n 2 a swan: You're doing great keeping those cravings under control and you're down a couple more pounds AND you're exercising. WOOHOO. Maybe your name should be n 2 a superwoman!!!

2oM (Annie - still craving sleep)

Annie - Thanks! What a sweet thing to say! Wish I had read that BEFORE I allowed myself too many Snackwell shortbread cookies. Oh well, tomorrow's another day and you've motivated me to keep at it. Thanks. Sure hope you get that sleep thing figured out soon. If I were you, I'd be really cranky by now!

n 2 a swan: Good news! The hospital called last night with a cancellation for the CPAP sleep test. I took the chance in a heartbeat. It's better than waiting another 3 weeks for my scheduled night. Will have the results probably next week. I just feel good knowing that I don't have to keep waiting.

Love the shortbreads, too. Umm . . . especially the Girl Scout Scot Teas. I'm not even sure they make them anymore. Once I realized that I could eat darn near a whole box, I stopped buying them.

Oh, I have been cranky, but I've been a good girl. I've kept my mouth shut, gritted my teeth, bit my tongue, grinned and bared it, etc, etc. One of the things I have to do at work is occasionally call other companies to get a clue as to when they are going to pay their invoices. The responses just are so aggravating. Do they really think I'm as stupid as they and their excuses sound? Don't they think that I've heard it all before? That's when my patience is really tried.

2oM (almost awake Annie)

Hey Annie! I'm happy that you were able to move your appointment to an earlier time. I'm sure it will be a relief when you can get your life back to normal. Your mention of CPAP piqued my curiosity. I had a family member who was on a respirator for a time and during her weaning process, she was on CPAP. I wonder if this is somehow related? Anyhoo, I'm wishing you the best of luck.

I'm having a hard time these last 2 days. I did well as I said and then I have to struggle to keep up my intensity. This is the reason I have maintained approximately this weight (within several pounds) for so long. There must be some psychological barrier I have about surpassing 185 lbs. As strange as it sounds, even though I remain about 50 lbs over where I should be, 180 something looks and feels so much different to me than 190 something. I'm more comfortable at 190 something and whenever I get to this point, I stagnate. So, keep your fingers crossed. I'm in a battle with the again. This time, I plan to win! Has anyone else been able to pinpoint any parallel situation in their lives?

I'm back on track with myself. I did Pilates, 20 minutes on a cross-trainer and then lifted weights. So far, I am within point range. I'll have to see if I have enough points left to have a treat for dessert. If not, I won't. Wish me luck that my strength will continue.

Enjoy your weekend!

n 2 a swan: In the so many times I've lost weight there has been a time or two when I'd reach a certain weight and either hovered there for an eternity or started gaining again. To be honest, my feelings at those times were of being afraid, but I don't know what of. Maybe afraid that I'd fail at some point anyway. I don't know. It's been a few years since I've been at a "scary LOW weight". It could be that the numbers for you are where your body needs to be for a while to recalibrate.

Hope your weekend went well. Saturday was rainy here but Sunday was beautiful. I made chocoate no bake cookies Friday night. A double batch. They were gone Sunday. We all ate our share, but I really didn't need any of them. It's been probably 20 years since I've made those (with good reason). It is sooo easy to walk by and grab one. We won't be doing that again - maybe another 20 years!!!

2oM (Annie)

Hey Annie - Good to hear from you. And thanks for the response. You've given me food for thought.

One of my goals for this challenge was to remember life at a thinner weight. I recall that I had a healthier relationship with food back then. After experiencing certain tragic events, I allowed food to became dominant in my life and I gained tons of weight. If I had a bad day and needed consolation, I felt entitled to eat tremendous portions. No wonder I gained so much weight. Now, I'm not allowing myself to panic when I eat smaller portions. I realize that I won't starve to death. With renewed zeal, I realize that food is meant to be fuel for the body, not as an excuse to gorge myself.

Losing weight is a process. And I've entered the stage where I must decide whether I want to put in the effort required to regain my old life. My previous ambivalence caused me to stagnate. I hope that self-awareness will make this journey a little easier.

Hoping the challenge is going well for you all.

I weighed in this morning and I had gained the 1.5 lbs that I lost last week. Oh well. I've certainly had worse weeks. I exercised 5 days and did pretty well foodwise. So what happened you ask? Who knows? I lost weight during TOM and now I gain??? I'll just keep at it. I will pay even more attention to my journal this week and up my water intake.

How are you all doing?

235.2/190

Anybody still here?????????????????


Nah, I didn't think so.

Here i am, Here i am!!!!! Sorry i try and read everytime someone posts and reply most of the time, however, i seem to have miserably failed the last few times, but i did atleast read your posts!!!! I feel bad Anyway i am still on the road to a slimmer summer!!! I have to the pool is being put in as we speak!!!!With all those nosy neighbors wanting to come over and "visit" this summer, i atleast want to look like a fish instead of a whale!!!! I can't wait for the fun to begin actually, i just love being social I will trya and post again soon!!!!


Marion

Hi Marion - Glad that you popped in for a visit. How have you been? I either have really good days on program or really bad days. So I guess I should try to have more consecutive good days, huh? Actually, for a while there my face was looking thinner. I had thought so and I never correctly assess my body, but then other people said the same thing. So if you happen to spot a thin-faced, big-breasted lady with a spare tire and a big butt waddling down the street, it's probably me!!!!! Who loses weight in their face anyway???? Oh well, tomorrow is a new opportunity for me to make my face even thinner. When will the rest of me catch up??????????



I hope everyone will post a short note when they have time. I'd like to hear how you all are.

hehe swan, you described me to a T I have good and bad days most of the time too We are having our pool put up today, i am so excited, i want to try and find some kind of water aerobice program, do you know of anything

I will try and post again, tonight

Marion

Hey Marion - I can't help you with the water aerobics programs. I haven't been in a pool since high school and I wouldn't be caught dead even trying on a swimsuit. Maybe you could contact a YWCA, a school or a community college. One of those places may have some classes. You'll have to post how you're enjoying the pool once its installed.

Off to work towards a thinner face...