Amanda think positive thoughts o.k. Your gain was not a big one last week so don't beat yourself up anymore o.k. you realized that you haven't exercised as much as you normally do and you have made changes to that. I want you to look at it this way- look at how much you have lost- look at the positive not the negative.

I'll give you all a hint because I don't want curiousity to kill the cat so here it is- read the previous posts I have written and I believe some words are mentioned.

O.K. like I want to lose weight and I found out that the food from Sonic does not contain any calories....just kidding sounded good though. My girlfriend from work and I ate there today outside. The weather was nice. I am trying to eat all the crappy food to get it out of my system so when I buckle down I can look at it and say "NO THANKS THAT'S CACA!"

I have stepped on the scale and have gained about 1 1/2 lbs since I fell off the wagon. nothing to be proud of but I am glad that I didn't gain all of it back....nothing that a nice piece of gum won't help...think about it.....TMI right, wanted you all to laugh.

Well I'll holla at you later ladies.

So far today is going well.. I made it to exercise.. I've stayed regular with my routine, even with my outta control eating!!! Accepting the fact that exercise needs to be a part of my life forever really helps..

I'm an all or nothing kinda girl, when I'm good, I'm a saint, when I'm bad, there's no lookin' back... And I've been a bad bad girl for 2 weeks now and it's definately startin' to show on my booty!!! I'm to nervous to weigh myself, so I'll wait a few days... I really hope my food demon has gone into hybernation and I'm now back on the right path :O) I'm disappointed 'cuz I know that I'm stronger than this, I know how to make healthy choices and I can control my food demon..
Positive or negative, and I don't like attention at all. I prefer being the "invisible chick" :O) And lately, with the comments like "you look much better now" made me wonder, was I so fat before?? It made me feel so ashamed.. And when did it become o.k to ask someone how much they weigh now or weighed in the past??
Yes :O) there's a reason for my ranting.. I came to a realization today, that me, myself, and I alone, have been sabotaging my weightloss, out of fear.. Fear of being judged, but mostly, fear of being noticed!! Sounds completely insane I know :O) But, I went back over my weightloss journals and noticed this trend.. I do this to myself everytime I lose a bit of weight, I get self conscious and sabotage my weightloss.. Am I completely insane?? Does anybody else go through these emotions?? Hep me to feel somewhat normal again please.. Crystal

Cherry - You've lost 73lbs - give me a break! You're almost there, how can you start doubting yourself now? You're almost to your goal, look fabulous and have every reason to be happy. You should move beyond wanting to feel "somewhat normal" again and start enjoying the new you with confidence in your inner beauty, the strength you've given others to trudge on, and the wonderful feeling everytime you look in the mirror at the beautiful new you.
Leave the self-pity/loathing to those of us that can't seem to get started or are foolish enough to still think gorging on junk food one day will make us not want it any longer. Your almost there sister -pick your chin up and keep going!!!!

Thank U GoofysRevenge :O) Unfortunately, I don't feel any thinner!!! I feel fatter now than before I lost any weight?!?! And that it's taken me more than 3 years! to lose, is frustrating.. But now I know what I need to do to keep myself on the right path; not get all emotional when I get some constructive critisicm or recieve a nice compliment from people who care about me!!! I will be stronger in my weakest moments....

I am thankful for what I've lost, I don't mean to sound as though it's not important or doesn't matter.. I just enjoy beating myself up :O) Nobody can judge me harder than I can judge myself,, I'm my own worst enemy!!!
Thanx for understanding me, and the support you've given me...
I suppose I've scared the other sistas' away with my insane-like ranting?!?!?! Ooops :O)
Good health and great energy.. Crystal :O)

I wish I was able to express myself so well... I never seem able to have the right words at the right moment or in the right sequence...
Your words ring very true for me; weightloss is not only a physical changing aspect but a life changing experience... I never would've believed that losing weight would affect me emotionally, how suddenly, I'm more self-conscious than before... I always assumed I'd lose weight and be free from most of my insecurities.. It's not so simple!!
I'm relieved to know, even though my words don't always come out right, I'm still understood and never judged by the sisterhood... Thankyou for understanding and supporting me when I really needed it.. I'm feeling alot better today and I'm gonna go out for lunch with a friend.. I promise I'm not gonna go way overboard but I'm gonna have a little me-time today.. I'll be thinking of all my sistas' today,, just knowing how well ya'll will be doin' with your eating right and exercising will keep me in check :O) Later ladies..Crystal

Crystal your words hit home too. We all seem to go through a lot of the same things with this process. All we can do is take it day for day and try to stay focus no matter how hard it may be. For me I am trying to get myself up and running mentally so I can take on this demon of mine starting on Monday. Sure I could easily start tomorrow but I want to have all of my groceries that I am going to need, and honestly I want to wait and make sure my mind is focused. Granted this is one of my many tries but at least I am trying and not giving up. I hate losing site of things with this journey but I am only HUMAN...we all are! We all make mistakes, but its a learning experience. You are doing great Crystal, don't give up because we won't let you.

Amanda- Good job on the weightloss journey- Congratulations on not gaining anything- that is the best feeling. Sure there was no lose but you didn't go backwards either.

Well let me go back to work right now. I'll write back later. Only 9 days left until we kick off our challenge. I am getting excited about it because I am going to push myself for me and my sistas!!!!

Crystal, I know I have those times of feeling so low,,,how could I have done this to myself? I had the perfect body once apon a time,,,and now I don't. So I am taking the steps to go towards the perfect body,,,not that I can ever been there again and not sure Id want to. But Im going towards a more healthier lifestyle. That is more important to me.

Amanda Mae,,,you got to remember that with you dropping a size,,you a probably increasing your muscle.

Good Morning Regina...and how are you this fine day?

Cassy Where are you!???

Hey Angie hope your day is going good today. I just home about 30 minutes ago and I am suffering from a serious headache to the extreme. I am getting ready to lay down and take it easy.

My husband is taking his contractor's exam today (he wants to build homes) he has passed one and he is in the middle of taking his second one...keep your fingers crossed. Well I hope everyone is enjoying their weekend. I am so excited I am off until Wednesday. Can I get a whoo-hoo. Well let me go and take a chill pill I'll write back tomorrow.

Enjoy ladies.

Regina,
He will pass. As for you, you need to lay down and take a chill pill for sure.

Its Sunday evening and please someone come over and help me walk up the stairs to bed. We spent all day yesterday on our hands and knees laying hardwood in a small room but still,,,girls my size don't do well on their knees...lol This after noon we started again after racing around getting more supplies,,,we did the trim,,,again on our knees...
I washed the floor,,,then we moved all the furniture in,,,heavy funiture. Im exhausted.
But Im down 2 lbs! (I weighed before the hardfloor stuff) I did eat some junk though...some mexican,,,loaded with lots of cheese and stuff ...bad

Angie I know what you mean about the knees. I bet your floors look all pretty with the wood and all. I know when I am on my knees doing work or bending down a lot, all I seem to hear are little scream coming from both knees telling me to stop. They hurt like a mother afterwards. You need to relax your body today if you can, if that is workable in your schedule, if not put some icy hot on them.

I just wanted to say good morning to you all. Hope you all had a wonderfuld weekend. We did over here. I took my daughter to the movies, we went and saw Take the Lead. A cute movie, there was one part in it that I was all like man I wish I could do that. They were doing the Tango but she looked really nice in her outfit and her moves were unbelievable. To the extreme sexy, something I hope to accomplish in time.

Anyway hope you all have a nice day. I'll write back tomorrow when I get home as we are heading out the door for a mini vacation.

Hi everyone :O) Did y'all have an awsome weekend?? I did horribly,horribly,horribly...I admit it... I got weighed at the gym Thursday and I'm up 6 pounds since May 3rd!! Since then, instead of giving me a wake up call, it got me goin' with the bingeing... I'm tryin' again today.. Always with Mondays huh, what's up with that :O) Day one for me AGAIN!!
I've revised my longterm goal,, I don't care if I can ever fit into a size 12, I just don't want to fit into a size 24 again :O) So longterm goal is now; good health!!
It's true about losing weight being the easy part!! Maintaining is sooo much harder It should be the easiest part, 'cuz you've got more energy and you feel better about yourself.. I guess for me though it's just so easy to fall back into those old habits..And before ya know it you put some pounds on... So I've gained myself 6 pounds in less than 3 weeks, I knew I should stop eating all that junk food, but I chose to ignore my commonsense!!
Let us all be strong and have the courage to keep trying :O) I wish good health to everyone today...