Hey chicks well my husband blew up at me yesterday..I know it was coming, we've been under alot of stress and he is still in pain, and well i am in my own pain too, though not as bad. But this is one of those times I will look back and say 'god, I'm glad that is over with and we got through it'.

It just sucks that I am feeling kinda overloaded with seasonal depression signs and it just happened at a bad time, with the accident, when I am not suposed to be thinking of myself, just DH. ('you think the world revolves around you' - pretty mean. He apologized later said that he is in such pain that its hard for him to be civil. well I bet he's civil to his boss and coworkers)

I spent the morning in bed, I hate it when I do that on my days off, just couldnt help it.

oh hey, my bad, this is the Hawt Chick thread, not the Depression one

oh this is very kewl - my older son offered me to ride his FZ1, to try it out...he said he meant to this summer but I was always on my bike. I thought that he was too protective of his baby to let his ol' mom try it but it seemed like such a thoughtful thing to offer...i almost started crying there's that damn depression ruling me again.

Maybe I'm jumping the gun on being at the insurance company not telling me yet whatthey're going to give me for my bike, it was just Monday I guess that I mailed a list of the aftermarket items that were on it. But hey what about a phone call or email to say 'we're working on it'.

OH BOY I am the Downer Queen today

Holly, IMO, and I am sure others will agree, it does not matter what thread this is.... we are friends here so you vent away. I am sorry your DH is still in pain..... but I totally understand what you are going through. It is hard to lead a "normal" life when the depression monster is chasing you. Not many people understand if they have not been there, but I do. Just try to keep your head up and remember that you are a strong biker chick and you handle the rain, cold weather, and bugs..... so that monster is NOT going to get you down. Again, IMO one day in bed is not that bad, it is just when it turns into many days. It is not like you are neglecting an infant to lie in bed. Try not to let it get you down. Yell at me on FB if you need to talk! And, if I were in your shoes, I would keep on the insurance companies. I figure what they did..... was stall b/c today would be thier end of month (this is common amoung some companies-- not all-- but some). THey did not pay you-- so that did not reflect on their books. Stay on them or they will keep dragging. I have seen them do it for "months" so they can keep the money in their account drawing interest. Just make sure you keep a log of who you talk to and when. IF necessary look up the insurance laws in your state. Some states have 30 days to pay out-- then they owe YOU interest (if it is a clean case-- which yours sounds like it is). Just watch them.... it is a game.

Tymaboy, I am "sad" for your son, but on the same hand I am glad he is out of that situation. I know it maybe rough now, but maybe this is what it takes to get him way from that girl.

CC, How have you been? Have you had any progress on getting the old bike back?

Colleen, How are you holding up girlee?

MY SON IS HOME! He got "home" last night (he is out running around now. lol). We visited a lot. He let me try a "Twix" bar from overseas..... If our candy tasted like that over here..... we would not have obesity. Even though it is supposed to be the same... it was NASTY!
We had our Thanksgiving today b/c we were not sure what my schedule with dispatching would look like. I AM STUFFED! Beyond comfortable. So, I have decided that the yo yo thing is over for me. I am so hard on my body. I will eat and starve all the time. I am about 10 over goal. So, I am getting back to it.... but taking a different approach of just doing without junk food.

Me and the 2 boys took a motorcycle ride today (brief). I rode my DH bike.... DS1 rode mine, and DS2 rode his. I am glad I don't have DH bike.... CC, I think it is like your DH and it is TOO HONKING BIG FOR ME. I thought I was driving a yacht with the flaring on the front. It was not really heavier, just bulky. I am glad I did not trade for a bigger bike a few weeks ago.
The dispatch job is getting a little harder, but it is okay. I am up for it. I am moving "positions" tomorrow. So, we will see how it goes.

I am going to get busy getting ready for tomorow. Have a good night.

Tammy

Hi everyone

Yay for Tammy's son being home! that is so kewl that the 3 of you went for a m'cycle ride together. Lol @ the 'yacht' - but you handled it!

and I am feeling better, yay for that too. you're right, a day in bed is not that big a deal. I still did the laundry that day and didn't neglect the dog , and was out of bed by the time everyone came home.

I am dangerously slipping back into bad eating habits!! yeah the bad habits associated with the winter job. Like eating crap that I shouldn't! its so hard for me to keep goals in the front of my mind. I don't remember how I did it before. I will just keep on trying, I am glad that even if I'm eating way too much, I did work out for 13 days in a row, since I got back to the different work schedule.

thanks for the idea about checking up on insurance laws for our state too, Tammy, I will do that .

have a great day 8) even though its Monday to everyone else, its my Thursday

Morning everyone.

Holly- glad you are feeling better. Anytime you need to talk we are here to listen.

Tammy- Glad to hear your boy is home. Enjoy all the time you can with him.

Just am update on what is going on here. Last Monday I had a talk with DS. I thought he was doing ok, I knew he was depressed & having a hard time over what had happened but I did not realize how hard of a time he was having till our talk. He had all the key words that a parent does not want to hear during these times, he said that he is not suicidal but as a parent I could not ignore it. He told us that he want he wanted to go to one of those inpatient places. That was just another red flag for me. We were both bawling. My DH had to call my daycare families up to let them know that I was going to be closed on Tuesday. We were going to take DS as he wanted. I did not get any sleep that nite. Tuesday morning I was trying to figure out what our options were. We have a friend that is a councilor at Hillcrest & she told me not to take him that he is not as bad off as the kids that are in there & she did not want to see him get lost in the system. DS has a friend that works in the Middle School, he helped DS alot when DS was in Middle school & their friendship grew from there. He called me Tuesday morning to see how DS was doing & he pretty much said the same thing & told me that he would be over when he was done at school. He took DS out for a bite to eat & to talk. Ds seemed a little better afer but we still needed to get get help for him. I paid for my mom to fly in from NC, I needed her here so I could be strong for DS. I just hope that I am able to help DS as much as my mother has been able to help me. I think we found someone that will be able to help DS threw this. I did not like the 1st person we tried. I told DS that if he thought that this person will not work that he needs to tells us so we can find someone else. I have not felt so helpless & scared since he was a baby (he was a premmy) I really hate not know what to do for him feeling like I am no help to him what so ever.

On Tuesday I emailed the daycare families to let them know I would be closed the rest of the week. The one family is understanding the other one felt the need to let me know how stressed they are cuz I have been unreliable. Pissed me off, I bend over backwards to help them out when needed, work 11 hours days for them, hardly taken off this yr (except for a day here & there for my vacation days) They knew that DS had goten suspended & broke up with his GF. I had to wait a few days before emailing them back to remind them that I am a mother 1st & a provider 2nd & if they needed to look else where for care that was fine there would be no hard feelings. When parents are like that it make me glad that I am looking for another job.

Wow. I've missed out on a lot! Sounds like we are all on an emotional rollercoaster!

I'm doing better. Thanks for all your hugs and thoghts! My mind is busy on party planning for DS and future DDinL's engagement party at our house weekend after next. I have decorated our salad bar with festive tulle and pink ribbon, bought plates, napkins, silverware, cups. I've rolled the silverware, made some decorations for above the aquarium, rehung some pictures, scrubbed the floor. Helped DH with his "list" of things he was going to do this summer that never got done. It's all probably just what I needed to keep my mind busy! Right now though, the house looks like it's trashed! I have pieces and parts of everything EVERYWHERE!

Tymaboy, Sounds like you are doing what is best for everyone. Tough times! A mom is never "done" being a MOM! Even when the kids are grown up, they still need Mom. Glad you took a few days from the daycare. Doesn't mean you are unreliable--means you need to take care of business. Parents need to realize that they need a back up plan, and that you have their kids best intrest in mind too, if you can't do 100% at daycare you take the time off that you need. Good for you! IBM and John Deere are both sounding pretty good!

Tammy, hope you get time to enjoy DS being home for a while! Bet you are happy to have him home!

Holly, sorry to hear that your DH is still in pain. We all probably take our anger out at those we love when we aren't up to par. Good of you to realize that. Hope you get the bike deal worked out soon. You sound like you have about as much patience as I do... Hang in there at the "Icky place"!

Reda, What's new with you? Racing is over? Bandanas must be keeping you busy!

Foggy day here in Wisconsin. Take care.

tymaboy - oh my gosh, how scary and how upset you must have been with that discussion!!! a parent's nightmare. So glad that your son is willing to work with someone..and yes, you don't have to go with the first person you meet. Best wishes !!!!!

HI Colleen you are BUSY preparing for that party!! i'm sure your place will look fabulous once you are all done. Probably a good thing for you to be so busy now? keeping yourself extra-occupied. I fell into an extra deep depression after my dad died, I'm sure it's a father/daughter thing. thanks for the sympathy with DH, I can even see and hear how he is different with others; much more cheerful; and then with me, its how much he hurts, etc. Well I guess that's the way it is.

Hey Tammy and Reda

Hi Girls- Hope everyones Halloween was good

We had a great time out in Deadwood, lost money at the tables but it was great- DH and I dressed up as Hippies it was great noone recognized us at all- just to get DH to dress up was great and he wore a wig (long hair even)

Well been super busy with work and getting my own business stuff made and ready for Holiday Fairs have 2 this weekend and 1 next weekend then off for 2 weeks then have like 3 more but it is all good because I like doing that kind of stuff and making the headbands are really fun as well

Well just got done bowling I didn't do bad at all even bowled a 176 with an average of 118 also bowled 127 and 129

Well diet and exercise have been put on back burner but Cancun is less than 3 months away so I have to get my butt back in gear and real soon to

Well have a great rest of the week

We had an uneventful Halloween. Only a handfull of trick-or-treaters. I gave them all a can of rootbeer. I can't imagine that I would ever get my DH to dress up! He did get a PACKERS tie for the engagement party, because all of the bride-to-be family are BEARS fans! That will be fun! The other family used to make my DS wear a Bears jersey to watch the games with them! We should get a few extra Packer themed items huh? Maybe as door prizes for the brides dad! Ha! I might just do that!

I did ride the 1600 Nomad home from the shop where we had it for sale on consignment this summer. I had never ridden it before. It was fine. Actually easier to ride than the Harley I think. DH was surprised when we went to get it and I climbed on, and made him drive the truck home!

I thought my weight was doing pretty good. Not going down really, but bouncing around within 5 pounds. Turns out that my scale was out of kilter. I noticed when I was cleaning the bathroom floor that one of the little pads for the scale bottom was off. When I put it back on I did not like the results! AT ALL! Makes me want to go pull the pad back off! Maybe for our party I'll do that. Everyone that uses the restroom, and weighs themself will be so happy and cheerful--thinking they lost 10 pounds! They are bound to eat and drink more!

On my girls I have missed this whole last page for some reason last night when I got on it only brought me to page 28- noticed it tonight

Holly so sorry Joe is still hurting and in pain- and yes sad to say they do always take it out on us instead of others sorry the depression has settled in but you will fight it and win that battle

Tammy so glad you got to spend this time with your boys and go riding at that- yes DH bike is bulky not heavy just seems bulky - Oh ya I didn't get my old bike back because I didn't make it online before it ended darn it

tymaboy so sorry you are going through all this with your son but so happy to hear that you are being an involved mother and yes family before work
hope the person you found for your son to talk to works out and he gets the help that he is needing

Colleen you are very busy and that is great keep your mind busy as well- engagement party in less than 2 weeks so when is the wedding?

Well girls I better get off computer and work on some bandanas tonight as well but I will still watch Survivor while working

Oh is anyone watching Sons this year? Getting really good-

Hi Chicks,

Reda sounds like you had a great Halloween you must have had great costumes that no one recognized you! I like to hear about how much you have to do and how jazzed you are about it...maybe that is what I need, to find a project.

Colleen, you ALWAYS get me laughing about something...the bathroom scale..making your guests happy so they eat and drink more

Hi Tammy

and how are you Tymaboy and how are things going with son?

I am having a blah time here, hard for me to look forward to the next day, very blah. I am sitting here now with my Happy Light (for S.A.D.) and hoping that will help, I set it up here so hopefully I will remember to use it each day.

DH and I went to neurologist on Wed., had another X ray, things seem 'as normal as they can be'. However he is still in so much pain..have I told you that he said, he hurts so much it is hard to be civil to me. Well heck I'm sure he's at least halfway civil to his co-workers, and to our sons, isn't it nice to feel comfortable enough around your spouse to be short and kinda rude to them

well I'll stop complaining and work out now, I'll put extra oomph in my punching part! lol

Good morning, I feel better today; not so despondent. Maybe because I blew off some steam at the ins. co. I STILL havent' heard about a settlement figure? so I called yesterday and morning and get this - a lady says 'oh mr graves has been trying to reach you for a week'

I LAUGHED.

I said, oh really? when I have voice mail, and email, and HE hasn't returned my call or email from 10/25??? I was SO pissed. She transferred me in a hurry to his number and of course he wasn't there...I left a testy message.

He sent an email last evening that actually has some info in it, for once. He also needed a list of the aftermarkets that the dealer had installed, prior to purchase. Well a lady called on 10/10 and said that SHE would contact the dealer. So what the f have they been doing ??

sorry didn't mean to get mad again

Anyway I HOPE maybe the time change will help me a little?? because I won't like it being dark at 5 pm but I do need it to be lighter a little earlier in the morning than it has been.

have a good day

Hi girls -

Holly so Joe is still not feeling the greatest and in pain, so what is still hurting on him? Did you ask the doctor how long before this body part heals so you maybe have something to look forward to GLAD to hear that the neuro said things are as good as they can be BUT what really is meant by that? Soooo glad to hear that you may finally be getting somewhere on the bike though but ya what the check have they been doing??? Really it should have been settled by now

Hi Tymaboy, Tammy and Colleen

Oh ya craft fairs have been good nice to make extra money and just to get to talk to people about riding and bikes and wearing all the bling.....
Have a Great Sunday

Tymaboy, I am so sorry you are having to go through this with your son. I wish I had some good advise, but I don't.... so I will throw in a few extra and prayers.

Colleen, LOL at the scale. My battery broke on mine..... or that is what I am telling myself. It is probably disappointed in my weight to. I am about 10-15 over goal. I am still exercising but not like I should. So, I am going to start on Monday (the famous last words of every dieter) cleaning my diet back up again.

CC, I am glad you are making some extra $ and getting to talk to a lot of bikers.

Holly, I am so sorry your DH is taking things out on you. I kinda got a lesson from your posting though. I have been very spippy to my DH the past few days. I "think" it is b/c DS is going back on Wednesday and it just makes me antsy.... if that makes any sense. BUT, b/c of your post I am going to try my hardest not to be so snippy..... cause he does not deserve it... just like you don't. I am sending many your way for the happy light to work. Do you find that if you eat a lot of carbs or sugar that the depression monster sneaks up on you? It seems to me that if I start eating simple carbs (and a lot of them) then I stay cranky and antsy all day.... not to mention eating everything in site. Maybe it is in my head, but that is part of the reason for me getting my diet back in line.

I am going to be able to take DS to the airport on Wednesday. My new boss is letting me off and letting me make up the time on Saturday. I am very thankful for that!

Well gals, I have to get busy..... sitting around is not helping me getting the laundry and all that done. Good gabbing with you.

Tammy

Holly i sure hope your dh starts feel ing better soon. I think you are taking it Mach better then would. I would have blew up up at him way before now & made his life even worse. You know that saying if I ainte happy no body is. When i ainte happy both the boys no it. To bad they would learn to make me happy at those moments, usually it's something little or easy ( cook dinner, do laundry,help clean house)

Tammy hugs to you. I think of ds leaving for the marines when he graduates in 2012. Just the thought of it saddens me. Even when he went to visit my folks for the summer when he was younger made me cry for the 1st few days.

I think ds is doing better. He has had a couple of therapy sessions. A few weeks ago I was loosing weight now that things seem to be going better I cannot stop eating & have gained weight. I think I gained more back then lost. I'm afraid to hop on the scale to find out.

tymaboy, I'm hoping so much that your ds is feeling better and hey some weight fluctuations are probably 'par for the course' on something as traumatic as what you have been through, as a mom.

Reda - yay that the craft fairs are doing good, and isn't it always so great to chat with other bikers The doctors that DH saw, said, 'you should have been given a referrel for Physical Therapy right after your accident' - we didn't know that.

Tammy, oh it is so hard for spouses to 'take it out' on each other isn't it. I guess he is on his 'business' behavior during day but once he gets home he can relax and not pretend he is hurting. I guess. I am glad you can get the time off to take ds to airport, though that is sad in itself. I bet he had a great time home.

Hi Colleen

well I am using my Happy Light each day. I wish I could stay away from the simple carbs...you know they are my downfall

We emailed a list of the bike extras that were dealer-installed this morning...along with a slight snippy comment, that we were worried, when the original adjustor was standing next to my bike and had to admit she didn't know what model it was . That's great for confidence in your insurance company isn't it

well I should pick an exercise tape and do it. BTW there is some sn*w on the ground here this morning - BLEH.