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My center is mailing me more HNS as I'm not certain how long we will be here. I need to leave asap though because this is not a good environment for me. I have completely fallen off the wagon and am not sure how to get back on. I have given into the temptations and now I think I am craving them again.
HELP, I'VE FALLEN AND I CAN'T GET UP. I NEED HELP!
Originally Posted by struggling Nicole
I haven't been on the site in a while and should have been checking in more often. We are still in the hospital waiting for a seizure and some answers. I am trying to stay on plan but I have fallen back into my old ways. I have started rewarding myself for getting through certain things. It was a hard day so I am going to eat this peanut butter egg, or two, or three. It was a REALLY BAD day. I even started hiding them from my husband. I ate two today when he left the room. 
My center is mailing me more HNS as I'm not certain how long we will be here. I need to leave asap though because this is not a good environment for me. I have completely fallen off the wagon and am not sure how to get back on. I have given into the temptations and now I think I am craving them again.

HELP, I'VE FALLEN AND I CAN'T GET UP. I NEED HELP!



One thing that helped me is the revelation that the thing I was doing to relieve stress was actually CAUSING stress. Sometimes we munch as kind of a "release valve" for the steam that's building up inside. A piece of candy lets off a little steam. It works for a while, but it actually has the opposite long term effect of causing more stress, guilt, anger, body hatred, feelings of failure, depression....Eating off plan ADDS to stress, even if it feels good in the moment. I liken it to a hit of crack or alcohol for a crack addict. At the moment, nothing in the world seems more important or that it will work. Unfortunately, it harms us. Maybe there are other ways you can "let off steam" when the pressure builds? Getting out of the room or hospital for even 10 minutes, going out into the sunshine, giving someone a hug...all positive ways that will release that stress without causing more stress in the long run.


