Pam, your friends must keep crazy hours too, if you're off to visit one at 3 in the morning!

Tina...I give up...who won?

Mary...just seems like we're in a lull here...I often think, "Was it something I said?"

Joanne...I know where these words are coming from...
I felt that way for a long time. Somewhere along the way, I started to realize that people are going to laugh at or criticize other people for some reason, ANY reason, not just being fat...and why should I care what they say? Really...who are these strangers that we give so much power to????? SO WHAT if they laugh?? SO WHAT if they talk about you behind your back? Sticks and stones.... Take the power away from "them" and fill yourself up with the power to go out and enjoy your life. If you want to dance at a concert, you go right ahead...if you want to jump up and down at a football game, do it...don't hold back and wait until you're "the right weight..." Life should be lived now. And that doesn't apply to thin people only.

stepping down from the soapbox...

All righty then...I'm leaving you girls for a day. Last time I went anywhere on the weekend, all **** broke loose! Try to keep the peace, OK?

on the other hand...it has been too quiet lately..............

I'm kidding, I'm kidding!

Hi ladies,

Wow, it really has gotten quiet this weekend. I've been trying to get caught up on things around the house. Its been gloomy weather so I've had a sinus headache for two days and not felt really great. I've just been doing things I've been putting off for awhile. I am getting the living room put back together from when we had it painted. Part of my delay has been in that I had this "idea" to replace the round decorative table in the corner that I've had for years with various heights of little tables. Its not often that I get a decorating burst of creative thought. So of course, once I have one I haven't been able to find what I wanted. I finally found some wrought iron woven top tables at Gordman's in four different sizes. I brought all my lamps together in this corner with five of these tables and I really love the effect. I'm really kind of surprised it actually looks good. I've done some preparation for finally getting started on painting the last bathroom and just messing around the house. It seems like every time I take off and have plans of massive productivity, the weather is gloomy and so I am.

I have to admit, I'm having a bad food time this weekend. Seems like I'm starved and hungry all day long. I'm also having some enthusiasm waning because I'm at a stuck point again. Which is really aggravating me because time is slipping away and I'm not getting closer to my goal for the year. A little voice is trying to encourage me to throw in the towel. But I'm trying to get a bigger voice to say NO and stay focused for more than 4 days in a row.

Oops, I've got to go get DH up and get ready for church. I'll be back this afternoon.

Good Morning Gals.

Mary, I love you! I hope today is a better day for you.

I am sorry for the short post but it is 10:00a, and I have to leave for work in about 45 mins, still just sitting here in my bloomers!

later girlies!

Hi, ya'll! The weather has been so nice around here it's almost scary! I'm leaving on Tuesday morning for Shipshewana, IN to go to the flea market. I'm having anxiety attacks over it on several levels. #1 I'm not sure I'll be able to walk that much. #2 We're going with some friends and they are not always the most positive people to be around. (some of you may remember the week from **** up at their lodge in the woods from last summer. Too much drama!) and #3 Even though the weather has been so great this past week, they're predicting rain for Tuesday through Thursday! Oh well, I guess we'll make the most of it. I think I would have rather gone away just honey and me, but no, I have to go and open my big mouth! You girls know how that is!

I would really like to get out in the garden and do some clean-up today. We'll have to see what happens. I'm a "showgirl" later this afternoon and I have color on my hair right now, so like I said, "we'll see".

Terri: Ya know, I knew you guys used to be into RV rentals. I'm telling you, my brain just hasn't been working too well lately. Your new decorator touches sound great. I never have any creativity!

Katrina: Good for you, choosing to walk home from the auto shop. Boy, if we could all make those great choices! He!!, if I could walk two miles, I'd be in heaven.

Sandy: Hope you're enjoying your camping weekend. If the weather is half as nice by you as it is here, I'm sure you're having a great time.

Mary: Oh, honey, no one is ignoring you! [[[hugs]]] I sure hope you're out of your funk by now. I don't like the sound of "I don't think I care anymore." You seem to be soooo stressed as of late. With not having enough help at the library, to your son and his troubles, your brother and his stuff AND the anniversary of your grandma's death. We all know how close you were to her. I get funky around the time my aunt passed too. She was an intrigal part of my life. It's so hard to let go. Know that we love you and care about you and what's going on in your life. * Do you like your new 'do'? In the pics I have of you, your hair was pretty short.

Michelle: You just pop in and out. Hope you're doing ok.

Tina: I like the turtle analogy. That really about sums it up. I think we all try to hide in the shadows somehow when we're heavy. I know I don't go ALL OUT at this size. I think we have to learn to accept ourselves and get on with the joy of LIVING, and not wait until............(you fill in the blanks) After all, we might wait too long.

Andria: Did you get your article finished up? Where can we go to read it????

Homebound/Joanne: Good to see you checking in more often.

Pam: Oh my gosh, you are keeping a crazy schedule. But more importantly, who the heck do you find to visit at 3:00 in the morning. YIKES!

2cute: Where are you, girlfriend??? Garage saleing again??? Hope you're having a good weekend.

Well, girls, I think I'm going to go wash out this color before my hair falls out. Do you think an hour is too long to leave it in???? See you all later.

Thin I'm hanging in there! I have been trying to do housework, laundry, studying, playing with my boy, potty training...uggghh!!!

John and I had a talk and worked some stuff out...things are looking better for now...I still just have that little hang up I can't get over! But life goes on!!

Gotta pop off here again...I have to study for an exam I have to take online by midnight tonight. Figured while the boy is napping I can get some studying in!

TTFN Love you guys!! Michelle

Hey everyone

This last week was just plain old busy. Thing is, I read what all the rest of you are doing, and I just seem like a whiner in comparison. Do you chicks have more hours in your day than I do?

We got our BMX track grand opening finished, and it was a blast. There weren't nearly as many riders as we had planned for, but there was a lot of support from the town, and I think everyone enjoyed themselves. I am so glad that part is over. I was in charge of a lot of the setup details as well as the food, and it really wore me out.

I also finished the catering article and the wish list one and had them both in by deadline. The wish list was such a blast to write! Thin asked about where to read them, but I don't know if they will make it to the online version or not. They just barely started up the online magazine, and they only put a couple of articles on it each month because they actually want people to subscribe. Imagine that...

Even though I'm relieved to have this all behind me, I'm feeling kind of in a blue funk now. My food isn't all that great, and my exercise is pretty minimal. I think I need a good walk, some time to enjoy the sunshine and some real rest. Maybe I'll dovetail a couple of tasks and drive some catalogues out to one of my hostesses instead of mailing them to her. The drive would be nice today. Actually, that idea is sounding better and better by the minute. I need to do something active instead of curling up in bed in the fetal position.

Take care all, and enjoy your Sunday. The weather here is so perfect and finally sticking to the 80's. I'd be a fool to stay inside!

Andria

Hi ,

I'm bad, I've been stopping in to catch up but haven't made the time to post.

It's been a pretty good week food wise. I'm off work this week. It's supposed to rain a lot so I'll have lots of time to catch up on paperwork and maybe even read. I put down The Fiery Cross by Dianna Gabaldon ages ago and now have to start it all over. It's probably 600 or 700 pages and I'm determined to get it read over the next few weeks.

It's a beautiful, sunny day and the house is covered with Lady Bugs in migration.

MARY: I've been thinking about you. Hope things are improving on the home front for you.

MICHELLE: Good luck on the exam.

THIN: I remember "that" camping trip. Good luck, hold your temper, and enjoy the flea markets!

TERRI: The living room sounds wonderful. How about stashing some apples in a basket and munching on them. They're filling and tasty. mmmmmgood.

TINA: I only get one guess??? AJ Foyt?
BTW ... Woman you ain't no turtle .... You are the Bunny in those battery commercials!!!!

JOANNE: Don't get me going on "I'm fat. I Can't." I try to always say "You can! Just do it!!!!!" unless, of course, It's hiking ... and that's a matter of health, not just fat. But I will get healthier and I WILL hike.

PAM: Dear heart, Go To Bed!!!

Enough for now. The dryer is shouting my name.

Aruggg...I gained 5 pounds last week....some of that has to be water retention....because I haven't seen my new MD here to get my Blood Pressure/fluid pill script renewed....

I haven't been at all good this past week either, one thing for sure is that the scales don't lie....

I haven't had a chance to read the last day or two of posts..but will soon...Until then,


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Live Well & Keep On Keeping On!

~Syn~

Good Evening Girls,

Going to bed now, not pulling another all nighter..I slept good last night though wow! didnt even get up to go to the bathroom! and that in and of itself is a feat!!

The friend I went to see at 3 am is a night owl, and works 3rd shifts quite a bit so, we had a great visit, had a heart to heart talk, it was wonderful.

Well girls, I did read all of your posts, but cant do the individual reply thing, I am fading fast!

Did want to say: THAT TONY IS A CUTE ONE! RATHER DELICIOUS LOOKING!

On that note, see ya gals!

I'm here

We had a great time camping. We got back lastnight about 8:00 in the pouring pouring RAIN!!!! Actually, it started raining at about 2:00 in the afternoon, so the weekend weather was still pretty good. Warm days, but chilly nights. We were in camps so it was not bad. In the summer this place is run as a summer camp for kids, so its a nice place with a central cabin with a huge kitchen and fireplace, then about 15 cabins that sleep 10 people each then lots of other cabins that were locked up for the year. On a wonderful pond, I will post a pic. My family was in one cabin, and so on. Hubby did have to unscrew one of the beds from the floor to push it together to make us a bid bed to sleep in. There was no way in heck the two of us were sleeping in a twin or less size bed. Good thing he put them together because Alexis decided she needed to crawl on in with mommy and daddy. She has had a bad cough (cold) so she needed to be comforted.

Well Today consists of cleaning this house up, getting some grocerys and doing all the laundry that goes with camping .

Will check back later and do replies.

This does not happen often......but what a thought

Good morning ladies!

Ugh, its off to work soon. Now that the weekend is over, the sun is going to shine for five straight days.

Yesterday was a beautiful sunny day. After church,the dog and I spent some time out in the backyard. I read a magazine for awhile and then did some poop scoopin' (always a joy) and then finished up some bill work.

Food was definitely better yesterday. I'm getting very frustrated at not being able to get beyond the 250 point. I did read something in Good Housekeeping that Dr. Phil said - if you're weighing and measuring your food all the time, you're always thinking about food. I have to admit that when we do have to journal and make sure about our portion sizes, it does feel like trading one obsession for food for another. And it gets tiring. But we have to journal and pay attention to portion sizes. I need to really look at what's going on because this is not working.

Well, maybe the whineness is from having a sinus headache for four days in a row. So, I'll get out of here until I feel better.

Have a great day ladies!

P.S.

Sandy - I loved your pics! What beautiful camping country. Your kids are adorable.

Thanks for posting pics of the kiddies Sandy.... they are adorable, just like their Mom!

I have to go WI later this evening, so keep your fingers crossed for me.

I'm trying to get into that "it doesn't matter what the scale says" type of thinking, but even as much as I preach it to others, and please don't stone me for saying this, but what the scale says IS important.

I mean, think about it....... It may not matter that we are wearing smaller clothes, fitting into things better or feeling better, we want to see those numbers move, darn it!!!

I hate the obsession with the scale, but the truth of the matter is, it is always going to be there. I think what we have to do though, is not let it be the "be all...end all". Sometimes it doesn't seem to matter that we KNOW we're losing weight, if the scale doesn't say what we want it to, then we're failures and that's simply not true.

A failure doesn't try. WE are TRYING. I'd rather die trying than to just quit.

Anways, that is my motivational speech for the day. I'm feeling quite empowered today and almost like that pink energizer bunny. Thank you J-ann.

I'd also like to thank each one of you here for that empowerment. Sure, none of you are standing beside me watching what I put in my mouth every day, you may not be walking beside me as I do my WATP.....but you ARE here with me.....inside my heart and head. Everytime I read your posts or get a sweet card or gift in the mail........you are with me. In so many ways, you are the best friends I've never had.

I hope I am always a friend to you.

I love you all.