*&^^%^%$#&^%*&(&)(_(_)(*&*^%$#@#$%^&*()_ so there.

and the surgeon who did your surgery was supposed to be THE BEST., and gave you EVERY ASSURANCE.

maybe - just maybe - your PCP can help you with the legal aspect of this - but only after you stop draining. you're not reading this tonight - are you? you've gone to the ER, right? RIGHT?>??

Ok. I need to rant and rage and fume.

Yes, I went back to ER. Thank GOD for this bunch of people I tell you. I now have bigger problems than just simple drainage.

Not only am I draining but upon examination I now have necrotic tissue starting at my belly button. That means gangrene in simple terms. This starts JUST below the scar he was supposed to remove to PREVENT necrotic tissue.

I have to see two surgeons tomorrow, the general surgeon who has watched me the last four days and then a new plastic surgeon here.

I may well be looking at another major surgery in short order to remove the necrotic tissue and everything below it. As in there are still about 4 inches of tissue between the new belly button (gangrene) and the current incision.

I'm so, so angry.

The good news is I'm only a few blocks from the hospital so for now I can be back and forth.

GRRRRRrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.... you're in my thoughts and prayers. Keep us posted.

{{{{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}}}} to you Hubs. I can't imagine how awful it must be. Okay, I can, but don't really want to b/c I could be there myself sooner than later. You're in my thought and prayers... I even put you on the prayer chain at my momma's church. I told her I'm lucky compared to 'hubs' (she asked what a 'hubs' was ) Then I explained your situation.
Lots of love headed your way sweetie,
Sharmel

Well, here's where I'm at tonight.

Some of you might remember (not sure if I wrote this here or not but I think I did) about my 'dream' prior to the surgery about a circle of nurses and doctors and medical people standing together while one nurse held a stone that held a view into my life energy. They were all very focused on my being well. Then I found the stone in real life and it was actually given to me as a gift. I realized a couple of days ago that the circle of individuals focused on my care are the people here. Not in Winnipeg, but here at home in Regina. That has given me a real sense of comfort and strength.

It is always in fact, the fact that I believe in the power of prayer, mindful intention, faith, Reiki, positive thought or whatever language frames it for whomever directs it, to call on the incredible source of love/light/life that sustains us all. So my dear Sharmel and all of you others, thanks from the bottom of my heart for all of your best intentions and thoughts and prayers in my direction.

My abdomen is very, very swollen and distended tonight. Very painful. Huge really. I'm back on antibiotics of course and the necrotic tissue is the main concern coming front and center. Tomorrow at 7:30 I will be meeting the plastic surgeon here who today agreed to take on my care. I will have answers more after that as to how he will best manage the necrosis and drainage issues.

I have one objective at this point. To survive this.

Sharmel, I think its wise to be careful about having your empathy taking you to anyplace outside of where you need to be with yourself right now if you know what I mean. Don't even THINK about imagining where I'm at right now! lol

Being in this kind of space is like setting your sights beyond where your body is now and reminding yourself often it won't always be like this. You have to SEE yourself on the other side of this kind of **** and I've always seen you on the other side of your own Sharmel. Because anything else is simply unacceptable. And that's all there is too it.

OMH Hubs that is just horrible, I can't even start to think about what could have gone wrong at that hospital to cause this. I am so so so very sorry.

I know in my heart your going to be okay but my gosh, what an awful thing to go thru. I pray your recovery is a gentle one.

I don’t have a lot to say. Really, just very depressed. The new plastic surgeon said that all the promises Dolynchuk made to me would have been ‘impossible’ to deliver to begin with. When I told him the guy said he’d remove the scar and cut off 75 pounds he just snorted and said ridiculous. He’d only ever removed 85 pounds from one person one time in his career and it was from a man who weighed 620 pounds to begin with. He also said it would have been impossible to remove the critical scar that needed to come off to prevent the necrosis I’m now dealing with. And totally freaked out by. Back to betrayed, lied to, ….. depressed.

Yesterday I drained over a liter or quart of fluid into the collection bag off my belly. Today is slowed down some for sure but I’m sure with two days of draining profusely I’m getting caught up with myself and staying more current with the drainage. I don’t know how they are going to handle the necrotic tissue but for now, the main thing is the drainage and preventing infection. So its good the fever broke and of course I’m staying on antibiotics for a good bit of time now.

Hubs, I am so, so sorry that this is happening to you. I am a lawyer, and although I don't do PI, that doctor seems pretty damn negligent in my book or at least from what I recall from Torts. (Although I'm sure that Canadian law has its own quirks.) I think you should talk to one in your area to see if you might have a case.

I woke up in the middle of the night thinking about you Hubs. I was angry, anxious and worried. I prayed for you and fell back to sleep in the middle of that. (guess I got a little 'wordy' LOL)

There are no words to express how I feel. I will just continue to lift you up in love and light...

Wow. Just wow.

As a huge believer in the power of positive thinking and positive energy, I do believe that everything will end up okay for you. I'm so sorry that you're having to go through **** to get there.

I've been trying to think what would help me get through it all if I were in your situation and frankly, I'm not sure what would help. I do know that you're very strong and intelligent and that you will continue to fight for all you're worth. It would help me to know that I have a strong and caring community at 3FC that is available any time you need some positive words. Even though we're faceless, we really are your friends and we really do care. Hopefully all that positive energy helps you heal.

The other thing I know about most women is that we tend to worry about everything else and make our own needs secondary. I hope you're able to concentrate on yourself for now and let the other stuff go. It will all wait because nothing is more important right now than YOU. Please take care of yourself!

Hang in there my friend. Know that all kinds of positive thoughts, energy and love are being sent to you.

Chickadee

Ahhhh hubs....I haven't had a chance to check in for a while. I've been so busy and lots of drama going on in my family. I'm so sorry you're having all these problems. But, I just know you're going to be all right. I, too, believe in the power of our thoughts and attitudes. And I've felt all along this was going to work out. My thoughts and prayers are with you (((((BIG HUG)))))

Hub's we'll be praying for you!

Hubs,
I'm going for my #9 here in about an hour... Just wanted to let you know I was thinking about you. If you can make it, so can I! That's what I've decided to concentrate on for now. I'll update as soon as I'm home... hopefully that will be sometime tomorrow night. I hope to see an update from you when I get back.

Lots of hugs and prayers headed your way,
Sharmel

I've had a rough couple of days. Seemed to have crashed Thursday with fever and all, and I'm having congestion problems where the drainage is accumulating at the top of my left leg so I can't sit upright for too long. The more I lay flat, the better off I am it seems. But frustrating to spend so much time lying around. I'm also having really severe nerve pain and the new surgeon says I have to have the tissue massaged frequently because of the way its healing or I'll have pain for the rest of my life so again, lying down and keeping it from locking in seems to be the key.

The necrosis is still freaking me out big time but for now, no sign of infection and I'm still draining copious amounts. So I'm taking the attitude of 'it ain't broke so I won't fix it'. In other words, the main issue is to keep draining and prevent infection and so far that's working.

Faith. Well, I totally 100% believe that is what is helping me heal. There are some deep lessons to be learned here for me and this is profoundly shaking me. And I also realize I don't have to figure it all out right this moment. It comes in waves really and in some moments I feel like such a fool for having trusted this doctor to deliver. I know its not my fault and my trust that he would deliver was legitimate. But... I feel like a fool nevertheless. This feels so much like a rape victim feels because if she hadn't gone out alone at night with reasonable expectation that her date would respect her, if she hadn't let him come up to her apartment to say goodnight, if she'd dressed more conservatively, if she hadn't said anything flirtatious.... you know. She wouldn't have been raped. Keeping yourself out of harms way. So I have a lot of processing to do.

Invisigoth, litigation in Canada when it comes to medical negligence or malpractice is very, very rarely successful. We have such a legacy of socialized health care that there is and extremely protective environment among doctors. The fact that this man is from another Province and his actions are so blatant may make it easier. I certainly intend to follow up one way or another. And I thank you for your input. I really do need the validation right now.

Chickadee, you're so, so very right about needing to have that sense of community, support and caring. Honestly, it carries me and especially when I know there is such a strong statement of faith behind that support. I don't know if I've ever talked about this here, but several years ago my youngest son at the age of 16 slipped into a very deep coma with encephalitis. My mornings started with the doctors trying to prepare me for the worst so I wouldn't hold onto any 'false hope'. I raged against that! I told them nobody had the right to try to destroy anyone's hope. For any reason. They said it would take a miracle and I had so, so many people praying for him by individual and by network I truly believe that is why he's still with me. And whole. He had to learn how to walk and talk again but he still is today the extrordinary person he was before the coma.

So, I will continue to process these deep within issues that compel me. My sense of purpose in life is front and center. I'm trying to give myself time and even that is a huge task for me. I'm drained of energy so quickly though, I don't seem to have much choice!

Sharmel, I'm with you too in this journey. What a challenge to walk this path. All so we can feel like we walk in step with our bodies.

Hubs, I haven't logged on for a while, but you (and Sharmel) were always on my mind and in my prayers! I totally admire your strength and your positive outlook on the whole thing! Keep it up girl!!!

Hugs/Kisses/Prayers/Good Thoughts ~~~~~~~~ >HUBS<3