so I finally went back and entered a few days into FitDay. At least on those days, I was having less calories than I thought (I'm pretty sure some other days were higher). It was reassuring to see that my carbs, fat and protein all seemed reasonable, and other nutrients too.But what surprised me was how doing that for just a few days already had me thinking about food differently, and I didn't like it! Not anything extreme, but I didn't like. I always planned to shift to an intuitive eating style eventually (albeit with more attention to nutrition; I'm into the whole foods and other things), but I expected not to even try until reaching my goal and maintaining for a while. It's a real trip to be doing it now
.The thing is, I'd like to track things just because I like studying it and learning from it. But I don't want it to change how I relate to food. I had an idea - maybe I can enter the food for the day ... but from a week ago ... so the choices are already made and enjoyed. Anyway, I was just surprised how just entering the foods into FitDay so quickly starting sucking some of the joy out of my food. So none of that for now.

] because it just seemed too heavy for stomach last night, and instead had a light "garbage" salad (clean out stuff that needed to be used up - spinach, chickpeas, avocado, tomato, bean sprouts, mint, scallion, plus added some cucumber and olives and olive olive oil). It wasn't a 100% success, because what I really wanted to have for dinner was nothing but a ton of fruit, but I thought I "shouldn't" - wish I had just done it. But it still felt good to have something closer to what felt right, instead of the planned meal. I'm not so great at giving up my plans once I make them, even on little things
. That's more of a personality thing than a dieting thing 


I'll have that image in my head all day.