Didn't feel all that great this weekend. I sleep alot with this anyway but while taking the antibiotiid I seemed to sleep more usual. I think I was just so wiped out before this happened that I just didn't have much energy left when it was time to start therpy. Today is my last day to take the antibiotic so I hope I will have time to build up some strength round 2 next Monday.

I have made myself eat the last few days working toward that goal, but still can't eat much because feels full all the time.

Have a nice day everybody.

Trish, I'm glad you're finishing the antibiotic without any bad side effects. I think the sleep/rest is beneficial to you. I know this is harder than you expected and its harder than I thought, too. Hang in there. I've heard it said that God won't give you more than you can handle. Put it in his hands. My prayers continue.

I made stuffed cabbage rolls today. They are in the oven. I only made enough for us for today and tomorrow. 20 small rolls.

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I almost had a mess. I guess I didn't put enough liquid in the cabbages. Based on how long I usually cook them I should have checked them at 3 pm but let them cook until 4. I dozed off and woke at 3:45. All the liquid had cooked away and they looked burnt. It turned out that they taste great, but there's no sauce to put over them and the pot is burned. We might have to throw it away. DH usually checks them for me but he was in his computer room talking on the phone to his brother. I'm so glad they aren't ruined.

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I fell asleep after eating and when I woke up DH had scrubbed the cook pot and its sparkling like new! I thought we were going to have to throw it out. I guess it wasn't as bad as I thought.

This my last day of low immune system trust that tomorrow being my 1st day of building my immne system back up to getting strength back so I can ready for round 2. Other than still feeling tired I actually feel better about every thing. My niece who used to work for the American Cancer Assocation is coming to visit. She shared with me some of the things that I need to be doing to even while I am having treatment. She has told me to drink a root beer float to offset the chemo taste I also read that one of the side effects of a one of the meds is low blood sugar so I need a little bit of sugar. I believe this knowledge is going to be very helpful.

Have a nice day everybody.

No scale again today. I know I'm overeating and its,from the stress of all that's going on over the lost wallet. Once we get all his new cards I can forget it except for monitoring his credit for new accounts. Sometimes when I'm upset I don't eat and sometimes I overeat. When he was in the hospital it was a don't eat stress.

I think I said that step daughter quit that job where they had her unloading trucks. She got a check from another former employer where they deducted excess dues for something. So that's like an extra weeks pay check. Today she has an interview with a small local used car dealer and its promising. She doesn't like the hours, she will have to work Saturday. But she had a previous job where she worked 7 days a week. She can get used to hours.

Trish, you sound better today. I think talking to your niece will be very helpful. Getting advice from her will make the future look a little brighter. You need something to cheer you up.

How is DH doing with his eating now that you are unable to cook? Before I met DH he sometimes ate at his mothers, sometimes ate doughnuts, or sometimes ate French fries at the bar. Since we've been married he has learned to cook a few things so he won't starve.

I'm doing some cleaning today, and gathering my bills to be paid by the end of the month.

I don't know what's going on for us for Easter. All I know is I'm not hosting. Its too much for me anymore but I will help someone else if they want to host. Otherwise I will cook a ham and make potato salad. We don't want all the other stuff.

I have developed a lump under my thumbnail. Couple months. I can feel it but it has no color. It was very very painful if I touched it but one day while washing clothes I spilled Clorox on my thumb. It burned badly but afterwards the pain stopped. If its still there when I go to the doctor in June I will ask him about it. Dr Google was no help.

I will get back to my cleaning.

Still no scale. All the junk food DH buys is getting harder and harder to resist. I am a carboholic, trying to reform but failing. There is very little food in the house that doesn't spike my blood sugar, and the crap is calling my name. I should not be blaming my weakness on him. He tells me "You don't have to eat it" And he's right. Its my responsibility to say no. But its so much easier when its not around so much. He used to buy things I don't like but now he's buying ice cream every week and Oreos. He doesn't like chocolate but he knows I do! I need to ask God to give me strength.

My step daughter got the job. Although it is full time, her schedule is less than 40 hours a week. They told her she can come in early or work on her day off to make up the hours. I don't know if she will do that. They told her they are closed Sunday and Wednesday but she will work every Saturday. She told them she won't do that so they said every other Saturday. With her husband's work schedule she only sees him on weekends. I'm glad she spoke up about that. She can go in and work on a Wednesday even though they are closed. I hope this works out for her. I don't want her to hate her job.

Carol Sue, I am glad your step daughter got the job and I hope it works out well and she likes it.

I know how easy it is to eat the junk food. I hope you can get it straightettned out soon.

I have had a very good day. I can actually say I have felt pretty good. Eating is good and I think I will start getting my strength back each and everyday.

I forced myself to get on the scale and I weigh 183.4. I'm not happy but I expected it. I've not been doing well with my eating or my eating window. I need to develop more control and determination. This is being reflected in my blood glucose readings, too, which is not a good thing. I start the day out good but then I start snacking. I'm not hungry, I just want to eat. I need to get one good day in and then do another. I guess I will always be a compulsive overeater. I can control it for a while but then it starts again. I did well when I lived alone because the food was not in the house. I can't tell him not to have his snacks in the house. But the things he's buying now are my trigger foods. In my heart I believe he is doing this intentionally. For some reason he wants me to fail. I can't let that happen.

Trish, it warms my heart to hear you say you're having a good day! I want you to have more of them and keep feeling stronger.
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Carol Sue, I have a suggestion. I think the best way to get control of this situation since DH is going to buy the foods any way that maybe you could work those things into your eating plan. I know you like the low carb and fasting, but maybe just mostly use fasting window and plan to have one or two servings of the trigger type foods each day. Then slowly cut the portion down until they don't trigger you any more. Buy planning to have it, you are in control of it and it will alimitate feeling like a falure and out of control. That was the thing I liked about WW. I loved being able to learn portion control because I could eat a little less or a little more depending on what I was eating. This is when I also learned that just I could have more, I also learned I didn't alway want the whole serving and then I learned that some time just a bite satisfied me. Count it in the daily calories you allow yourself. Just a suggestion, but I think you need to feel like you are in control instead of your DH.

I am having another good day. DH cooked fish today and we had beets and sweet potato fries. I'm learning about foods to counter act some of the side effects I've been experincing as well as how to eat to build up my white/red blood cells and raise my hemoglobin because they were so low last week. I've been craving beef and found out it is because hemoglobin is low. I've been hungry for a Sonic HB so I think I will get DH to get me one tomorrow.

Have a nice day.

It is so good to know you are starting to feel back to your old self even though I know there is more chemo coming.

Weight is down to 182.6. That's because we went to the casino and I no longer eat there. Nothing actually tastes that good there.

I can and do fit some of DHs food into my plan, like potatoes and beef. But some things like Oreos and Klondike actually have too much sugar for my blood sugar. I try to keep my carbs to toast with my eggs or a sandwich with SL bread. The others should be an occasional snack but try as I might I cannot moderate with them. They tend to be triggers that wake up my compulsive overeating. I can eat a whole pack of Klondike bars in one day, whereas I can eat a small portion of ice cream. In fact, I'm craving one at 10 AM because I know they are in the freezer. We had a talk about this yesterday but I don't know if I got my point across. When I lived alone and craved something I knew I had to go out to buy it and usually didn't want to. If I did, I would buy a one serving size instead of having a full size in the house.

Carol Sue, I actually do understand that and I agree it is a problem since DH is going to bring it into the house. DH and I both got hooked on those a few years ago and when he started checking sugar content in food, we both agreed not to bring them in the house any more. It helps that DH works with me because he has to watch his sugar too.

It feels good to almost feel normal again. I hope I've learned enough from my niece so that it wom't be too bad when I get my next round. I think if I can eat to keep hemoglobin, red and white blood cells up, hopefully I will do better this time.

Have a nice day.

Hi friends: not doing great either, I was down a little after the colonoscopy effects subsided, but am gaining it back. I am definitely not eating as much as before, but still gaining. However, the sweet tooth is back and I am craving dessert.
Not very happy about any of it. I did OMAD yesterday, so going to put that into place at least a couple of times a week and build to fasting again. Will have to reread Dr. Fungs books and watch some of the videos again.

Trish: Be gentle to yourself and don't have expectations about doing anything but chemo. Don't plan to cook, and let others feed you or stick with Smoothies. There are some you can buy pre-made.
with your white count low, you are prone to infection, so avoid going out. You may even want to mask when out, to protect yourself. Any little cold or other virus can really strike you when you are low.
And yes, I think now is not the time to worry about pounds or blood sugar etc. unless your physician tells you otherwise.

Carol: glad the cabbage rolls were saved. Could you not just give them a bit of tomato juice on top? The packaged ones I get never have enough of the juicy stuff, so I add extra tomato juice. They have the right spices in the cabbage rolls, so plain juice seems fine. I hope you find your way back to eating better.

Still having lots of fatigue. Today is the anniversary of my mother's death. Even though its been 13 years, I still miss her. With each passing year, the memory of her dementia recedes and I remember all the good stuff. SO no St. Patrick's day outings for us, just a quite night in.

Have a good weekend friends.

I made a discovery today. Since I was born in Philadelphia I never met my maternal Grandmother until we moved back to Pittsburgh when I was 7. My first memory of her was taking me to get ice cream near her apartment. She seemed very big and old and didn't wear shoes. She passed away when I was in 5 th grade. Today I found her obituary online and saw that she was 70 when she passed away. That is 7 years younger than I am now,and I thought she was so old! And,she died on her birthday!. I thought she was at least late 70s. I don't think of myself as old.

Mad, when I make the big roasted ful of cabbage rolls I use a big can of diced tomatoes with juice and a big can of tomato puree. This was just a smaller portion, 20 rolls, so I used small cans. From now on I will use big cans even for a smaller amount as I like a lot of sauce. Also I usually check them often while cooking and add water if needed. Next time I will set a timer that will wake me up if I fall asleep like I did this time. Falling asleep while something is cooking is dangerous.

Trish, DH thinks that sugar is one of the necessary nutrients. He argues with me when I say its bad. But this week I overheard him telling his brother that he won't lose weight eating the Marie Callenders frozen pies he keeps buying.
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Fatmad It is always good to hear from you. About the only place I go is to my oncology appointments and no where else.

Carol Sue I think it is interesting the way we remember family who have gone before us.

Going through this chemotherapy, I have to eat plenty of afood and drink a lot to stay hydrated. My niece told her Mother that the reason some people die is because they don't eat enough and don't stay hydrated. I have to eat small meals throughout the day. I realized today that I am going to have to really work at getting things back under control when this is all over because my habits are so different now.

Another good day but I am tired as I am trying to do as much on my own as much as possible. I'm told that I will start feeling better either after this round or the 3rd one. I certainly hope so.

Scale went down .2 today. That's not much but down is down. It was funny because the scale stopped on 182 then bounced up to 182.2 and stopped. It sure went up faster than this.

I am going to change my diet a bit after reading some articles about activity in the gut affects weight loss and diabetes. I am going to eat some Fiber One cereal each day, around 1/4 cup. And maybe some beans. I should also add avocado but prior attempts didn't work well. I can only buy them hard and wait for them to ripen. So if I buy more than one they ripen all at once and I also don't like to eat half because the other half turns brown. So I might buy one each time I go to Wal-Mart and not eat them every day. The foods to be included are soluble fiber grains, beans, avacado, eggs,nuts such as pistachios and seeds such as pumpkin seeds. I already eat pumpkin seed kernels and eggs. I think its the fiber and the type of fat in the other foods that are effective. None of these foods are harmful so I'm not afraid to include them. Olive oil and sesame seed oil are included. I use some olive oil but not sesame seed oil. The article said most of these foods are part of the Mediterranean diet,which is said to be healthy. It can't hurt to try. I hope to be able to maintain my IF.

Trish, I would also like to know about the beans your DH has been eating. Does he eat canned or dry, and does he eat them plain or prepared a certain way, and how much. Beans were included in the articles I was reading so they would have the same effect. I have only cooked dry beans once but would not want to take the time. I would eat canned and rinse them well. I don't know what else to do with them. Does your DH still eat cauliflower?

I'm glad to hear that he cooked for you.

I am thrilled to hear that you are,feeling so much better! I hope this continues with future treatments. You might do well on this plan of eating and might not have to change back. I am trying this new plan of eating for a while because I am having such a hard time sticking to plan now.

I found a picture of my grandmother from 1944. She would be 59 in this picture. She only lived 10 years after that. She had taken the train by herself from Pittsburgh to Philadelphia to visit my mother. She must have felt good to be able to make that trip but she looked so old by today's standards. I don't know what color her hair was when she was a young girl but it was full gray in every picture I saw of her.

Carol Sue, sometimes I think it is good to change the way we eat. I hope it will work well for you.

I've had another good day. DH cooked a steak for us but they were kind of old. He is going to go to the store while I'm in therappy. It is going to be cold so he can get some meat and leave it in the car. I kind of know what to expect this time and hope it will go well.