Hi LillyPad, I think you are wonderful because, you have started the battle and we are in the same boat i also love a good vent its the best! But I would like to share a phrase with you

Dont let a lapse become a relapse. Just because you have had a binge doesn'y mean you need to chuck yourself off the band wagon, you just need to change lane! Keep strong and Keep ranting because when you feel skinny and fantastic it will make for good reading for yourself to see how far you have come!

Keep in touch lovely!