Krampus - Ugh, I know what you mean about Gold's Gym! When I was in Georgia earlier this year for that 3 month stretch (working) I had to workout there and I really hated it. I'm used to a bit more of a hardcore environment where you can throw the weights around a bit and where people are there to WORK THE EFF OUT! I was disgusted by some of the people there. I don't mean physically or anything like that, but with their work ethic. I would see the same folks day after day in there not doing a damn thing or breaking a sweat. You never know what kind of issues/injuries/limitations people have so I try not to judge, but if you are on the elliptical for 30 minutes and texting the whole time I doubt you are really giving it your all.

LOL, sorry for the rant, but man I hated that gym!

Anyway... Yeah, my hubby knew I was excited for the fair but I don't think he knew how much. I guess when he said "meh, I heard it sucks..." I didn't argue with him because I didn't want to force him to go, even though he would have. I just wanted him to have fun and he really wanted to go fishing so I didn't make a big deal out of it. The fair was 45 minutes south of us, and we went fishing about 90 minutes north so the weather was completely different... LOL it didn't rain at the fair.
Oh well, I figure if nothing else, he owes me one.
I'm sorry Bacon Fest was a snore, but it sounds like you still made the best of it!

TheManekiNeko - You're going to have to explain to me what a "Galician Bread roll with lomo" is... I'm lost! haha

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Ahh, I love being back in my own kitchen! This weeks' new fun things I picked up at the store (I'm trying to do at least one new food each week) were prosciutto and turkey bratwurst.

I added the prosciutto to some chicken, lentils and spinach and it was pretty fantastic! I accidentally added a bit too much salt to it which would have been a good amount, but then I forgot how salty prosciutto is so that put it over the top. Oh well, I know for next time!



The turkey bratwurst I actually cut into chunks and smooshed into little patties so that it would cook faster. I'm impatient! I just steamed up some asparagus on the side and it made a nice meal. The asparagus at the store today were great; huge spears that were perfectly fresh and crispy... nothing I hate more than skinny little asparagus spears!



I'm bummed about going back to work tomorrow, but at least it's a CrossFit day! It's not too bad considering I only have to work 3 days this week and then Sunday I fly back out to Denver for a week-long work trip.

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September hs been crazy so far. We did the whole "weekend warrior" thing, trying to squeeze in as much progress on the renovation as possible. Now that hubby's back to school, he can only work on the weekends. This is going to take forever! Drywall went up, though. :-) fun BBQ weekend, too, plus getting the kiddos all set to start school today. First day of pre-K and first grade! They were so excited. :-) I was stoked to make it Zumba yesterday, and...drumroll please...horrible headache for the rest of the day. Come on!!! :-( I went to brunch with my instructor this morning, as she's also a friend. I miss out on the gym socializing. Lol I have four doctors appointments in the next three days, my van broke down for the first time yesterday, so that's in the shop, soccer practice starts this week and my hubby's birthday on Friday. Phew...craziness is my status quo.

I'm holding steady between 124-126. So anxious for my Botox treatment on Friday morning...it's like my last big straw to grasp! :-/


I freeze blueberries and they do really well! You can toss them in the pancakes as they cook and they will defrost. Blueberry pancakes are my FAVE.

Super cute pics of Joss and Turbo! Looking so svelte and athletic!!

My September goal is to get back to working out! Good lord I am going insane. I'm running a 10K at the end of October and I am not a runner, plus my cardio endurance took a hit this summer. I don't suffer from lack of motivation, or time, which is making this horrendous!!

Holy moly, people is baaaack!

Joss : For the kitchen thingy used to make really thin slice, are you talking about a mandoline? Because personnaly, I don't have one, I use a normal peeler from the Dollar Store LOL Your meal looks amazing. And don't worry, I always mess up a bit with the salt and the proscuitto... you're not alone in this!

Alexis : As Krampus said, no need to be perfect to be here! Glad to see you back girl!

Krampus : BOOO for the Bacon fest, I would have been highly disapointed... I have a passionate relationship with bacon. What mountain are you hiking this weekend? I'm going in New Hampshire in the first week of october to hike Mont Adams... I'm so not ready for that LOL

TheManeki : Erasmus in Spain.. That reminds me of an excellent french movie about that called Pot Luck! Lucky you, I would have like to do something like that. The gym so close to you is so practical... enjoy

Leila : Blueberry AAAAAND banana must be amazinnng. I have a ton of frozen bananas in my freezer, I need to bake some stuff with those sooon! yeah, the flavor was nice. Plus the cayenne paper is supposed to boost your metabolism... way to go on a dessert, than The us size 4 is too big? you are getting tiiiiiiiiiiiny! way to go on the self control during TOM. Self control always go on a trip in jamaica during my TOM... BLEH!

Chickie : I am exausted just reading all the things you've done! I'm so sorry for you for you postzumba headache I really do hope you're doc apointment will help you out! I'm running a 10k at the end of October too, on the 20th! We'll be able to cheer each other up!

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I woke up this morning at 136.2, back to my weigh of last friday. YAY! (Thank you, 16k run who made me sweat my like). Might move up a bit tomorrow, I put soy sauce in my rice tonight and I did not hydrate myself much during the day... we'll see!

I MET MY BOSS AND IT WENT WELL!!! I have stuff to change, but nothing major except one thing. I am sooo relieved. I should be all done with it by friday and free to run around for the whole week next week seeking the tons of paper to fill out before doing my first deposition to my jury.

I'm planning to work on the thesis from home tomorrow, put together a lentils and spinach soup, and go for a run.

It's election day today in province of Quebec, and I'm watching the results coming in live right now. I am suuuper stressed. I hate pretty much all the parties involved in this and I'm not hoping for the best, but just the ''less worst''. At least I have a tea to sip and calm myself LOL

Hello All!

Joss- glad you had a great time with the hubby. Awesome job kicking butt on your hike. Yum...looking dinner. I literally want to eat my computer screen

Krampus- I went to a bacon fest last year and it was really interesting. I found all the non food bacon items to be the best part. I scored bacon flavored lip gloss. The weirdest thing I saw was a contest to see if you could ride a stationary bike while eating bacon. It's supposed to be hard, but I saw people doing it with no problem. Whatever...it's a bacon fest!

Leila- great job with portion control especially during TOM. Why is ice cream so amazing?

Chickie- So sorry you got a headache after Zumba. I know we share some serious Zumba love. Keep us posted on the doctor's appointments. That's awesome you have a 10K goal to train for. I personally like 10K distances. 5K is a little too short (to pay an entry fee and actually get up early on a Sunday for) and a half is way to much training. Are you running a 5K distance already? You have lots of time to get there so no worries, but you definitely are a busy lady!

Turbo- 16K run is awesome! Sounds like it did good things for your mind and body. Glad the meeting with your boss went well. That is always a major relief. I have no idea about the political parties in Quebec, but I have also had that feeling during some elections.
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So the past three weeks have been insane. School is starting to settle down so I will be able to come online more frequently. I literally was just working-barely sleeping etc. I managed to stay on track with eating and happy with things until this weekend....

On Friday morning ( a mere 5 days ago) I weighed in at 123.5. The lowest I have been in a looong time and very happy. So technically I ended August about 7 lbs lighter. I was really good with eating all month-taking only a few days off and I cut out alcohol completely.

Then my boyfriend came into town and I went crazy! I ate whatever I wanted and as much as I wanted. Please note this has nothing to do with his habits- he is actually a very healthy eater and in excellent shape. It was me just feeling like a had a "free pass" after a month of restrictions. Literally I ate whatever sounded good for four days. It didn't make me feel good at all, but I couldn't stop. Yesterday, I had a normal day-how I had been eating all of August. However, the scale said 129.5 this morning!!!!!!

I am in shock. Could it be possible that I negated an entire month of eating super healthy in four days?! I'm really discouraged. Like why should I bother watching what I eat if four days can make it all go away.
What can/should I do? It is TOM but that might add 1-2 lbs of water not 6!

ChikieChicks Hey! Sorry to hear you got a headache after zumba, that really sucks.. good luck with the Doctors appointments, I hope they'll have some answers for you. Well done for maintaining too! Botox? What's that like?

Turbo yay! I'm soo happy to hear that the meeting with your boss went well.. you rock! Ohh cayenne pepper boosts your metabolism.. ok now I understand all of those fad diets of lemonade and pepper, haha, still crazy though. Yeah the us4 was getting big, but only in certain brands.. like those shops that do everything. You know supermarket, clothes, homewares. In normal shops a 4 seems to be just right. But mostly still a 6 on the bottom.. junk in my trunk. Also ahhhh politics, I feel you! It's so frustrating when they're all useless. I stopped following things as much here as it was just making me so depressed. How do you feel about the outcome?

fresh15again I don't know, it really is the best though ha.. who doesn't like ice cream? Ah gad, I want some ice cream now Aww, well first of all well done on your low weight and you know most of the high weight is just water. Still frustrating.. do you think hitting your low weight was the free pass? Sometimes I get like that when I've lost a lot. I'm suddenly like "yeah icecream ooh and some chocolate.. what's that, cheese on everything? yes please. pass the butter. and some ice cream". So don't be discouraged! Just eat normally for a few days and it'll come off again.

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Hey everyone! How are you all today? I had a bit of a crappy day earlier but it wasn't so bad in the end. I didn't get to do my kettlebell workout but I was strimming grass for 2 hours in the evening until the insects started to eat me alive... ahhh *******s. I got bitten right by my eye.. waaa waa waa, anyway :P

I need to poop, it's been a few days and my belly feels horrible and the scale's going up. Yuck.

Leila - I'm really impressed! Buying a chocolate muffin and a small container of B&Js and only eating HALF of each is fantastic. I would have eaten it all and then inhaled everything else too! LOL I don't do well with sugar...
I feel the same way as you do today though; kind of bloated and like I have to poo. Hopefully things will right themselves tomorrow.

Turbo - I have the same feelings about our elections coming up. I don't even want to get started on that business... ugh!
Congratulations on the good news about your thesis! I was rooting for you.
I actually didn't mean a mandolin for the veggies... I don't even have a regular vegetable peeler, can you believe that?? I've never really had a need for one, but I guess I'll grab one next time I see one.

Fresh15again - Well congratulations on hitting the new low. I have TOTALLY been there where I am hitting new lows and then just eat the world. I think its the feeling that it won't do much damage, and if it does you're so teeny that it won't really matter! I'm sure that you didn't gain 6 pounds of real weight, but realistically (without knowing what you ate) it might be more like 2 and 4 pounds of water retention. Just get back on track and give it a few days to even itself out.

Chickie - Aaaah I was so hoping you were over your headaches! Are they exercise induced?! Man, that would be awful... hopefully the Botox treatment works. Fingers crossed for you!

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Nothing revolutionary going on here today; lifted weights, went to CrossFit, ate nummy healthy food, did a bit of working at work... back home to relax and repeat again tomorrow.

Oh, by the way - I'm like addicted to UK weight loss shows the past couple of days! I've been watching 'Secret Eaters' and 'Superfat versus Superskinny' on Youtube. Its so entertaining!

fresh15 : If it's TOM PLUS overeating a bit, you must have up to 4-5 pounds in water. Don't try to panick yet, drink a lot of water to flush down the salt and check your scale in 3-4 days. You will know where you stand in a more accurate way than! But I do agree with you.. those situations suuuuuck!

Leila : Ewww trimming grass. I used to hateee to do that. I'm so happy the lady who rent the place to hire people to do that! Good thing you survive the mutants bugs!

Aaah, elections... There was seriously NO party I was appealed too, so I was just hoping for the ''less worst''. The evening finish in a really dramatic way, a party that hasn't been elected for almost 10 years got elected and there was a shooting while the new prime minister (first woman prime minister elected in the province) by a mad guy. A tech guy working at the place died Everybody is still in shocked and fear what's to come.

Good luck with the pooping issue! (quite a dramatic change of subject!)

Joss : I've look at the supersize vs skinny on youtube and OMG the episode I watched got me totally in a trauma, the skinny girl wasn't skinny, she was freaking anorexic... the bones were sticking out from everywheeeeere! Super super sad I was so shocked, I don't think I will stick to it though lol. I will go back to my TLC ''those people make me feel so much better with my one life'' kinda show (Honey Boo Boo, anyone!?)

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Hey Feathers! Election night finished in a mess, there was a shooting, a guy was killed. I don't want to say that this happens all the time in the US, but still, we are not used to that in Canada :S Super super sad day.

On another note, I went for a 5k run tonight to shake up myself and decided to do a speedwork training. I haven't done a speedwork training for 2 months. I SUCKED BAD. I needed to walk for like 25 seconds and I missed my goal of 5k in 30 minutes by 8 seconds :/ Lesson learned : don't stop doing your freaking speedwork!

I also cooked myself a kickass lentils spinach and indian spices soup this morning to eat for lunch for the rest of the week. It is SUPER filling, exactly what I am looking for. Plus it tastes great. Yay!

Have a good night, Feathers!

(((((joss, krampus, turbo, leila, ion, chickie, fresh15again)))))

Hanging in better.
Giving myself permission to be emotional and experience the emotions... without turning to food. I've been journaling with colored sharpies and listening to crap music. Anything is better than turning to food.

Maybe it's the cooking influence of you feather chefs, but I made a veggie lasagna tonight. Kept me occupied with the process of preparing food rather than the feeling of shoving it into my mouth.

Slowly but surely...

Hello Ladies,

I have been reading here, but not feeling overly talkative. Well, I gave myself a free pass on the weekend, and should probably get back into my normal routine of being more active here and recording my daily weigh ins. I guess I figured if I didn't record them, then the binge didn't count. Most of the water weight has come off now, although there is still 2 lbs sticking around. Not too bad, considering I went off the rails for 2 days and I think I'm still a bit backed up from the junk food.

My dad did call me last weekend though to tell me that he was going to register for that 5k with me. I guess his blood clot in his leg is improving, and he's just going to see how it goes. He seemed a bit pleased that it's just a fun run, and they give you 45 minutes to finish, so he said even if his leg is still on the mend, he won't be too embarrassed about it. I think the main reason he registered now is that the registration fee was going up on September 4th, and he wanted to register before then. We are super budget conscious in my family, something that was necessary growing up in a family with 9 kids.

Not much has been going on differently. I have been planning to run 3 days a week, but I haven't had a week yet where I've made it out there more than twice. Something always comes up on one of the days, and I end up taking over bedtime duty for my husband one of those days. Since I'm already running 5k, I try to be nice and let him go out with his friends if they are getting together on a day that I usually run. Though this week, it was waiting around for a guy to come install our cable internet. He didn't show up until pretty late, so one of us had to manage that, and the other had to put my daughter to bed.

Joss If you liked the spaghetti squash, and want a quicker way to do it, you can do it in the microwave fairly quickly. Obviously not the ideal way to cook it, but I have done it that way, because I just don't have time to bake it during the week. Normally, I'll buy a squash, cut it into quarters, and then freeze each quarter separately. Then I pull it out in the morning to thaw, and just nuke it for like 8 minutes. This is the only way I can make it worth the effort, since I'm the only one eating it. My daughter and husband eat the regular pasta. I also keep riced cauliflower in the freezer in individual portions, and nuke that too, on nights they are having rice.

I have been planning on adding back in more grains, and started buying whole grain pasta / rice so that I won't have to do separate meals for myself / my husband, but I am nervous about adding back in the extra calories from it. I will start that soon though, because otherwise, my husband will complain about me switching him to whole grain for no reason (it was a compromise).

Turbo How to you do speed work? I am still new to the running, so I just aim to finish 5k each time I do it, but I have no idea of how to improve my speed. I'm honestly not too concerned about it at the moment, but it would be something nice to strive for in the future.

fresh15again Don't worry too much about going off the rails. I went up about 7 lbs too, from 2 days of eating everything. After 4 days back to normal, I'm down 5 of those, and am expecting to drop another lb by tomorrow, most likely.

Chickie I hope you manage to finish up those renovations soon. I know how much of a pain it is to have all that on your plate. My personal goal for this month is to paint my daughter's play room. The room has been sitting empty for 2 months, and I haven't even done the taping yet. I want to have it done before her birthday party though, and that's in 2 weeks. It's such a big undertaking for me, because I just do an hour or 2 here and there while she is sleeping, and honestly I need to go to bed about an hour before she does, or I have trouble waking up for my morning workout. It's so tough to give up my only hour of personal time to get it done.

LeilaJey Good job avoiding the binge. I have a lot of trouble with allowing myself to indulge slightly. Right now it's more of an all or nothing mindset, and I need to get past that!

Hey Feathers. 123.8 this morning, getting there, hoping still to see 122s this month (small steps hehe). I felt all weird yesterday and took a full rest day and today hit weights before work. I'm still sore from Monday but I forced myself to do renegade rows again (woof) and I think I'm going to pick a day and just fill it with all the full-body exercises that are the WORST to do. What's everyone's LEAST FAVORITE exercise? I'd say my list would include mountain climbers, burpees, renegade rows, and I've never done a Turkish get-up but they look dreadful.

Last night my PSYCHO NEIGHBORS got in a huge fight involving dogs and there is DOG BLOOD splattered all over my front steps. Someone's dog bit someone else's dog and this turned into a really heated screaming match between the 1st floor tenant in my building and the next door neighbor and her friend. As funny as it was hearing "B!TCH IMMA BEAT YO C*NT A*S" over and over again, it makes me sad that they are all so insane. Both parties have complained to me about each other before. 1st floor tenant thinks the neighbors are psycho hoodrat bullies and the neighbors think the 1st floor tenant lets her dogs use the block as a public toilet (I've never seen poop anywhere) and hates black people and claim the police say she's crazy. I'm going to just keep on being boring and pleasant to everyone...gosh.

Alexistrophic You are 100% always allowed to experience what you are feeling dude. Glad you are finding other outlets that don't involve eating your emotions. How was the veggie lasagna? That sounds goood.

TurboMammoth Gosh I'm sorry to hear the elections escalated to violence and someone was shot and killed. People get shot in my city at least twice a month because I guess we love violence here, but that doesn't mean it's not terrible! I'm going to be in England for US Election Day but I'm sure it will be chaos. As for speedwork, better 8 seconds than 8 minutes from your time goal! I'm sure the next 5K you run will be <30 minutes!

JossFit I guess what made me the maddest about Gold's wasn't the clientele so much as the whole "QUICK FIX FOR ALL YOUR PROBLEMS" shtick, which is easily transparent to anyone who has ever tried to lose 5 pounds. I wanna check out those shows though they will probably also make me mad. The brats and asparagus look SOOOOOO GOOOOOOOOOOD.

LeilaJey Bug bites make me a tantrum-y whiny little person too. I feel your pain. Really impressed that you warded off a mini-binge and made it last. You know, I bet we could share some clothes...if I could dress in ANY WAY POSSIBLE I'd go for "alt-pinup" but I'm just not the right shape or color or anything for that. I'm SO EXCITED to shop in the UK in November and try to fit into 6s and fail and cry.

fresh15again Water weight!!! Seriously, 4 days off plan can probably be offset by 8 days on plan or less. You absolutely did not undo all your work!

TheManekiNeko Enjoy your year in Spain - post lots of pictures of the food!

Turbo - I agree that Supersize vs Superskinny isn't exactly "feel good" television, but I really highly recommend Secret Eaters. It's funny, cheeky, informative and entertaining without being at all scary or depressing. It's basically folks saying "I don't know why I'm gaining weight because I hardly eat anything at all!" and then come to find out (hidden cameras and investigators following them) that they are chowing down MASSIVE amounts of calories without realizing it. It's actually really relevant to a lot of the people on this forum who say "Um, am I not eating enough? Why do I still weigh so much?" They actually say all the things that I want to say to some of these people but don't want to be rude... haha

I do a lot of speed work myself. I'm not a big fan of running for distance, so instead I keep things intense and break it up into intervals when I run. Today for example, I did 4 rounds of 5 minutes HARD running with sprints followed by a 2 minute walk. Since the rounds are short enough to run at a high effort but long enough to actually fatigue me, it helps both my endurance AND my speed.

Your soup sounds delish! As you can probably see from my pictures, I'm a big fan of spinach and lentils, especially together.

Alexis - Learning to deal with your emotions while keeping food out of it is HUGE! The fact that you're hanging in there and trying to find new coping skills is nothing to gloss over. We are a world of emotional eaters, and I can tell you the I personally used to be the WORST emotional eater. It wouldn't matter what it was; if the smallest thing happened that was unexpected or somehow put me off my plan I would immediately turn to food. I don't know when it was that I finally got a grip on things... I guess it happened over time and now looking back I can see how bad I used to be with emotional eating and binging. The fact that you are conscious enough of it to actively try NOT to use food to soothe yourself is impressive.

Jessica - What happened this weekend to make you stray from you plan? It didn't look like you were upset over it, so was it just more of a break or did you actually binge as you mentioned?
Either way, yeah, it's probably a good idea to get back on plan. I wouldn't stress the gain too much - we've all been there and as everyone else has said, it's probably 80% water retention and the remaining bit isn't hard to get off if you just buckle down a bit and focus for a week or so.

Thats great that your dad is feeling well enough to do the race with you!

Thanks for the tip on the squash too. I did like the flavor and need to experiment with it a bit more, but I haven't had the opportunity lately as I've been traveling a bit more.

Krampus - Thats a good point about the gym atmosphere. I didn't like the televisons with "Golds Gym TV" on all the time and you could tell that the trainers didn't give a crap about their clients. The patrons weren't the only ones glued to their cell phones! I really dislike that Golds used to be snyonymous with the Mecca of bodybuilding, but in reality the chain as a whole caters to the 'Quick Fix' crowd. Then again... that's America for you!

I'll be having the Turkey bratwurst and asparagus for dinner again tonight.

Hmmm, least favorite exercises? Burpees for sure, Swiss Ball passes (abs), box jumps... thats about it. I actually love to workout because I'm a sicko.

Wow, your neighbors sound like fun... yeesh! I'm happy that I live in a house and have nice neighbors!

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Is it just me or is today like CRAWLING by? Ugh, I wish it would go faster! I just hate when I do all my work early on in the day and then have to sit here piddling the rest of the afternoon away watching the clock. At least I was productive today; I got my military records all updated to reflect the new marriage and I got my Degree nomination done so that I'll get my diploma next month for my CCAF... among other menial things.

TBH I'm just excited to get home and watch more Secret Eaters! LOL

My hubby surprised me this morning with an itinerary in my email Inbox... he's coming out to visit over Columbus Day Weekend (October 5-8). It will be nice to have him here and to be able to cook in MY kitchen and sleep in MY bed! Now I just have to figure out some activities for us while he's here. I think we can go to the pumpkin farm and pick pumpkins, check out the zoo, maybe go trap shooting... we'll figure it out.

Joss The weekend started out okay, but I went to visit a friend on Saturday, and was just planning on tossing something in the oven from the freezer when I got home, and doing a side salad with it. When I mentioned it to my husband, he suggested pizza instead. Normally if he wants pizza, I'll make myself a cauliflower crust pizza, but I didn't have the time for that. We ordered pizza, and he always insists on getting 2 mediums, because he likes to eat cold leftover pizza. Well, with all that pizza, I went a bit overboard, and then threw caution to the wind and ate a ton of the junk food in the house (which I stock for my husband, and usually do okay avoiding).

Sunday I had totally planned on getting back on track, and had planned on making salmon for dinner. But my daughter complained about it, and I just didn't feel like the whole ordeal that ensues whenever I make salmon (usually I end up sitting at the table with her for over an hour waiting for her to eat). So then she and my husband started talking about corn dogs, and at that point I made a conscious decision to just eat off plan for the rest of the day. Obviously I should have just made the salmon and not stressed so much about my kid not eating it.

But Monday everything worked out well back on plan, and we even had that salmon for dinner, and my kid even ate half of hers so that we could do something fun together afterwards.

I don't really stress a day or two off plan, because I know I can undue it within a week or so, but I have really been hoping to buckle down and lose those last 10 pounds. It's been really slow going since I got down to a lower weight, and the worst part of it is because I know that it's because I've been loosening the reins. I know slow and steady wins the race, but it's hard not to think that if I could've kept things up, I'd probably be at goal by now.

Alexis : Doing something of yourself when thinking of food is the best way to handle it, in my opinion (plus, who am I kidding, coloring sharpies are always so much fun! ) Hang in there! You are doing wonderful

Jessica : You must be so thrilled that your father is finally doing the 5k race with you! When is the big day? You are going to have so much fun doing this together! You asked about running speedwork. I usually do 2 types of speedwork : some tempo run, that is a run when you push your speed a little bit (about 30 sec faster a kilometer than your normal pace) or intervals run, where you run for a while and you sprint for a specific time or distance (when I don't have my garmin, I also do that using stuff around me like ''okay, I'm sprinting until that three'', than you job to catch your breath a bit and you start again! Speedwork is usually fun, there is thrill of running fast that is adding to your run

Krampus : ... nice neighborhood! I hope the doggy that got his blood all over your porch is fine though I also hate Mountain Climbers! Puttnig altogether the workouts you dislike in one day... You're gonna be in a happy mood doing that

Joss : I have to admit that secret eaters seem a bit less traumatic than supersize superskinny And I do agree with you, speedwork is fun and helps to improve endurance/speed so so so much! ... it just wasn't a good idea to stop doing them for 2 months. ^^

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I was at 136.2 for the past 2 days, and this morning I was at 136.4 lbs. No biggy. I hate this huge quesedillas last night, it probably did not helped :P I've been eating okay today, with a bowl of soup, a 35 calories yogourt and an apple. I'm gonna put together a super orange sauce stir fry tonight with tons of veggies and I might skip the vermicellis (I don't know why, I'm not feeling like eating pasta and rice this week. I just want to stuff my face with veggies... weird) (but still better to want to stuff my face with chips, for exemple)

I can't wait for the weekeeeeed. I probably gonna have to work on my thesis a bit through it but still. Weekend. Relaxing. I might even try to drag the boyfriend to pick apples.

Joss Heh, I'm not sure how I did it. Usually I'd be the same, y'know finish the muffin and ice cream, feel guilty and annoyed and continue eating.
Those UK shows sure are entertaining alright! I watched an episode of secret eaters and I felt the same, the amount of people who really don't think they're eating anything and that being fat is somehow out of their control is shocking. I saw something similar in a documentary called 'why are thin people not fat' (at least I think it was in that). This woman couldn't figure out why she wasn't losing weight because she ate so much healthy food. She ate healthy food but like giant fruit salads with hundreds of calories.
Hope the day sped up for you and you can get back to your addiction haha

Alexistrophic Hey! That's great, sometimes you really just need to let things out and putting pen to paper is excellent. It's like eating away your feelings is just keeping everything inside. Mm lasagne! I really want to make spinach and salmon lasagne. I enjoy cooking a lot more now and I put a lot of effort into it so that it's something I enjoy and appreciate.

Jessica I'm also fighting the all or nothing attitude, I'm winning every now and again so that's new! 2lbs of water ain't too bad and it'll come off easy!
Whole wheat pasta's pretty damn good. I usually just have a few pieces and mix it with vegetables because I don't like the bloated feeling. It's a lot more filling than normal pasta.

krampus Oh dear! Your neighbours make me appreciate my little country cottage a lot more.. I forgot about neighbours. I guess being polite is all you can do. Sorry to hear that though, that's crazy! What do the other neighbours think?
Nah, you look awesome! I think most of the pin up look is about the waist anyway. I don't have the figure for the pin up look really but I like it. I have a waist and hips but not much in the boob department unless I have some help so I nearly always wear some kind of waist belt for the effect. I wear a lot of black, boots, faux fur, animal print. I have a sudden fascination with 20s fashion though, I think the women were just gorgeous. I have a cloche hat that I wear sometimes with the other stuff. I love Dita von Teese style dressing, but I'm not classy haha damn

Turbo Aww apple picking, that sounds like the cutest thing ever.. aww, so romantic. I picked apples with my boyfriend last year at our neighbours house but it was just a dodgy ladder against a hay bale hah, scary!
How close are you to finishing your thesis?
That's crazy about the shooting too.. ack, sorry!


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I'm all bloaty so I decided to eat all of the fibre today, I'm so full though. I had porridge with blueberries for breakfast, porridge with apple, rasperries and grapes for lunch. Another apple (they're small) then for dinner I had honey glazed baked salmon, roasted mushrooms (they were soo good. Lots of garlic and pepper), steamed brocolli and 2 baby potatoes with the skin on. Then I made another baked pancake hah, yum, I put raisins, apple and a banana into the batter and topped it with a few almonds. Soo good! I'm trying to drink lots of tea/water, hopefully it works for me and I don't just explode

My bikini arrived. I look hilarious in it, I still have a long way to go. I ordered it in S though, as I'm planning on wearing it next year not this year. I wish I had boobs.

I'm going away for the weekend so I'll be miles behind when I get back I'm sure but I hope you all have a great weekend!