Do I still have days where i get depressed and wonder if life will get any better? sure dont we all? Do I still have days where i think about the past and everything thats happened to me? everything from my hypothyroidism to dealing with watching my mom be beat as a child, to rape to over eating to anorexia and cutting and depression and anxiety... ive been there and ive done ALLLLLL that i know what your going through ....but its the future that keeps me looking forward....a future with my son.... so when you have those down days and life seems like its shi*....do something that makes you happy... talk to someone who makes you happy... **** come on here and shoot me a line... id be happy to sit and chat!
Just remember that in the end nothing is worth taking your own life... whether its just thots or actual actions... seek the help you need... from a counsellor or a friend... sometimes its easier to hear from a friend then from a counsellor and i can say that because i am one... i have my degree in developmental psychology ive counselled and i completely understand. 
