I am right there with you. Gained back the 50 pounds I lost plus some. Am at my highest weight ever, 287 and starting over.

This really is a lifetime battle, isn't it? Congratulations for finding the courage to re-gain control and get headed back in the right direction. I've been filling overwhelmed at the thought of even trying again. I need to turn around and follow you! I'll start off my changing my ticker and being honest, too.

Sandi, your honesty in dealing with this is refreshing. And, you're obviously not alone in having to deal with this -- in fact, you have lots and lots of company. I lost about 130 pounds 30 years ago, kept it off for 5 years, and then did what you did due to a move, broken engagement, etc. I ended up gaining back the 130 and then evidently decided that another 50 would be icing on the cake of failure that I felt I was.

But, I feel as though my mind is in the game this time because over the last 30 years, I've tried losing weight so many times I've lost count. And it sounds as though you've reached that point as well. You can do this -- we all can -- together!

I recently had my own "come to Jesus meeting" with myself and had to face the hard truth that I've gained back every one of the 55 pounds I lost a couple of years ago. In my opinion, that's the hardest part: Facing the truth and being honest. So you've got that out of the way now.

Congratulations on your renewed commitment. As others have said, it is a lifetime struggle for many (most) of us. Thanks for all you do here for us, Sandi, and I wish you much success in this ongoing process!

Sandi, I'm so glad you're back. You've got this, you can do it.

Big hugs to you!

HI Sandi!! That's hard stuff to admit, but kudos for doing it! You're well on your way and we're all proud of you !

ps. The "oblivious" thing really struck a chord with me! I always felt I was sheltered in The Matrix til i took the RED pill and WOKE UP to reality (ok maybe only nerds get that anaology, google it ha ha)

pps no matter what size you're always A BABE!!! don't forget it

Sandi, I am cheering for you 100%! Facing it is half the battle. You can do this and we will be here supporting you. Hugs!!

Done it! I've gained and lost the same 30lbs at least 3 times. I know exactly what you mean when you say "This time, it's different" "I'll never gain it back because I've got this now." And then...BAM; You're back up there going how did this happen???

Sandi Sandi Sandi!

Is this a mod curse?! I have slowly and steadily been gaining weight since January. I have restarted so many times. It's like... I don't have time to be fat!

So let's restart. I'm looking out for you! You keep me in line.

Sandi You've made a huge step just admitting. I'm losing what I regained and then some and it's hard but the hard is what makes it great in the end. You've got the knowledge and you've got all of us. Just keep swimming!

Oh I think most everyone on this site can relate to this. It's just something about bad food tasting so good and the loss of control. I've lost and regained so much weight in the past 10 years I should have bought stock in the dieting foods industry. The happy part to this wholeeeeee story is that no matter how many times we may have "given up" we still decided to try again. You can do it and you're so worth it!

I think it's just hard to face the music sometimes. Most of us have been there, and the regain I had years ago added an extra 100 pounds on top of my old highest weight! What's important is recognizing the issue so you can get started again. You can do this, and we're always here for support because we understand.

We've all been there Sandi! For me I knew what was going on but I just could not get back on a diet. Day after day I would start off with resolve and then I would have unbearable cravings by the end of the day. The temptation I would feel would completely overwhelm me and I would give in. All my old tricks to get into the diet mindset were not working. It took gaining back all my weight and an extra 15 pounds to see that the weight gain might never end.

So finally, I asked my husband to pay $350 for a diet class for me because I knew I would be more accountable if it was his money. My pride would not allow me to waste his money! And it worked, I'm back on the diet express and doing swell.

So don't beat yourself up because it took you so long to notice, that wasn't your fault. Our bodies don't want to diet again and will throw up all sorts of roadblocks ... but after the first week or so they get used to it again and you'll be back in the groove!

You can do this!!!

Hi Sandi,

While this is only my 2nd post and my 2nd day on this blog. your story is nearly identical to mine and my motivation for joining this forum. I am so appreciative of your honesty and cheer you on as we all go through this together.

i too have been on this weight loss processes for most of my life and 2 years ago i thought it would be the last time. i was down 50 lbs and somehow magically managed to regain 30 of them without thinking twice about putting all of those sugar sweets in my body.

We're here for you, and welcome back!