I'm so sorry about your bearbee!!! Our dogs are such an integral part of our lives and their passing leaves such a hole. And yet, we know their time with us is short. My sincere condolences. I'm giving my furbabies a hug for you.

morning ladies...

Annie: I am sorry to hear about your pooch. UGH!

As for me: I went to my new dr yesterday. No pap because she does the "get to know you" appointment..so in Jan i will go in for my pap. Oh Joy! But I have the most wonderful news..I am no longer a 300+ pound woman!!!! When I stepped on that scale and it STOPPED at 294.4 ...I was staring at it waiting for it to go up...and it didnt!! The dr was like ok...294.4..and I just stood there..tears began to fall. She said whats wrong..I said I am 294 pounds...she said we will talk about that..I said no you don't understand I have not been under 300 lbs in over 10 years. I think I was seriously not believing it!

I am more determined now then ever to keep on with this journey. Right now...I am in the zone..next goal..250!

which reminds me..I gotta change my ticker!!

Cyn -- What fabulous news!!!!!!!!

Wow Cyn what fabulous news congrats!! and i love your new profile picture and can i say that your face looks really thin..you look great!

Well, countdown continues 2 days until the get together! and today i am going to be getting a haircut!! Im so excited because i havent had a haircut in over 6 months cause i havent been able to afford it but i want to look really nice for the get together and for xmas especially since ive lost 50 lbs and i am starting to feel pretty again and not just FAT do you guys know what i mean? anyway, my husband and i are having lobster tails tonight ( GFS has them on sale this week) to celebrate my 50 lbs weight loss..his idea isnt that sweet??

Well, as of this morning i am only down .5 lbs but i just got my period yesterday so that is better than being up half a pound right? Well, gotta run i have errands to do i will try to post a pic of my haircut later tonight or tomorrow

talk to you later ladies
Heather

Helloooo ladies...

Zelma and Annie - HUGS so good to see you two. Sorry to hear about your beloved dog Annie. *HUGS* I know it is hard, I've been there myself.

Cyn - Fab news! I love those moments! Hehe...

Pink - Hang in there. I know how you feel about "wanting the weight off," I think we all feel that from time to time. I recently felt that lol. I thought "why can't I just shake it all off!" haha... Hang in there, I know things are hard for you right now. Remember that no matter what happens, nothing is for ever. I firmly believe this... things may seem screwed up for your schooling or possibly messed up, but there is always a way and a door that can open when you least expect it.

Voodoo - *hugs* I hope things are better for you and your family.

Kayleystar - Sounds like you are a busy girl! *hugs*

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I've also been busy, actually working on several project, which is good for me as it is a good busy. Getting back into the swing of things, eating well, and my weight is already started to go down. That and I'm getting off of my monthly. I'm closer to 270 than I originally thought. Sometimes I think I look for the negative things to freak out about, rather than focusing on the positive things. Yes I DO have a lot of negativity, but you know we all do at times. I guess I just need to continue to focus on learning how to cope.

That being said, I AM drawing and sketching again. My cards went out on Tuesday, black with pen and ink illustrations and I used a silver metallic pen to create a sort of snow pattern on the black surface. I like making cards, I think I'll do that more often. I think people like that.

I still have a little bit of holiday shopping to do, but not much. I hope everyone is well and hanging in there. *HUGS*

Good Morning all,

Thanks for all the wonderful thoughts and prayers for my loss. He is very missed already. He was the sunshine in our household right now. Pepper is depressed and that makes me sad for her. Joel is so upset that he didn't go to work today. Hopefully he will have time to greive a bit and hug more on me and pepper to pick up his spirits.

Sorry about no personals today but I am kind of out of it. I am thinking about you all,

Blessings to you all,
Annie

Cyn-I'm jealous, and can't wait to be under 300 lbs.

We did our big trip to the grocery store to stock up on sundries for our upcoming parties. I'm doing a taco bar this Christmas. That should be fun. At least it wasn't as cold today. It got up to -2 today. Himself was outside running around in his t-shirt. I married a polar bear.

I only have 1100 calories so far, but am having a protein shake before bed, so I'll be good to go. I'm trying to get in bed earlier tonight. I've been staying up too late at night, and it ruins my mornings. So I'll force myself to lay down at a decent hour. I figured after a couple of hours shopping, that I'd be tired enough. I have to remind myself that fatigue and hunger are easy to get mixed up.

Cyn: Sorry I missed it yesterday but huge, huge congrats on being under 300! Way to go doll.

Catherine: Sounds like a Christmas dinner my dear hubby would adore. He loves, loves tacos so maybe we will have them here too. I hope you have a great time getting ready for the parties and don't overdo it.

We are a bit better today. Still sad, sad, sad but I'm sure that will ease a bit asd time goes by. Everything reminds us of our sweet little bearbee. Soon the memories will make us smile instead of cry.

I purchased Jillian Michael's 30 day shred and I am considering giving it a go. Even if I can only do a tiny bit each day perhaps that will help. I haven't weighed yet this morning but as of yesterday I have already taken off 2 of those poiunds I gained. Only 10 more to go to get me back to my tracker weight. I did eat a lot of candy yesterday. Icky, icky candy and not much else so I will go see the damages in a bit.

Have a wonderful day and many blessings,
Annie

Wow, cyn, that is so awesome. That really inspired me to keep going! This being my first week of my *new* life, my body is aching from the exercise. But I WILL NOT give up!! I'll be so excited to not only have a ticker, but to update it! Or even just report some weight loss. That'd be nice!

Everyone please wish me luck...I'm going shopping tonight. My goal is to buy fresh and frozen veggies, salads and fresh spinach and a good healthy bread to wean myself off of white bread. Oh, and I'm staying OUT of the candy isle!!

quietlioness: You can do it! Hang tough hon.

Well, I have been just bawling today. I just can't seem to feel happiness at all. I miss my little guy so much. I have never been a mama but I can only imagine it feels like this when one is missing.

Blessings all,
Annie