So it looked like I fell off the map, but I didn't!
I still have the same goals, largely to loose about 10-15 pounds, stop pushing off that goal due to fears (such as the initial anxiety of weighing myself!), and feel in control of my weight.
I've been taking really honest inventory these past 2-3 weeks bc I think that was truly my downfall. I wasn't weighing myself so I could only assume the amount of weight I wanted to lose based on how my clothing fit and I wasn't really tracking how much I ate. I generally eat whatever I want and it's worked for me my whole life. I prefer decently nutritious foods, I'm not a snacker, eating usually only twice a day, and I generally don't like junk foods. I think that's innately limited how much I ate and kept me effortlessly slim.
In my honest inventory I've been weighing myself daily since my first post. That's been about 3 weeks of data to go off of. My weight definitely fluctuates and I don't have enough numbers to really understand how my period may influence my weight or salty meals or any other factors really. But I feel very empowered to be courageous enough to jump on the scale daily. In fact, it feels like a normal morning thing now and just a number as opposed to a frightening wake up call I was anticipating. After tracking my numbers I realized I have about 13 pounds to lose, so I was pretty accurate in my estimate. Honestly 10 pounds would be totally satisfactory.
I've also been tracking my caloric intake daily for 2 weeks now. I feel truly honest in my estimate of portions and calories so I feel I have an accurate daily average. My natural appetite, without attempting to cut back or restrict, came out to 1,478/day. So Jen I'm guessing I'm a bit like you. I've lost 0 pounds in these past few weeks so I think it's safe to say that 1,500 calories will maintain my weight and I probably need to cut close to 1,000 to lose, Yikes. That sucks! And I'm not sure how sustainable that is!
I kept up my normal activity level which is to exercise and jog about 3-5 times a week.
I feel well and I know I have a healthy diet and exercise regimen. When I ask myself what my goals are truly I guess it can be simplified as this: I want to be a bit slimmer and toned out of vanity and I want control/no fear/understanding of how my diet affects my weight and appearance. Here in TX it's already bikini season and I'm wishing I had launched this honest campaign a bit earlier in the year! Ah well! Just glad I'm getting there!


