chilenita815 -- welcome!! I get discouraged easily as well, and I also have my alarm set for a 5am workout (this is my second week -- YAY!). I really just try to think about how GOOD I feel after I've worked out or done something active. I wish I could bottle that feeling and tap into it when I needed that little "push", and I'd give you some too. Now, I'll just say we can BOTH do this, WE CAN!

Momof4under5: I wish I lived near you; I swear I'd come help you today. Are there any sources of help - near or far? Will your parents buy you a nanny or cleaning help for Christmas?

I have identical twins - but now they're 30 - beautiful, educated, accomplished wonderful daughters. But I remember some difficult days.

You probably don't want to hear this, but enjoy your two-year-old and don't take her negative reaction to everything personally. She's doing pretty much what she's supposed to be doing...beginning to see herself as a separate person from you and building independence. Have you tried not asking her any "yes" or "no" questions...and making everything a choice she can make. Like "Would you like Twinky-Dinks or French toast for breakfast?"

She's not defying you...she's becoming her. Rearing children is the hardest job I've ever had by far...and it does seem impossible and endless. But it's true: I miss those little people terribly; those were some of the best times I've ever had. Just Fed Ex me that little girl!

Hope your week gets LOTS better.

sandy-LOL..she would probaly drive the fed ex truck there her self. As to choices of things like that they do get them because of there being 4 they do pick different things but its like when shes into something she not suppose to...the other ones will just stop and walk a way her she will keep doing it and when she does stop she will still stay right where she was..so trying to paint and keep her in the area in the church that she should be in is a task because if she just goes where shes not suppose to then I have to stop painting and go make her do what I asked...after stopping a hundred times it takes forever to paint.

my one freind from college called today cause i wrote her last nite when i was stressed she was trying to figure out things that can help. my mom does foster care so all her time goes towards that she helps when she can. My friend told me to see if there is a mops group around or maybe "mentor" a girl from my youth group but most of mine are younger and not into it and the older ones are in a lot of trouble. The one that did great helping me ended up steal stuff from me and has gotten into a lot of trouble and is in jail till she can get into an rtf...sooo yeah...i guess it will all work out!!
ok well I just got home and i need to see where my laundry is at...he did switch some over but didnt get very far on anything else. my boys cleaned off the table but its all stacked on the counter so i gotta do that and start folding...but over all i am in a good mood no feeling too too stressed!! ok lata girls

Hi everyone. I haven't blogged in here for several months. During that time, I got sidetracked from my weight loss efforts and put back on about 11 pounds. Oh well, I'm good for now. Lots of stress in my life and seems like I just grab the first cookie or chocolate or whatever I see. Good luck to all.

I'm feeling a little down too. I'm not sure why. I just don't feel good about myself or my life right now.

to those who need it.

Hi Suzy, nice to meet you!

awww sassy and hope...that sux...i hate to think what winter is going to be like cause sometimes winter just seems so gloomy....i dont know..ok lata

Oh dear, it must be one of those days - I am very low, too. Welcome back Suzy

In fact, I'm not even going to say anything else and hope this funk passes FAST!

Heather

Wow must be something in the air! lol. Big to all that need it.

Good morning all,

I feel a little better than yesterday. I have the day off so we'll see how it all goes down.

Hope you all feel better soon.

Well i guess I will continue on the track of laundry...got lots of folding to do. I lost another pound I am just happy I am not gaining!! When i see that it makes me what to just jump on and excercise like a mad woman!! Ok well gotta get going!!! lata

Yeah I only managed to do the 5 minute brisk walk then 5 minutes of the first workout....the walk 90 jog 60...thats frustrating that I am that flipping outta shape!! err....

Ok thought my day was going ok but its not. I can feel that depression cycle like i had at the old house. Because I am so far backed up on house work you would not believe the stacks of clean clothes baskets in my living room and there are still tons more to be washed. My house is "straightened" up but its still a mess...This is what happened before because everything got so overwhelming I would just sleep or lay around. Then i get extremely stressed with everything else. I am trying to figure out how i can get christmas money and nothing seems to be working out. because of the family being so big (all my kids) I need over 1000 dollars and i cant pull that from my overly tight budget. Then for the fact that my dh is committing himself to more than he needs to. Like this week sun church then drive kaci home, Mon-he worked then had to go to church to practice music, then tuesday is prayer then wed is church then thursday funeral and paintint at church at night, then friday work be home at 8 then sat work and going to practice music again then sun church and drive kaci then all next week he works during the day and we have vbs i tried and tried to tell him to do his closes that week so we could atleast see him during the day then but he didnt want to do that...but normal weeks he has prayer tues church wed. work late friday than has to be at the church on monday to do youth stuff then sat. work and practice music...I am just frustrated because he doesnt see it or understand and takes offense when I mention it....

Well anyways my dishes from last night are still there and something in it stinks and needs cleaned and my piles of laundry to fold, piles of laundry to wash, my dirty bathroom, my cluttered hallway with stuff to go to the attic, my carpet that needs scrubbed, kitchen counters need cleaned and decluttered, floor needs scrubbed, Need to clean the laundry room cause there are boxes everywhere and stuff just all over not organized at all, the outside needs cleaned up of trash and grass needs mowed. Oh yeah and the only thing he does really completely do it the trash and of course he forgot to put it out so now it will sit there and stink anther week, I yanked the treadmill outta the laundry room today and just pushed what was on it off cause i knew if i had to actually go thru the stuff i would never get on the treadmill so its just awful in there....BUT SOO I see all this and it just completely overwhelms me and stresses me out so all i want to do is go sleep so guess what i am going to do...GO SLEEP...why should i kill myself and stress over doing this when No one else seems to care or help?? He wants clean clothes then I guess hes going to have to get them himself. He wants to do everything for everyone and do all this stuff while I am at home struggling to make it day to day then fine he can live in a slop house. I will just take the kids every day out to the park and come home for nap time and then go outside in the evening so i dont have to look at it....Yes i have taken my meds i forgot last night but have done great for a while....Everyone wonders why i want to flip out...He doesnt even get why i want to get out either...and wonder why i flip out on my kids when they dump milk on the carpet 2 TIMES in a ROW...ok i am going...its way too long if anyone cares to read.

Momof4: For extra Xmas $$ could you possibly get a part time job for maybe 2 nights a week or 1 night and Saturday? Let your husband care for the kids then and he will see what you go through. He needs to spend some alone time with them and that will give you some time away while bringing in some extra $$. That would also keep him from giving ALL his spare time to others and more to his own family that needs him too.

At work there is a girl who works part time with me who has 4 kids, one with special needs, and she works for some sanity time away from it all and of course the $$. Just a thought.

The part-time job idea is great. My dad had a son when he was nearly 50. After not being involved with us at all, his new wife demanded he do a big part of child care. My dad's comment to me (while my twins rampaged around us) was: "I understand why women get jobs; I'd work just so I could pay somebody to care of a kid!" This from a very traditional daddy-goes-out-to-work, never change a diaper or make a pediatrician's appointment sort of father. I loved it!