Well, I had been thinking about my age and health a lot, knowing that I should lose weight to get healthier, but what actually made me say TODAY is the day? Believe it or not, Johnny Depp, lol! I was watching a super hot video of Johnny Depp on youtube, and suddenly it occurred to me that Johnny Depp is about my age, and yet he is so hot and I am so not, and he has always been attracted to thin women, so even if in my wildest dreams I got to be in the same room with him in person, he wouldn't even notice me. I used to be quite attractive by most standards, but I feel my obesity (I was officially "obese" when I started this in March) robbed me of that. Men, even men older than me, don't notice me anymore. Now, please understand I'm married and I'm not looking for men to hit on me, but not to even notice me? Even a little? Other pretty women my age get noticed, but it's like I'm invisible! So, as I watched that video that day, I realized I am tired of being invisible and obese and unhealthy. So, thanks Johnny Depp!
