Hi everybody, I've been reading but haven't had much time. Amy , I look forward to getting to know you. I'm glad you told us about yourself.

Aunty Jam, Yay for your hubby's job! I'm so happy for you.

I'm tired but did manage to cook a casserole to feed us for the next 2 nights after I got home from work. I have to work both jobs the next 2 days and we decided to try to stop eating out. I have to get stricter with my calories and working out. It's really hard if your tired or don't plan ahead.

thanks hope

yes I agree it is hard to eat right when you don't make plans and when you're tired! good for you for fixing 2 night's worth of supper.

I did accomplish something yesterday, I tackled the piles of forms that I had to submit for financial assistance for husband's hospital stay. I am pretty sure I did everything correctly (copies of tax return, pay stubs, bank statements, all that ) and a cover letter, which I hope correctly politely asked for help, but also said I would make payments for the rest of my life if needed

There is a def lack of communication from the insurance company regarding my bike...they sent forms, for me to sign over the title and ownership to them, but haven't told me a clue of how much they will give me for her?? that is not right in my book.

DH is still hurting all over, he says he's in 'agony'. I am an awful wife because there is only so much sympathy and fussing over that I can do. I realize I am having to deal with a temporary difficult time in life and I am failing I think, but I am keeping the house in order and doing my best. And today I go back to work for the yucky winter job.

I am still pretty blah about everything. It was a hard hit for me to enter this season with husband's accident. At least I've been working out each day for almost a week.

Hey everyone... guess what we got up here in Canuckville. Snow. Can you tell I'm thrilled? It's not supposed to stay but it's still a PITA. I hate the grey sky and the fact that everyone forgets how to drive during the first snow fall. Combine that with the construction in this city and everything moves at a snails pace and makes me late for work! To top it off my stupid daylight thing isn't working... gggrrrr... I'm going to take it apart as soon as I have time and see what I can do with it.

Amy - It's really hard to be a step parent when the other one doesn't support you. I don't know what I would do if my husband blew me off when I had problems with his daughter. For the most part she's a really good kid but they all have their issues. How old are your step sons? Can you sit your husband down and tell him how it affects you that he doesn't give support? The kids need to respect you as an adult even if you're not their Mom. Kudo's on your job, there is no way I could do that.

Vermont - Very, very nice bike. Is there any way you can make your husband understand you need to take care of yourself too? I know complaining wears thin after a while.

Hope - Thanks, it's ironic now that hubby really hates his job. Ha ha ha. That's my ironic laugh.

Hubby called me up to vent about how much he hated his job.. I said "Go ahead, I know what it's like to hate what you do and still have to do it every day...." He shut up right quick. This morning he said he was having a hard time getting up in the morning to go to "that" job. I told him with a smile I completely understood. I don't think he finds complaining to me to be very satisfying... I wonder why? Anyway, he has an interview for a better job on tuesday so he's going to have to play hookey. I really hope he gets it.

Aunty Jam, I'm with you, I've done many a job I've hated. You just have to suck it up and do what has to be done. Unfortunately I dont know many people who don't hate their job at least half of the time.

Vermont, I think they make paperwork like that so you'll give up. Such a pain. I'm sure you're exhausted and that's why you're running out of sympathy for your hubby. I can't believe you're still managing to work out.

I've got one more long day tomorrow. I leave at 8am and get home at 10:30pm. I did some training on computer software today and my brain is fried. I think I would learn faster if I wasn't so tired from the second job. I'm not complaining. Some people can't find a job and I have 2. I'm very lucky.

My workout plan is to workout at least 30 minutes every day that I'm off or just work one job. I need to start that this week.

Took some reading to catch up from a months worth of stuff...

Vermont-so so very sorry about your bike and your husband. My husband polishes his bike like every chance he gets and would be devastated if anything ever happened to it. I am sure its hard. I saw your post last month about people just letting you down...I TOTALLY get that. I have felt like that certain times and I dont think some people do it on purpose they just get wrapped up in life and dont bother looking around. It stinks because you are a person that looks around at others to see who needs help! Hope everything works out with the help for the hospital!

aunty- thats awesome your dh finally got a job!!! ya!!! You have been waiting for a while!!!

Hope-Looks like your keeping busy!!!! maybe that will help ward off the depression?

Hi to all the newbies!! I will try to write to know you!

So I am still only at like a 10lb weight loss. Getting ready to start up a facebook page for that. I just got back on facebook after being off for a month. I was a nice break to get things straight! I apparently need to be held accountable. Do a weekly weigh in and daily post excercise. I am trying to concentrate more on the eating because its not going to matter a lick if I over eat and excercise!! So I am going to work on getting that under control and then have some little daily things I can do differently to help me get movement in!! Well I could soo write more but its almost 3 am and I am BEAT!!! Plus its suppose to be 72 tomorrow so I need to be up early and get the boys school done so we can go out to the park and take fall pictures and gather some leaves to do some fall crafts!!
I need my sleep so I dont snap at my kiddos!!!

One funny lil thing from the day. My 7 yr old LOVES to help with laundry. Well I had him switch clothes over yesterday for me while I was getting ready for us to leave. He just put them into the dryer and turned them on. Well today I am taking the clothes out and all these dryer sheets keep coming out. I am like WHAT in the world. So I am mad because like its money being wasted. I yell for him I was like HOW MANY DID YOU PUT IN..As if he counted them as he put them in...Hes like i dont know. I was like YOU WASTED ALL THESE SHEETS...he sheepishly says well I just thought it would make the clothes smell really good...HOW can I be mad at that?? UGHH SO I calmed down and after I got done switching the laundry over I was washing I explained that the people who made the sheets made them to work for a whole load of laundry that we didnt have to put 15 plus dryer sheets in one load!! I counted 15 from one load there may be more inside the clothes...hahaha!!

Well everyone MAKE it a good day!!!!

and sorry about the snow..we had a dusting but it didn't stick (except its still on the mountaintops) Yes, isnt' it crazy how people who live in a winter-cold-snow climate, forget how to drive in the first few inches of snow!

momof4 - HI!!! I was just thinking we should do a shout out to you thank you for the sympathy about my selfish self-centered friends I just have to accept it for now, but hey, I will think twice in the future if someone wants me to buy something from a home party or stuff like that, stuff I used to feel obligated to do because it was a 'friend'. That was So funny about your son using so many dryer sheets!! and good on you for taking a breath and realizing he was sincere and not trying to be wasteful. Bet those clothes smelled great

and yes, it is a hard fact that we have to really, limit what we eat to lose weight, besides work out . I forget the equation but its something like 80% food, 20% work out. I'd rather have it the other way around!!

hope - WOW that is a long day, 8 to 10:30!! And you are certainly 'counting your blessings' when you are thankful that you are working 2 jobs - with all your limbs, right thanks for the kudos on the working out...I have no exucses time-wise now with this new schedule, I work 11 am to 6 pm, so if I get up at 6, have coffee and computer time, I have at least an hour to devote to working out, plus do a few home things, so the place doesn't look TOO wrecked when I step in the door at 6:30.

and hello and to everyone else.

I've been doing a "Slim in Six" tape, got it for $1. it is standing aerobic work and she uses resistance bands for strength, but i dont have them so I use my hand weights. then some floor work, I can NOT finish the leg and butt part, it is hard! the whole workout is good, you sweat.

Vermont Mom- just be sure to make copies of everything you fill out and makes notes about when you send them in, that way you can keep track of everything. Get one of those accordian type folders and file everything in that, organization always helps. I think with your DH your patience has to be so thin right now, it is hard to continually support and care when you need to be taken care of too. Men especially make difficult patience.

Aunty Jam- Everyone hates theirjob, that is why they call it work. Thats what I tell my DH at least once a month...

Hope4me- I think preparation is the key, I always try to make extra for lunches or the next day, also casseroles and things freeze well, so you can always do that. Fast Food is the devil, yet I can not resist.

momof4- funny story, One day I was at the bank and there was an older gentlemen in front of me and he was telling the teller about his wife passing about a year ago and how he was now doing things he never thought he would do. He had 3, 3 separate dryer sheets stuck on the back of his shirt. He said the same thing your child said, he just thought more would be better.

Snow, I can not even imagine. I live in Tennessee and it is 81 right now, it is suppose to storm,side effects from the latest hurricane, but I hope it holds off tonight is my sons football game. Hopefully the last. I know it sounds bad to hope they dont keep winning I am just sooooooooooo over it..

I have 6 children. 3 step and 3 bioligical. My stepkids are 14,12,7 and my biological children are 12,10 and 2. I love my DH so much, he is a very kind man and very loving. He is good to the kids, but he is certainly not the discipilinarian he needs to be. I am just trying to cope with everything and practicing on trying to concentrate on certain things instead of worrying about everything. I easily get worked up, so I am trying to really keep the stress level down, If I could figure out how not to be an emotional eater I would do better.

This past weekend I started painting again. I use to paint all the time when I was yonger and in college and then when the kids came my hobbies and passions cease to exsist. I only painted a train picture for the 2 year olds room but it was something and made me feel good. so I am going to paint more.

I hope everyone has a wonderful and blessed day!!!!

Amym

Amym - it is really nice to be getting to know you I can't imagine a household with so many children or do 'his' kids sometimes stay at another household? I wish you all good things in dealing with the inevitable 'downs' with a blended family.

that is also funny about the gentleman with the dryer sheets stuck to his shirt

thanks for the tip about keeping track of files, letters and such. I'm glad that as soon as we got home from the hospital, I put all pieces of info in one folder..then as soon as I got to the store I bought individual folders for the 2 hospitals, the ambulance, the insurance co., and receipts. Also thanking goodness that I do have a laptop and printer for communication.

The inevitable happened this morning - husband and I had a horrible blow up. Yelling and cursing on his part, just tears and hurt on mine. He thinks that I think 'the world revolves around me' and that I find fault with everythng he does. Last night I did ask that he not say on our motorcycle forum, 'ride 'em if you got 'em' because frankly, I don't have one and I thought that was insensitive; and this morning he did something that caused the dog to jump and scratch me; and his 'sorry' sounded insincere and I said so.

I pointed out that I have been 'there' for him since 20 minutes after his accident. I am sorry I cant do anything to relieve his pain but I also have to maintain the house and work and everything. I know in my heart that I am still resentful that he wrecked my cycle; he took my cycle that morning because his was in the shop AND because he has neglected to care for 'his' car, he let it get past inspection date and just let it sit in the driveway, whereas I have to maintain 'my' car . But I also know that I did not deserve to be lashed out at like that this morning.

i should just accept that this is a crappy time in our life and we just have to get through it.

thanks chicks

Phew. Husband said he was very sorry about this morning's outburst.

My depression has been bad for the past few weeks, and it is just a sucky shame that it's happened at the same time DH is going through a tough time. He thought that my bad mood and attitude, and out-of-character alcohol drinking was because I was lashing out at him.

I think we're a little better now, for 'having it out'.

Mom, glad you came back. A son that likes to do laundry? Cool.

Amy, I'm glad you are here and sharing with us.

Vermont, I'm sorry you had such a crappy day but hopefully you feel like you got to get some things off your chest.

I want to say more to each of you but I'm just beat. I'm going to bed early and I can't wait.

(Wow, lots of good discussions... to bad I'm wrapped up in all my own carp right now).

Guess what... hubby quit his job. I'm not sure how I feel about that. On one hand I'm pissed and on the other I can't believe I'm rationalizing it. He didn't get along with anyone there... partly because of his attitude, partly because of what I heard, they were all idiots. I guess they didn't put in the alarms according to building code and when he questioned them they said "We don't worry about code, that's for the contractor to worry about". How can you not worry about code??? If your work is not up to code it is not good enough! They didn't really live up to their end of the bargin either, which was that he would end up office tech manager. They didn't give him any training and on his last day there instead of sending him out with the other guy they kept him in the shop, made him sweep and clean toilets. The guy who hired him was finally back in the office (he's been really sick) and he wasn't impressed with the manager who was making hubby do this. But the two talked and then nothing was said to my hubby so we don't know what went on there. It kind of seems to me like he was on his way out anyway but... holy freaking carp!!!!! He only lasted a week??!?!?!?!? I'm pissed. Now what do I do? I kind of thought if he quit I'd kick him out. Is that drastic? He has that interview today... he spoke with them on the phone yesterday and it sounded good but who knows. I can't survive on just my income either.

Also, I'm doubting myself about going back to school now. If you'll all excuse me... I'm just going to crawl under my desk.

Thanks for all the comments....I got to read most of everyones post last night but was too exhausted to post. We just got two new foster kids. After the last boy I had I said no more kids only teenagers...well they called tuesday about a 2 n 4 yr old. I was like ummmmmm I will have to pray about it and get back to you..they were like how soon can you get back to me? I was like ummm after lunch. Then I was like do you not have anywhere for them to go? shes like no. I said is there behavior issues? No its because of the parent. After much thought and prayer and talking with dh..we said ok well give it another try! Yes Yes that leaves me with a 2yr old, 3 yr old, 4 yr old, 4 yr old, 6 yr old, 7 yr old!! Yes Im crazy!! lol Well so far it hasnt been to bad. They are dolls. They came with tears in their eyes and scared to death! they really just need love and someone to care!! DEF. NOT like the last boy!! They are right now pushing their limits to see how far they can go. Its just making me keep on top of things. All the rooms are reorganized cause I had to move them around. I am going to have to start a hour by hour date book because they both get breathing treatments and my girls go to school in morning the boy goes to school in afternoon, visits twice a week....etc! anyways not a lot of time I need to get them finished with lunch and nap then work on the boys school work!! This may have been just what I needed to push me into being more organized. With this many kids YOU MUST be organized or you will want to just crawl in a whole and die!!! LOL
Have a great day all!

awww...Jam Please come out from under your desk!!! The sun will shine again!!!!

Mom, yes, you are crazy. A saint. But crazy.

Aunty Jam, I don't know the whole situation but I would be pissed too. One week? Come on. I hope he gets the other job. Very few families can live on one income.

Well, another day has passed and I didn't exercise and why did I bake brownies? Bad, bad decision. If I don't start working out I'm not going to be able to survive working 2 jobs. I'm already just worn out. This next week will be bad, four 14 hr days in a row and TOM will be here. I plan on taking over for satan that week. I'm sure I will put him to shame.

Ladies - I still read, I just have nothing to say. I miss you all. When I get my act together, I'll post.