
Thanks ladies...as I inch in closer to goal (looking like October-ish) I get more and more nervous about NOT doing this with a coach. Phasing off is going to be tough. Thank God for 3FC - I would have never been able to figure IP out otherwise -
Lisa,
Amanda,
Liana - the February starters group

This is absolutely possible with the alternates...we will see about 'sustainable' but I am going into it with the mindset like I had when I quit smoking (2001)...I've invested too much of myself into losing the weight to turn back. That doesn't mean that life couldn't interfere but I believe going through this process has given me a new appreciation for what I need to do going forward to maintain. Again, phasing off properly will be the biggest hurdle.
I really need to vent - and not about weight or IP...
So I mentioned my interview went well (or so I believe). I am creating a lot of anxiety for myself right now "waiting for the call"
I feel like every day that passes is another step away from this job. It's not my dream job but anything is better than the 10 - 14 hour (unappreciated) days I am putting in at my current job. Why am I putting in 10 - 14 hours...well, one of our team members had twins (so now has 3 kids) and can't afford daycare, so is being allowed to work from home approx 50% of the time now - which has increased my workload picking up the slack for what she is unable to pick up and do from home (mail, inquires, etc...)
The other team member is just unmotivated - they go through fits and spurts...for a while, they seemed to pick it up...and now the summer doldrums have hit during one of the most stressful and busy times I've ever faced in the 8 years I've been here. Won't ask for help...didn't say they were behind (we have a hard deadline to get all of this work done by FRIDAY!) - I finally had to stop them and say 'hey, can you get this done on your own? What do you need?'...as opposed to them coming to me - I get not wanting to seem 'helpless' or like they can't get the job done - but I get it. I am under the same pressures they are. It is so frustrating!
Then there is the flip side to the job I interviewed for which is if I am offered the position, I am leaving my current job in a horrible position.
Can you say GUILT
But, I have to be offered the job first...and again, as I said, every day the phone doesn't ring seems like a step away from that even being a possibility.
I think bottom line is I am TIRED & BURNT & need some time away from work, period.