Yesterday (Monday) I ate an ungodly amount of calories. I'm not even going to try to account for it! Let's just say it was a bazillion.

I'm going through some major life decisions right now, so that's why I'm having days like that occasionally. I'm not worried about it, because losing weight and getting to my goal range of 125-129 is not my priority right now. I just want to not gain. I lost about 35 lbs in 2011, and I don't want to gain it back.

Today is going much better. Tuesdays are not as stressful as Mondays. It's my teaching day, and I love teaching. (Teaching music to adults is the best job in the world, because they all love music and want to learn!)

I'll post today's good diet details tomorrow.

Lets just say I cant count as high as my calories were yesterday!!
today is a new day!!

Yesterday (Tuesday) I burned more calories than I ate, so I count it as a good day.

Breakfast: NS cereal, orange, egg: 322
1st lunch: spinach & tomatoes with Walden Farms dressing, Zone Perfect bar: 300
2nd lunch: tuna cup, fat free coleslaw, NS lunch bar: 320
snack: popcorn, pear: 542
dinner: NS lunch item, spinach, Babybel light cheese: 257
snack: NS dessert bar, NS cereal: 345

Grand total: 2068

Calories burned: 2214
Steps: 8754 (3.6 miles)

Calorie deficit: 146

I am without energy today. And despite a good b-fast I'm hungry right now . . . like 'I want to mindlessly eat crap' hungry. Talk me out of it!!!

b: scrambled eggs (1 whole egg, 2 whites), 1oz american cheese, sauteed mushrooms/garlic, 1/2 banana w/smear of p. butter - 400
s: 3 maryjanes <--- damn it, why did I buy them??? - 100
l: w.w. pasta primavera w/added chicken - 400
s: pretzels - 200
d: london broil and baked sweet spud - 400

Total: 1500

Yesterday my well intentioned hubby sent pizza to me at work for Valentine's Day, THEN he brought home some chocolate covered strawberries. I actually did pretty well. The pizza was thin crust and I didn't eat a whole bunch of it. I made some of my coworkers eat with me so I wouldn't be too tempted because I love pizza so much. I also ate a couple of the chocolate covered strawberries and then got my hubby to finish them off. I actually managed to not go over my calorie goal AND I don't have any leftover pizza or chocolate strawberries to tempt me today while I'm at home.

2/14/12

Breakfast: Toast with margarine=260
Lunch: Pizza with cinnamon dessert sticks=625
Snack: Light string cheese=60
Supper: Pizza=345
Snack: Chocolate covered strawberries=120
Total=1410

Exercise: Turbo Jam 20 min workout

2/15/12

Breakfast: 1 cup Kellogg's Crunchy Caramel Nut cereal w/ 1/2 cup skim milk=204
Lunch: Instant mashed potatoes with margarine and bread, apple=446
Snack: Light string cheese=60
Supper: Salad w/ cheese and light ranch dressing, cottage cheese=411
Snack: Hungry Girl flatout bread toasted w/ margarine and cinnamon sugar=165
Total=1286

Today I've been off from work and just having a hungry day. Thankfully I don't have any junk food in the house or I'm sure it would have been a great opportunity to binge.

b: Kashi Go Lean Crunch berries cereal, 2% milk, coffee - 375
s: baby bell cheese wheel - 70
l: 1 homemade beef and veggie wrap - 350
d: pasta, chicken, carrots - 450
s: 2 handfuls of pretzel m&ms - 250

Total: 1500

Ugh, TOM. No wonder I've been munchy for sweet and salty.

Arghhh. I seem to be having a problem with Mondays and Wednesdays. Those are the days I have classes, and I know that my stress is due to having some major life decisions to make in regard to my academic work, so I have a trigger there. It would help if I would be more prepared on those days with some foods that appeal to me. (Last night I ate a bazillion calories again. I will spare you the details.)

I'm going to go to the grocery store today, and pick up some of my favorite vegetables, and some ingredients for a new recipe, to help me feel good about healthy eating again. I should be back on track for the next few days, and I'm going to plan ahead for next Monday and Wednesday so this doesn't keep happening!

so far today:

breakfast: green tea, oatmeal (170)
snack: granola bar (70), coke zero
lunch: flat bread (290)

planned snack: rasperries and strawberries with chicken and potatoes for dinner

edit:

had carrots, potatoes, and chicken for dinner, with a bowl of raspberries as a snack.

Unfortunatley, had icecream as well

Breakfast: Toast with margarine, yogurt=360
Lunch: Reduced fat pepper jack cheese, cream cheese, spinach, tomato, cucumber on ciabatta roll, corn=483
Supper: Crunchy nut caramel nut cereal w/ 1/2 cup skim milk==343
Snacks: Light string cheese, apple, cottage cheese=296
Total: 1482

Exercise: Turbo Jam Cardio Party (45 minutes), Ab Jam (20 minutes)

scales didnt move this week, I stayed the same. I had one bad day this week. I was op the rest of the time. Next week I will be OP everyday!

I did much better yesterday:

Breakfast: NS granola bar, 150
Brunch: IHOP, Simple & Fit Omelette, 330
Lunch: Spinach salad with tuna, tomatoes, artichoke hearts, Walden Farm dressing, 310
Dinner: Zucchini, yellow squash, mushrooms, NS macaroni & cheese with beef, NS dessert bar, 460
Snack: Popcorn, 90

Total 1340 calories
1841 burned
Calorie deficit: 501

Additionally, I did three things to adjust my mindset:

I cut up my size 10 & 12 jeans to make into a comforter (I'm in a size 8 now)

I went grocery shopping and stocked up on healthy foods

I made a graph of my weight for the last few years, to remind myself in a visual way that I don't want to go back!

b: coffee, kashi go lean, 2% milk, strawberries - 375
l: l.c. spinach/mushroom pizza w/some added mozzarella - 450

Gaaaa, TOM is here and I'm just wanting to nom all day. So hard trying to resist anything right now. Blech, I hate this.

d: leftover chicken/pasta/veggies - 400
s: greek yogurt w/strawberries - 150

Total: 1400

b: oatmeal (170)
s: granola bar (90)
*tempation* - cookies - (200)
l: flatbread (290)

going out with my father for dinner, so I'm gonna get a salad - or sushi, depending where we go.

Note to Self, from Past Self:

I apologize for putting that chicken in the crock pot this morning. I did not think of how difficult it would be for you to come home to that wonderful smell, and have to wait four hours until dinner. But please, do not snack uncontrollably while you are waiting. Future Self will be so mad at both of us, if you do!

Thanks,

~Past Self





Note to Past Self, from Self:

Got your message. You are right. I almost went out of control, but I kept it reasonable and had a small snack. I'll be able to wait until dinner, if I keep myself busy. Thanks for the warning. I don't want Future Self mad at us. She can be pretty severe.

~Self.