My mother is very sick. She is in ICU, on a ventilator. They cannot get her blood pressure to come up. The odds of her making it doesn't look good. I haven't cried much, I'm just very sad. If she passes, I am going to miss her. I can't imagine my life without her. Ok, now I'm crying.




I will have my phone close by all night long, encase the hospital calls.

Oh Lisa, thinking of your mom and you!!

New collage: where water meets earth. As usual, click image for larger version. =smile=

Lisaluvshearts— I'm so sorry to hear about your mom! My thoughts are with you both.

Thank you both so much.


Hi everyone.


Mom was Med Flighted to Columbus this morning, to a much larger hospital. She is in multi organ failure. Her body has sepsis. The sepsis is really reeking havoc inside her body.

I was there all day with mom and my family. I am going to get up in the morning and head back to be with her.

I pray that she makes it through the night.

I am awake at 3:30 am, thinking of mom so I called the hospital.


Her nurse said mom was resting and the procedure to get her heart beating normally seems to have worked. Mom had what is called Atrial Fibrillation. The heart is in rhythm now and beating at 90 beats per minute compared to 150-170 beats per minute before. The heart beating better has slightly improved her blood pressure.


I'm going to lay down again and see if I can get some more rest.


Sweet dreams.

Lisa: I am so very sorry to hear about your mom and what a rough time she is having. 😢 She took a major turn for the worse very quickly, didn't she? Is this at all related to the polyps they found? So sorry you (and she) are going through this. Keeping you both in my prayers! Hang in there! Sending you a big hug! ❤

Yes, it is complications from her colonoscopy. Her bowel perforated and now she has sepsis shock and organ failure.

They are trying to work on her blood, her red cell count is really bad. Her heart has improved. Let's hope they can help her cell count and get her to start peeing.

Please keep mom in your thoughts.


Much love to you all.

Oh gosh, Lisa I'm so sorry to hear about your mother, I can't even imagine how you're feeling. I hope now they have her heart stable, she will start to improve. Keeping you in our thoughts x

So sorry to hear about your mom, Lisa! May she have a speedy and complete recovery!

Oh...what!?! It is really hard to take when one is there for a seemingly simple procedure and something like that happens. So glad to hear her heart has improved!! Atrial fibrillation..recognizable phrase to me as I heard my husband describe it alot during his years on a rescue squad..heart is beating madly but not accomplishing what it's supposed to do. BEST wishes to her and you and your family Lisa!

I have been keeping up with my exercise but craving just about everything under the sun, it always is like that with me, as soon as I try to putsome brakes on my grazing and overeating and snacking, it just seems insurmountable. I'm suddenly aware of t shirt weather coming and how self conscious I am of my arms. Ugh I will just try to try

Thank you so much to each and every one of you for your well wishes.


I went to see mom again today. Damn it is so hard to leave her. It breaks my heart. The woman is a pain in the butt but she is my mother and I love her so much. I hate to see her so weak. It's very very hard. She is there alone tonight, no family could go over. I feel like ****.


She is improving slowly. The woman has been through **** and she is still hanging on. The Dr's and nurses are working so hard to help her. They are working their guts out to give her a chance.

If I wake in the middle of the night, I am going to call over there and see how she's doing. I will be there at 10 am to spend some time with her. My sister is going too but she won't get there early.


I hope you all are well. Much love to you all.

Lisa—Thanks for the updates on your mom's condition. I hope you were able to sleep through the night: you'll be a better support to her if you're well-rested. My thoughts are with you!

I've been sort of a basket case over the past 24 hrs. I went to see my chronic pain doctor yesterday, and he got my hopes soaring high by saying he was going to prescribe a cannabinoid (like cannabis) medication that he's found to be very effective in cases of fibromyalgia & chronic pain like mine. But then his receptionist told me over the phone that since it's an "off-label" use, my insurance company would probably refuse to pay for it. And it's really expensive—like one grand for a month's supply!

So then I crashed emotionally, because I hate pharmaceutical companies and insurance companies that seem to do everything in their power to prevent you from getting the help you need. I got really bent out of shape, because the pain in my legs has been so bad lately, it's been waking me up at 3 AM and then I can't get back to sleep—almost every night.

It bugs me, too, that I'm so volatile—that I can't be patient while the insurance company process grinds through, that I can't wait to see what's going to happen before I have a cow. =sigh=

Things are really quiet on this thread...what's up with everyone?

My day started out really crummy, because I woke up so severely depressed, I had to really push myself to get out from under the covers, to drink the coffee and eat the omelet that Bob had so sweetly made for me.

What is the deal with my depression? I'm not used to this frequent alternation between good moods and bad moods. Usually I stay in one mode or the other for an extended period of time. But everything's changed since my Big Disaster, since I'm on completely different medications. Who knows...

So I cancelled my app't with Mike—something I rarely ever do. But all the same I felt stubborn about retrieving something good out of the day, so right off the bat I meditated for an hour. That helped enough that I was able to create the back sides of a couple of my collage postcards: vintage stamps, more collage bits, fancy address, a long personal paragraph, the whole bit. I hope I'll be able to talk Bob into helping me go to the post office tomorrow to get them hand-cancelled.

All day long I kept going back and forth between feeling better and crashing into despair. A lot of things are bugging me these days, but at the top of the list is this cannabinoid medication my chronic pain doctor wants me to start taking. I really want it! But when I called the pharmacy today to see if they'd contacted my insurance company, they said they hadn't even received the order from my doctor for the prescription! Arrrggh.... So I called his receptionist for like the third time this week, and gave her the phone # of my pharmacy again. I know that doctor is very busy, but this is ridiculous! =big sigh=

And yet...and yet...I kept on pushing to try to feel better. I did all of my long and demanding Qi Gong routine: the physical part of it is minimal, but it takes a LOT of concentration to do the energy work, the manipulations of chi within my body. I managed to hold my focus through every bit of it, though, and thank God.... by the time I'd finished my second, much more chi-focused meditation, the sun was setting, and my mood was lifting steadily, as it always does at that time of day. (I'm downright allergic to afternoons.)

As I write these words, I'm listening to an excellent St. Patty's Day rock-n-roll radio show—my favorite deejay on Sirius-XM, of course. And some time tomorrow Bob and I will watch our recording of UNC's first-round game in the NCAAs.

So life moves on...best wishes to all of y'all...

Moms gone now.


I'll post more in a few days. I am just so sad.

Lisa, I'm so sorry to hear this. Please take all the time you need, don't feel you have to worry about us. Look after yourself, but know we're right here if you need us.