yeah I have a blood test scheduled for this weekend. I was hoping it's lack of iron or essential vitamins, so I starting taking dietary supplements! fingers crossd, hopefully everything is OK!

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it's been 44 days since my last period. I'm tired and hate everything. WHERE IS IT?!!?! I'm NOT preggo. DA FUQ?!?!

also i'm trying to finish college close to GOAL and I fear it will just not happen. tired. night night

It's been a little over a month and already my weight loss has stalled. I lost 6 lbs in the previous week, but this week I've just gone between 213 and 214 and it's so frustrating! I don't know what I'm doing wrong

I've had quite enough of being an emotional wreck, thank you very much.

I don't know if I have a cold or if my body is fatigued from my increased exercise, but it's really starting to bug me. For a week now, my body has been giving me flu-like symptoms (running nose, scratchy throat and tiredness) and it doesn't seem to be getting better or worse. I mean, I only increased my distance by 2kms and I'm still running 2-3 times a week, two days apart.

I don't know what I'm supposed to do! I try improving myself and this happens. It's as if life is telling me to keep being the same person and not move on. Well, I have news for you life... I'm going to keep running and ignore these flu symptoms. I did it yesterday and although I'm sore as anything today, I'm going to do it again tomorrow.

Sigh.

It is dreary, rainy, misty here and there threatening some snow mixed in for tonight.
I'm not ready for the cold yet

People have no common common courtesy anymore!!! Just sayin...

when i start a new workout routine, or increase the old routine, i ALWAYS ALWAYS get sick....i always thought that i was taxing my body more and made it susceptible to the next germ floating around....but as long as i'm not super sick (and i never get that sick from it) i just keep up the new workout and then i get better and don't get sick again....i just assumed a workout change was taxing my immune system briefly or something

I have to spend the next three days eating sugar (which I normally avoid) so I can take another 3 hour glucose test.

Ella,

Good luck with your test.



I feel sad and frustrated, too much drama in my life.

Just found out I have a D- in College Anatomy/Physiology II. I run a 3.8 gpa with excellent science background and solid math skill, so this was both annoying as well as a violent shock for me. Now I'm going to have to work 10x as hard to pull this grade up that should have never gotten there to begin with. The teacher is ridiculous too, on multiple choice questions. for example...because picking the correct answer from A,B,C,D,E,or F would be too easy, lets make all the answers correct and ave students figure out which one is the best answer...impossible. KMN.

I feel dissatisfied with my life but can't seem to change it (yet). I don't make enough money, my laptop could stand to be replaced, I need decent clothes that fit, my car is always potentially on the verge of needing a mechanic, etc. I am always looking forward to Friday so that I miss out on Monday through Thursday - I am convinced this is how life passes us by - and then the weekend goes by so fast I miss that, too. I haven't found something that fulfills me.

I think I'm regaining, I'm scared.

I just had one of the worst emotional times on this weight loss journey. I found out yesterday that my scale was weighing me 14 LBS TO LOW! compared to 2 YES 2 doctors scales that I was weighed on (as I could not believe the 1st one). I am so deflated.. my ego is shot, my head and my little voice (ego) is saying WTF .... just eat what you want ... does it really matter anyway.. look... even a scale can beat you up... I am so devastated as I was closer to 200 than 300 for the 1st time in 5 years .and WHAM back up over 250.. My journey to my goal has now been extended longer and I have less time of life yet to get to that journey's end..

The only thing that I can be proud of..... I was given a LB bag of peanut butter M & M's and just put them away and did NOT open them. I also walked by all the Halloween candy in Walmart as I walked 1.25 miles with a new scale in my hand. I ate only ON PLAN food today, when I could have gotten a pizza, eaten ice cream... gotten Wendy's for lunch (where the co-workers brought food back from)... So I am proud of myself for that.. I conquered (Today at least) that little voice of WTF.. I was strong over giving up for just 1 more day..... I hug myself as noone I know in Real Life understands any of this... only you all do!