That's the problem with fibro and arthritis... you can be in excruciating pain but look like there isn't a thing in the world wrong with you. There is an older man at our church (retired minister) who is (was) a quadriplegic. He fell several years ago and lost all control of his body from the neck down. He was told he would never walk again. He is still in a wheel chair most of the time but he can use both hands some and is walking slowly with the help of a walker ... and can even WALK UP STAIRS NOW!!! He has worked so hard to do this!!! He has really been an inspiration to me. He knows my problems ... I walked into church last night and a lady I don't know asked me how I was. Well... we don't tell our problems to strangers, do we? So I said, "I'm fine, how are you." So, after she walked away, he looked up at me from his wheel chair, smiled, and whispered, "liar". I got a kick out of that! And at the same time I couldn't help but think how right he was. Here I was lying in church!

I think putting up that front is just part of who we are. Maybe we think it will make us stronger or something if we don't give in to it. I know one woman who I used to be really good friends with who has it who has just given up and gone to bed. She calls me now and then and asked me how I go on with it. I told her giving up isn't an option with me. I have a life and I'm going to live it. If it means taking pain pills and going on in pain sometimes then that's just what I have to do. She doesn't do anything any more. She's just decided to stay home and stop living. I told her I know it hurts. I have 2 kinds of arthritis and the fibro plus I'm always tired from the anemia but I'm still alive, I have a family and a house to run plus a piano practice that I'm not willing to give up yet. I have a life and I'm too young to just stop living it because it hurts to move. As long as there is Aleve and Darvocet for the really bad times I'm in business!

(And as long as I can keep my sense of humor)!!!
