I am LMAO. Seriously!

The things relatives say and do...if its not sabotage, its a backhanded complement.

I love the sentances that end in 'for a girl your size' (i.e., That dress would look good on a girl your size or You move pretty quick for a girl your size).

I am right there with you all, except I have gained. I am starting to realize I have a problem. But I have decided I have to cut myself some slack. Sunday will start Phase 1/detox for me, and I'm telling myself now since I indulged in Christmas, I will not be indulging in New Year's except for one glass of sparkling cider with DH (tradition). I have to get back on track, I'm hoping that I can concentrate the next year on making things a habit, that is my goal so NEXT Christmas I will not fly off the handle like this Christmas....I don't understand why Christmas has to be about spending money and giving people crap to eat...LOL. I just really don't! :P

I hear ya Pink. I was doing really well, until everything else fell apart. And then sure enough I went right back to food as the way of making myself feel better. It of course did not work, but by the time I had realized what was going on, I could not reign it in completely, so I just had to minimize the damage.

I keep saying this every single year, but I mean it this one. I am doing a "homemade" Christmas next year. Seriously and for real. I usually have a slight issue with the Holidays, but this year is just horrible.

I'm the same way with food Lazy...it is horrible to be an emotional eater. I heard recently that eating is a way to stop yourself from feeling an emotion, and how true is that?
My issue this year is that I have been trying to have a baby for over 6 years, and finally got pregnant this year only to miscarry at 9 week 6 days. It has just sent me into a depression. I am surprised I have even been as successful as I have been this year. But my due date was January 29th, so its just there in the back of my mind ALL the time...plus Christmas is just depressing dealing with infertility over all. Don't worry, I'm not still depressed, I have good days and bad, but I feel the depression cloud lifting which is good.
Anyways, just wanted to air that out there. LOL. But I do understand...

It is totally true Pink.

I grew up in a not very nice environment, and feeling was just not an option. As I have gotten older, I have recognized when I eat my feelings. I thought that I had it under control, but obviously not.

I am sorry that you have had such trouble with getting pregnant I cannot even begin to understand that, since I never had that issue. However my sister went through a similar situation, and she ended up with two beautiful daughters (age 13 and 10 now) She did it with one bad cystic ovary. So hang in there, it will happen and when it does, it will be totally the absolutely right time and you will have a beautiful healthy baby to go with the beautiful healthy new you. *hugs*