Ok my denial is still happening..trying to wake up and smell the weight gain to come!!!

Found out some bad news today...the guy I was seeing told me he has a baby on the way with another woman due next year..total bombshell hit today..
so I'm not feeling very motivated to continue..seriously emotional....feeling very inadequate and utterly faulted...it hurts inside..

I'm fighting my emotional eating self..I have nothing to cope with..I don't drink, or smoke, or toke..just eat.. and I can't do that either...
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Oh, slimpicity, I am so sorry.

oh slim Im soo sorry!

Meliz - haha yea that's when its the problem. 1/2 cup is 1 serving you go girl!!

SLIM: So sorry you had to get bad news like that. Try not to let your emotions get the best of you with eating. I always turn to food as well.

Down .2 today. At least it is down and not up.

Up to 254 this morning!

I've been bouncing up and down (again) these last few days. (I'm thinking I just went through this a few weeks so what's up?!?!) LOL! I'm good though. Still working my plan and working it hard.

I did start the new Body Fit Challenge at my gym on Monday; night two is tonight. I'm VERY sore and TOM is due so I know I'm most likely just retaining water. It's not sodium and it isn't my calories so I'm just going with it...for now.

Lindy -- We're happy to be here for you and visa versa as well. Here's to a better week! WI on Day 2 of this week looked much better! Nice job!

MeliZ -- Not sure about switching from soda to water. But I do know that measurements, and pictures are another great way to measure our progress.

Sugar -- I personally prefer the daily weighing to weekly weighing. I hate for a week to go by, have big expectations, and then be surprised. With daily weighing, I can see everyday what's going on so while I might still be surprised, it's usually less shocking that after a whole week goes by. I don't know if that makes sense or not. Just my two cents...

Slim -- I am SO sorry about that awful news. What a freaking shocker! I'm so sorry you're hurting. I know, that you KNOW, you are not inadequate or faulted and are in NO WAY responsible for this. Please try to believe that right now. Believe how great you are and how much you are worth this amazing journey you've begun. I am so sorry Slim!

Thanks ALL for all the caring replies, it's helping me put my mind and heart in the right place..

I have come to my senses and started to track yesterday..and managed to stay within my points for the day. Having this control helped my emotional eating tendencies..I feel better for sure.. I really want to to conquer this emotional FAT suit that I've been wearing for the last decade..

My insecurities and issues are basically on my body as overgrown fat cells..as I gain control of my emotional self..then weight-loss is the next result..

This event in my life with regards to the man I (WAS) seeing..is just another test for me to overcome ..and most likely I will have more tests along the way down to goal..I'm proud of myself for taking the step to control my eating and to deal with life and feel what I need to feel, instead of numbing myself in my drug of choice (food, food and more food!)

Again thanks ladies for your encouragements and kind words, they help me so much..love this forum.. Continue on to the 240's we can do this!!

Congrats on getting this far! 259 lb Hug from me to all of you!
hopefully I will weigh less at my friday weigh in.. will post the results later this week..
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@Slim: I am sorry about the boy ( I hesitate to call him a man because what man would do that to a woman?!) but you will get past this. I completely understand the insecurities and emotional self issues and I offer a 252 lb hug in return!

@Jami: Stay on plan and you will be rewarded! And I think I like your thoughts about daily weighing! It makes a lot of sense to me because when I was doing it weekly I would get really disappointed at the end when I would weight in. but I might limit myself to 3 times a week.

I posted this on another thread but I wanted to get it here as well: I have a question: I am having issues getting my butt to the gym and I don't understand why. I like going to the gym and being there and feeling good about what I am doing. Heck, I even look forward to it yet I am still trying to convince myself to NOT go. Like "I'm so tired, I don't wanna, etc etc etc" all day long. Most of the time it doesn't win out but...does anyone else have this issue? Where you like going and being there but spend all day trying to "trick" youself to NOT go?

And up yet again to 255.3. Perfectly OP but alas, the losses on the scale evade me. S'okay though. I'll catch those lil' buggers soon and toss 'em!

Slim -- Great job! I often feel too that getting control over one part of my life does tend to make me feel better if another part feels so out of my control. Good for you for finding such a healthy way to refocus on YOU.

Sugar -- Thanks and I KNOW in my head that you're right. There's a lot going on right now and history tells me that my body reacts in extremes. I lose weight rapidly when things click and I put it on just as fast when things go funky. I've never been one of those that losses/gains at a consistent and/or steady pace. So, I'll keep plugging away knowing that I am doing GREAT and am rewarded daily by each healthy choice I make.

As for the gym, I found to that having 8/9 hours to convince myself of all the justifyable reasons I have to skip the gym was simply too much to overcome. Although I too don't "hate" my gym time and ALWAYS feel better afterwards, I STILL tried to get out of it. So - I go every morning religiously now. I've been doing it long enough at this point that it's never even an option for me to skip though sometimes I ask myself, "Can I be a little late work today?" So I can steal a few more minutes. In the beginning, every morning would be a struggle to get up while my sleepy mind was saying "No! Stay in bed! You're tired. You need your sleep." But not anymore. I guess that's an NSV huh? My habits are officially changed!

Just a quick post... Most of that water weight is gone and I'm at 252.4

up .4 to 256.2. Hopefully gone tomorrow.

Sorry I have been MIA lately. Nothing has changed on the scale. I need to get myself into a routine. I know it's not what I am eating, my calories stay pretty low, but it seems like I am just maintaining weight so far. So I need to up my exercises, ugh! So I think four days a week strength train for like an hour at least, then the other three days I will do one hour of cardio. Let's see if that gets the stupid numbers freaking moving! Getting SO ****ING FUSTRATED!! ....sorry

I logged in today for the first time in over a year. I was at where I left off last year.. Not sure how I feel about that. Trying not to get down on myself that I lost what could have been alot of progress. I have been working hard for a week now. I log my food on livestrong. I alternate doing pilates/ dance/ yoga videos from netflix, and wii fit plus strength training(which is the only one my 10 yr old will join me on) I went down form 263 to 255 since 8/12 so I am very happy about that! So I am back on this journey, glad to have everyone here!

I'm glad to hear your taking care of yourself SLIM, no need throwing it all away on some sorry excuse of a man. I think this is the best time now to focus on yourself and to continue to work hard on your goal.

shiskeberry -- Yay for losing that water weight. I hope I copy you soon!

erin -- Welcome back from your brief hiatus. Changing up your routine should definitely do the trick!

ariana -- Welcome back!!!

Welcome back to all our returnees.

254.4 today. I am liking that number today!