Anne: I bet she is having a party like our dear Carol. I have so many bags of chips in my pantry right now for company that is coming. I guess we do things when we are not thinking about others. I know their are plenty of good healthy things to eat at my house too. I usually have snack and junk foods at my house I just don't eat them ore rarely eat them.

Catherine: You hit the nail on the head. I hope that we can start feeling better about ourselves with the therapy we are going to. My past isn't nearly as scary and dreadful as the things that happened to you. Congrats on the book. I'm sure that the people buying it are reading it. I won't be surprised if you show up on Oprah someday. Hugs.

Kayley: Woo hoo for the new game. I especially like the DDR thing. I don't have one but I do wnt one. I hope you have a blast.

Rat: Woo hoo to eating better. I am hopefully listening to you that the emotional eating can get better.

Angie: I'm glad that you had a better day today. Hugs.

Cyn: Tomorrow is another day. You will do better on Thursday. Keep on trying and soon you will have a great day.

Well, Joel and I worked out tonight super hard. We added some weight lifting and some cardio. The elliptical kicks my bootie. I did it for a half hour. I enjoy it so much just remembering that I couldn't do it before now. I feel so lucky and blessed. I am hoping that my weight will start to move. I seemed jpretty hungry tonight. Not feeling hungry but rather like I needed something. I couldn't figure it out and then I remembered that I tried to eat dinner, pork chops and coldn't eat them so I skipped dinner.

Well, I think I am caught up now.

Blessings and sleep tight all,
Annie

Hello ladies,
Life is so crazy here this summer. Hubby went to the dr on monday and all the new test came back normal. We are still working on getting his blood thinned out.Its a process! We are suppost to get a call and tell us when his heart cath will take place. We do know that he has some blockage..just unsure how much. He is still having chest pain and has to take nitro every few days. I am literally sleeping with one eye open all the time.
I am trying to eat right and do a good job most of the time. I lost .6last week. I still havent made it to the 100lb mark. Hubby isnt allowed to do any real exercise till after the heart cath. He is able to mow the yard but has to do it in sections.
I am truly scared to death...but I also know how lucky we are to still have him with us after the blood clots in the lung.
WE got the roof on the house and the guys should be back next week to start the painting process and replacing my post on the front porch. I cant wait to have my house finished. I really need to spend some time and do some deep cleaning inside next week.
I feel like I am just in survival mode right now....hugs to all

deb, hang in there girl! I understand survival mode. You still lost weight!!! That is fabulous! Just check with us every now and then to update us on your DH.

Just FYI, my mom was experiencing chest pains after finally taking meds to lower her blood pressure. She was on nitro and went to the ER at least 3x. She is fit as a fiddle at age 76 and was dismayed and very upset she had to take BP meds (she hates hates hates pills!). The chest pains ended up being anxiety induced. Doesn't make them less scary!! I'm just saying that there's a chance everyone is so wound up over this scare DH has had, that some of those pains might be mentally induced. I think you both will relax more when the cath is over. Keep being as vigilant as ever, but keep in mind that the above could be happening.

Not to add any more to your plate, but you both might want to seek out some support group or think about some mediation type yoga.

Hugs to you and DH!!
Luv,
Ratkity

Bazz - Well I'm totally not a city person, so you can imagine my fear and such about visiting a place like London. I also have NEVER been out of the US, so wow culture shock! lol We'll see how it goes when I finally do get there. I want to loose weight before going, just 60 more pounds if I can get myself sorted.

Cyn - The book I'm reading is: Eating Mindfully: How to End Mindless Eating and Enjoy a Balanced Relationship with Food by Susan Albers. So far she is basing her book on Buddha teachings, so I thought that was interesting. So far I'm liking it, but it is hard for me to read. I have to face up to things, so I think this is going to be more of a journey or a start of one. I dunno.

Annie - I think I'll check that book out. I am wanting to tackle this issue I have..you know face my demons so to speak. My past is and was traumatic at times and I know that shaped me into who I am today. The thing is, I'm finding it hard to stand up and move forward completely. It is like I struggle and sometimes I think I'm the only one struggling out there, even though I know deep down that is not true. I mean we all struggle in different ways. I think it is a feeling of being alone or within myself. So I eat, so I took a chance on this book I'm reading and thought "why not start dealing with this, maybe I'm ready"

Anne - I never was a hot dog fan either, but I do really want to try a Puka Dog, from Hawaii. OOOOOOOOO and they have VEGGIE dogs! The thing looks awesome! BOOO I have never been to Hawaii, but if I ever do go I'm getting one of those dogs!

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Lately I've been frustrated. In fact today I wanted to chuck my scale out of my front door. I've struggled with the same seven pounds for months now, but you know I guess when your body goes through changes it does what it does. With the pills and now a new change, slight change with the birth control pills, it is causing me to be sick (not as bad as previous months) and I guess retain water or something. I weighed myself yesterday and it said 286, I cried. Today I weigh myself it says 280, I growl. So, I'm not sure what I weigh! I'm bloated and feeling sickly and retaining water...Booooooo! lol BOOOOOO!

I know that being drugged up has the advantages, you know not dealing with severe and dark depression every month, but apart of me always will think I should have handled it without drugs. I mean I'm 31 years old now and my body is doing things. Like I feel this pull to have children, even though I don't want children right now. When I'm around kids I feel "motherly." I guess my point is that I'm starting to see that our bodies do what they do and you can't just will them not to do those things. Like my skin sagging...i mean I can possibly use the "force" and Jedi things back in place, but that is in my imagination. At the end of the day there is going to be sag and I'm going to get plastic surgery.

Anyhow, I hope everyone is well! *HUGS* I'm trucking along, frustrated with the weight right now, but you know that is how it goes.

Good Morning all,

Debi: I'm so glad that you checked in. I have been praying for your DH and your and of coarse for you. Hugs sweetie and hang in there. How exciting about your house. There are so many things that Joel and I want to do cosmetically to our house and we do need a new roof too. Hopefully we can start doing things little by little.

Jacquie: I hope that the book helps you tons. You are such a nice warm and friendly lady. Hugs to you hon.

Well, I am having a good day so far. Just got up lol. I slept until 9:00 a.m. I am so drained lately. Joel and I worked our booties off in our home gym last night. I'm not a fan of weight lifting but.... I love, love how cut my arms are looking, except for the huge flapping skin underneath of them. lol. My shoulders look amazing. I feel like one of those body builders that stares at himself in the mirror at times. I find myself looking down at my arms or shoulders when I have a tank top on. Joel will catch my doing it and laugh. I am just in awe of the changes in my body sometimes. I still look at the rest of me and don't see much improvement. I get amazed when I do laundry and when I am hanging my jeans and they look so small to me and I wonder how I fit my fat big ole butt into them but I do and they aren't tight. So much so that I consider trying on a pair of size 12's occasionally. My shirts are all 14's or larges and they are all huge on my shoulders. I may have to try on some smaller shirts and blouses and maybe sneak a pair of 12's into the dressing room just to see.

I just wanted to share this with all of you because I know you remember me when I was in a men's 6X and I couldn't quite wear at 30/32 size pants unless they were made out of stretchy material. Please never give up. Know it is hard work and know that you can do it! Know that you allllllllll have helped me continue forward with your encouragement, love and support.

THANK YOU ALL!

Blessings,
Annie

Hello everyone

I havent been here for ages or years lol Dont know why I came to check this site tonight
Anyway, I just have to say some congrats, especially to dogpal, whom I remember most. Dont know why, maybe because you had some rough time back then and now I am amazed with what you've achived!!! WOW!

Keep up the good work everyone!

Bye...

Lavendel: Thank you and if you ever want to stop in and say hi please do it. I hope you are doing well. I remember you too. How are things? Take care if you don't want to check back in. Glad you did though. You are always welcome here.

blessings,
annie

If I never see another hotdog, frozen or otherwise. We sold 800 burgers, 700 hotdogs, 500 footlongs, 200 corndogs, and 200 smokies. 36 sacks of potato wedges. About 20 lawn and leaf bags full of popcorn. It started to rain halfway through the 2nd quarter, so everyone ran under the stands, and figured while we're here, let's eat. So it was like having two halftime rushes. We had our health department inspection since it was the first regular season game.

Also had a supervisor come in and watch for the first part of the night. Found out later it was because she is trying to figure out what we are doing differently. Before I took over running the kitchen, that stand only made $3-4,000 net a game. Now it is making $15-20,000. The key is to have stuff ready when people want to buy it. They don't wait, the lines are shorter, and people go to the short line. Since we get 10%, it's in our interest to sell as much as we can.

Austin and I get there at 2:30 to clean-up, set up and start the steamers and ovens. When the rest of the workers get there between 4 and 5, they don't have to stand around because we have stuff ready to be put on the buns and wrapped up for the warmer ovens. We open at 6, and the game starts at 7. We leave at halftime, and the ones who came late because they work do the clean up at the end of the night.

I love to complain, but we both enjoy it. My feet are sure hurting today though, and I'll be surprised if himself gets out of bed before noon.

Hi Ladies...

I am on my first day of the 3 day weekend! Today I will get my oil changed and then clean.

Hope everyone has a GREAT 4th!!!

I am a Granny again! My daughter delivered a healthy little boy yesterday about 4 p.m., there is a pic on the picture page if you want to see the cutest little baby in my world.

I'm delurking and this time for good. Since I posted last been having more trouble with panic attacks and then I eat when I'm stressed. Too much family drama from my mom. I woke up today and said get a grip women and stop it. I'm not making me a priority I'm bad about that I care for everyone else and not for me. I'm stopping that today as well I have to eat right and excerise no matter what. I've done good so far today could do better but taking one step at a time. Will work out once the children are in bed tonight. Update on things here my husbnad was contacted by a Christian station looking for a station manager in WV. Well long story short WE ARE MOVING TO WV very soon pretty good pay will go up after his first year no more struggling as much if we just get past the first year. They are paying for our move for everything. I hate packing up this will be nice in the moutains. And I will no go off my eating plan on this move for nothing. Anways that is my update will be back to post personals later.

Good Morning all,

Catherine: I hope your tootsies get to feeling better quickly. Congrats on usuing your winning work formula to earn more money for you organization.

Toni: Hugs and huge congrats on your beautiful new baby!

Cyn: Happy 4th to you too.

Keeper: Congrats to DH on his new job. I wish you both best of luck. Please do whatever you can to get your panick attacks under control. I used food for my panick attacks for so many years and I basically ate my way to 510 pounds. I am now in counseling and am taking a medication for them. Occasionally when I have one I want to go to food but I am now better equipt to handle them without food. I can feel exactly what you are saying. Food seemed to be the only thing that soothed me when I had them. Hugs to you and good luck. Glad that you are trying and that you are posting here more often now. Hang in there. I'm here to help if I can.

Joel has the day off for the 4th and he is trying to put in a new kitchen sink for me. It is actually about a year old and my parents gave it to us. When they bought their house it was in there, brand new and my step mom wanted a black one. It is in perfect condition except Joel can't find a nut that goes on the faucet so he is searching for that around at plumbing stores. I am praying that he is able to find one. It will brighten the kitchen up so much. Our old sink is very damaged and has tiny scratches in it so if you pour coffee or anything that may stain into it down the drain, it gets into those cracks and it takes a lot of muscle to clean it out.

Well, I guess that is it for now. I hope everyone has a wonderful 4th of July weekend. Stay safe and have fun.

Blessings,
Annie

Thanks Annie Yes Panic attacks are no fun I was on meds but it made it worst so I winged myself off of them. And now when I do have them it's not as intense or as often. I noticed when I excerise and eat right it helps tons. I working on stop stress eating I'm crocheting when I get stressed out and it's helping.

He is a cutie!!! Congrats Granny!!!!

Hugs,
Ratkity